winnie loves you

2009-11-12T01:27:00.000-08:00

HEY ALL. I've change to a new blog, please relink me! Thanks alot!:)

WINNTJH.BLOGSPOT.COM

love you guys always! <3

2009-11-10T05:15:00.000-08:00

My feet are totally sore after standing in those high heels today. I think the organisers for today's event are really screwed. Won't name them though. Thye kept making us wait for nothing and kept screaming at us. I can't stand one of them and I asked Peggy why is he so rude and he actually heard me and turned around. Wtv, don't you dare to think that I'll be intimitated by your fierceness, they are crap. Lol. Zzz.

Anyway, I'm glad that our school team went into the finals tomorrow, all the best!:)

And I'm usually calm after today and somehow I've already memorised my script although I didn't deliberately memorise it. It just *Ding!* and I've already memorise it. Do you understand what I mean? Lol,....its okay I can understand. Maybe its because I've walked and posed and smile to damn alot of people on the stage today in the purple paper costume and this kinda made me braver and all my fears are gone now. LOL

Still feeling feverish and cold and of course, tired, since I woke up early at 4.30am today just to take the train to Seng Kang by 7am. Thanks Palmer love for waking up early and accompanying me there too! <3

Got to prepare for OP now. Lets hope that everything will be smooth and fabulous tomorrow!
HAPPY ROCK!
Yes its happy rock not happy rocks.

2009-11-09T05:34:00.001-08:00

So tired after a whole day out..

Anyway, do come down to seng kang at Anchorgreen Primary School to support our fashion show tomorrow!

Hope our school's team will win something, if not yingying, min ee and the rest will be very sad!

Gosh, need to wake up by 4am tomrrow in order to reach the school at 7 am tomorrow to prepare. Jiayou!

Need to memorise my script and go through all my op stuff later to make sure I'm prepared for the real OP on Wednesday.

And somehow, I went out feeling sickly and weak this morning and I came back feeling quite energetic and hmm...happy~ and feel much better.

Going to try to sleep early today!! bye!

2009-11-08T07:26:00.000-08:00

This place is as dead as ever. Not surprising though, since even me, the owner of this blog doesn't visit frequently. Kind of forgotten about it lol.

Got this sudden urge to blog and change to a new url and blogskin these few days.
Its almost done but there are still some problems with the html of the blogskin that I like so I guess I'll have to wait a few days. My new blog link would be winntjh.blogspot.com. Its not done yet, will post it when it is.

OP is driving me crazy though. Initially I feel quite cool about it, but after so many rehearsals with my group and some stuff that I've heard, I'm beginning to feel stress because I still can't memorise my script! Nevermind, we are going to rehearse again tomorrow in school again! I need sleep. I can't wait for everything to be over on wednesday.

Anyway, I have been having dreadful headaches, chest pain, difficulties in breathing these few days, can't sleep every night till like 2pm or so? and that's why I'm still up now. I think my body is facing some problems again, its giving some signs on my body already. I will be going to see some specialist in the hospital on my mum's birthday regarding it on the 16th. Sorry mum, no other dates. Don't worry to come near me though, its not some disease like AIDS, won't spread like this lol. I hope I'm not getting some cancer or what, I don't want to die so early.

Some random facts:
- I love drinking blackcurrant juice, fruit tips but not blackcurrant cake.
- I love drinking milo.
- I love the colour pink.
- I think that young fathers who carry their babies in shopping malls are very sweet.
- I am quite vain actually. ( All girls are)
- When I die I hope that my family will play jay chou's music in my funeral instead of those buddhist ones because I'm scared of them.
- I love little childrens.
- I love giving my loved ones little surprises in their daily lives to cheer them up.
- I want to own a cake shop.
- I am quite cold-blooded towards people whom I don't like. ( doesn't mean I will kill them)
- Once I dislike someone nothing can make me change my mind. ( lol so evil)
- I love the way how palmer cares and considers everything for me before I need to worry about anything.
- I think I am emotional but I hate to admit it.
- I don't really care about anything that is other people's business.
- I feel like eating some raspberry ice cream now.

Don't question, just feel random.
Hope you have learnt more about winnie.
Goodnight, long day(s) ahead before holy WEDNESDAY!
After that I'm going continue with all my tutorials and assessment books again.
Sweet dreams :)

2009-09-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

I'm currently trying to do my I & R for PW, which I've obviously been distracted from lol. Eh, Can't blame me though because I've have been feeling unwell for the whole day already. :/ It feels terribly uncomfortable to sneeze once every minute. I can't stop myself from sneezing seriously and I hope I din scare anyone. Though its kind of amazing that palmer can stand my unglam side. LOL funny boy.

Received some of my results back today! I rather not talk about it though. Just want to say that I'm quite disappointed by some. :(

Anyway, I've made an unfavourable but neccesary decision, although I'm still pondering over it. Should I go with it or should I not?
If I should, I don't know how to explain it to some people.
If I should not, I will be unfair to myself.

I'm in a dilemma.
I really don't know :(

2009-09-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

Yea, I know that I've said on fb that I've pasted my exam schedule on my comp's monitor to stop myself from coming online before my last exam on 22nd sept. I guess you can only stop yourself with your own determination that comes from your heart. Haha, but I'm just going to come here for a while and listen to some songs after mugging so many days. I will paste t exam schedule back afterwards I swear to myself. Lol, please scold me when you see me online.

I think I'm quite productive for these few days. Hope that I'll continue this way for t rest of the holidays. Actually I'm quite afraid for my results. I don't know if all these work hard will come to a good end. But either way, there would still be uncertainties. If I try, there would be chances that I'll score well. If I don't, then it will be confirmed that I won't score well. So I will persevere!

Anyway, Palmer's baby cousin was just born on last thursday! Aw..I like :):) It's a baby girl :)Her name is hui en. Haha, I like babies because I grew up helping my nanny to take care of all the little babies that she happened to take care for others for a period of time. :D They are so cute :) I hope that I can see little en en soon :P And my nanny's eldest son gonna get married next month on mid autumn festival! Aw, so sweet <3 All the happy things are happening. :)

Anyway, I realised that my temper has been pretty nasty recently. I keep throwing my temper at palmer for a slightest thing. :( Actually its pretty weird that he has never been angry with me or has never scolded me before. Its really weird. I can't imagine myself talking to a person who had just scolded me like shit few minutes ago, in a such sweet and patient way as if nothing has happened before. And he is like that. :/ He is really a downright good natured boy. Maybe that's why I dare to be mad with him so much subconciously.I'm sorry :( I'm a downright big bully. I know you're nice and I appreciate you. I'm a big fat bully with a bad temper. I am evil.

But boom is still the best :D Maybe some people may say that he doesnt look like the ideal kind of boyfriend or stuff, but he is the most handsome guy in my eyes. Haha, I know my posts are mostly filled by details of him and people may say that I'm too mushy wtv ^%$#@!. But I don't care. My life is too revolved around him and that's the fact. :P

I never like to hide things. It's not hard to see who is the most impt person to me apart from my family now :P

Anyway, I bought some little toys for en en with boom. Hope that I can give her some little gifts for all of her birthdays every year! :D Its really interesting to watch the growing journey of a baby :) Its really amazing esp its only nine months ago that palmer had just announced to me that his aunt was pregnant. So fast man!

Back to work now. GOOD BYE EVERYONE> HOPE THAT YOU WON"T SEE ME HERE ANYMORE FOR THE RESTO F THE HOLIDAYS AND DURING EXAMS. BYEBYE I LOVE YOU< YOU LOVE ME, WE ARE HAPPY FAMILY :D

I'm mad. And I like it. LOL.

2009-08-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

Hey..
Today is my first year anniversary with Palmer. I'm so happy today :)

I can still remember how he had asked me to be his girl exactly one year ago... We were strolling along the beach under the sunset then..

Up till now, we don't face much problems despite the fact that we come from two different schools. He is still as patient and sweet and caring to me as ever and still so so fantastic to the extent that I can't believe it sometimes. Even my sister like to defend him whenever I bully him now, lol.

So hell with all the preparations for EOY! I'm going to put everything down today to celebrate such an important day with my sweetheart. :) Which means even more hard mugging afterwards!!

We had planned for today since ages ago and so we went according to our plan. Actually its more of his plan since he is the one who planned majority of the day.

He said he would picked me up from my place before we set off for town.

(3.00pm)

Winnie: (Blabbering some nonsense with mum and mum blabbers back) "lalala, blah blah blah, hahaha, hohoho "

( phone rings!)

Palmer : "Hello winnie! I'm stuck in the lift! Come and save me now!!"

Winnie: "???!!! huh? Which lift? how come?"

Palmer : "I'm in your block's lift! Come here now and save me, I'm very scared :("

Winnie: "Okay Okay!" (panicks) " Mami! Palmer is stucked in the lift! Stop Blabbering lol, what should I do? "

Mum: (Stopped blabbering) " Wa, stucked in the lift then good!" ( LOL, funny mum )

Winnie: (Runs to save Palmer while worrying on the way on whether our anniversary will end up with him being stucked in the lift for the rest of the day)

And when I reached the lift with a face full of perspirations, Surprise! Palmer appeared suddenly out of nowhere with three big helium balloons in front of me! and they say " Happy Anniversary!" and " I love you!" Aw...

So he knows I'm still upset that the big pink helium balloon that he had bought me for my birthday flew away on that day, so he wanted to make my happier on our anniversary and he delivered it to my house this time! They are safe in my room now. :D

Anyway I shall keep the rest of the day a secret and keep it deeply in my heart. :)
I'm just very touched by him today.

Thanks alot boom. I'll remember all the things that you've done for me.
Happy Anniversary!! <3

:)

Mug mug jiayou!

2009-08-13T07:51:00.000-07:00

:) Hi boom, you're so lovely because we both have tiny eyes and I want to sing you a love song.

2009-08-08T21:28:00.000-07:00

万世沧桑唯有爱是永远的神话
潮起潮落始终不毁真爱的相约
几番苦痛的纠缠
多少黑夜挣扎
紧握双手让我和你再也不离分

你的泪水化为漫天飞舞的彩蝶
爱是翼下之风
两心相随自在飞

2009-08-07T21:06:00.000-07:00

I'm not going to let you hurt me ever again.
Goodbye now and forever.

2009-07-27T05:01:00.000-07:00

I will try my best to cope and push myself harder.
I won't admit defeat so easily, because its just not my style to do it.

2009-07-25T21:25:00.000-07:00

I was looking for my HSK cert just earlier on because some teacher told the level that it'll useful in future,but in vain. I can't be bothered now.

Anyway today is the only free day I have apart from thursday from physical training! Woohoo, I have been having muscles aches consecutively last week due to continuous Pt. Hell man, But I do feel healthier and a lil slimmer, LOL!
:D Anyway, I feel that my attitude towards Pt and other physical activities have changed. I used to fear about the arrival of it, dreading it and complaining non stop, but now it has shifted to more like embracing it and taking it with ease. Kind of a good change? I supposed its linked to the people I'm mixing around with when I'm doing them. When people feel happy, everything becomes so delightful. :)

Yesterday I went to yeeshuang's house to work on our oscar video after floorball training in the morning. Haha, had lunch there and ate lots of tidbits! yingying and yanni came too after their trip to arab street. Maybe I'm noob of something, but I've never went to arab stree before you know! I must go there someday! :P Ate some very nice chocolate flakes, yums! And worked on our script! I think our video would be super funny and cute :P Anyway yesterday was surprisingly fruitful, we finished most of the work by 5 plus and went home, hee :D

I think I ate too much heaty stuff yesterday so I feel kinda feverish today, lots of homework to do too! RAWR. I have this feeling that time literally flies. Everyweek I will be anticipating the arrival of another weekend and it will really arrive very soon. :/

Anyway got to go and complete my homework soon. BYEBYE! :D

2009-07-16T06:51:00.000-07:00

Just a short post I guess :)

Got back most of my results for mid years and all I can say is that I still need to work even harder. Jiayou!
Although I did mug really hard during the June holidays. In fact I was a like a Hermit and stayed at home most of the time haha.

Anyway, I realised that my left palm has been acting weird recently. Yes left palm. The muscles inside seem to swell and become very puffy. as compared to the other side. I can't exert strength when I write because the muscles inside have became very weak and painful. I'm quite worried because I'm a left hander. Sometimes even when I'm holding something I can't grab it properly and it will fall out of my hand. Even when I'm typing now it kinda painful. You know my hand is already very small and I don't know why is this happening to me. Maybe I sprained it unknowingly but I don't remember anything! zzz..Haha, hope I won't become paralyze man!

Anyway just some sweet moments of my life...

1. One day when I was on a bus to meet P who was supposed to hope onto the bus...

(2 of bus 123 came together)

w: "Hey I'm on the bus 123 at the front"
p: "Okay! License number?"
w: "I'm just on the first bus lo! I can't see the number from here!"
p: " It's okay, I'm on the bus already :)"
w: (Puzzled, didn't see him on the bus at all) "No where are you?"
P: " I'm on the first bus! Where are you?" ( Apparently another bus 123 came before mine and he boarded it)
w: " Aw...Its okay, lets meet at the final stop okay?" ( Many stops away)
p: " Okay :)"

The next moment my bus reached the stop after the one that we were supposed to meet, I looked up from my seat and he was already right in front of me :)

Haha, it may sound like a simple thing, but sometimes a simple thought and a light surprise can light up my day. P is always meticulous, sweet, caring and always out there to make me happy despite my bad temper. Haha, he says that I need not worry about my temper because he has loads of good tolerance and patience for me. Oh no, time to reflect about myself haha :)

Tomorrow will be a sweet day again :3

2009-07-07T09:10:00.000-07:00

Feeling very confused, sad and hmm..I don't know. What should I feel?

I think I have alot of commitments, although most of you don't know that because I don't say it.
I feel that commitments doesn't necessary need to mean those school related stuff and etc, or rahter, its a sense of belonging to a place or a group of people.

I have too much of them, sometimes I don't know where my loyalty lies. I tried to manage, but ended up giving up on some sides and I can't help it.

When we were young, we do things rashly, thinking that our actions make a lot of sense. But when I grow older, I realised some things that I did were out of my scope. I guess my mentality has changed after being exposed to many new stuff. I'm heading towards a different place now but history has created many obstacles for me. Many things has turned meaningless for me now although I didn't want it to.

I guess, my studies is my priority right now. I'm not superhuman like many of you out there, I'm a rather slow learner, so give me time to breathe okay? My parent expect alot from me and I can't afford to disappoint them and myself. Meanwhile, I'll continue to do all I can alright?

2009-06-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

Hello!

There're piles of things for me to do and I've already listed them out but holidays are really boring and I can't help posting something here because it looked so dead!

Haha and its obvious that I would only post when I feel that life's going unsmoothingly right. Rawr so I think you can guess my mood now. :P

Okay it's not very bad either and I'm probably just posting some crap here.

Anw, I've just file all my worksheets from school into various subject files. OMG, my table is freaking clean and tidy now. Actually I have this secret yearning to clean my table all the time and I always make sure that I wipe it clean whenever there is dust. I think I'm weird.

Hmm...holidays...are boring..haha, maybe because I have been staying at home most of the time since mid years are starting right after school reopens! Damn, half a year have just passed like this when I was still thinking that I was still 13 years old. Lol, I looked retarded and super fair last time and I looked cheena too.

I've really been studying all these while you know, to the extent that I'hvnt been seeing palmer for quite some time. Haha, but I'm going to the Jurong bird park with him, his mama and his brother this thursday! So cute, I like his brother...cute face and cute eyes!...hahahahaha..he looks like pamela. :P

Aiks, the last time that I've been to the bird park was in Pri 6 and I've even won the first prize for an art competition for drawing pink flamingoes. LOL.

Hmm...nonstagic. I used to be quite talented last time, I think?
Haha, used to be some artclub captain, some abacus and mental solving pro, dance and choir and wtv. Lol, I feel like I've been losing the momentum and passion that I've once have in studies subconciously.

I think if I would be able to time travel back to five years ago, the 12 years old self of me would surely give me a scolding and insult me severely. I don't know but I know I'm quite different now as compared to the past. I can't say if its a bad thing, because people do change and I feel that they change at different period of their life,because it is unavoidable and it is usually to adapt to a new lifestyle. And We stayed in this state because we feel comfortable and happy like this?

Attitude wise, I do admit that I've changed in the aspect of studies and I've recognised that it is an unwise mistake. I'm trying to make up for the lost time and I'll make sure I do it. Self-motivation. Haha, I'm aiming for a good score for a levels alright! Other than that, my character is very much the same. :) I'm still following some principles of mine. Some things just can't afford to be compromised by another.

Took a break today with my sis. Went for a good lunch break with her at lot- one. Good food, yums. We feel like puking after eating some mango sundae though, because it really tasted weird! But we still did'nt escape the burden of studying and mugged at the library for a bit.

I love studying in the libraries honestly. I have this peaceful and quiet stereotyped impression of the libraries in my head. So whenever I'm sick of studying at home I would make my great escape to the library. But its absurd because when I've reached there, it would be so crowded with a lot of people and even some disruptive ones which irritate me to the max. RAWR. Hate them. If they want to create a chao they should make their way to the playground and act a like a kiddo.

zzzz.

Got to sleep early tonight because there is class cip tomorrow. We're heading to the "Riding for the disabled people association" weekly. It's quite cool there because we get to assist the disabled people to ride on the horses. Can't imagine that there are actually horses in Singapore other than the Zoo. Ha, the last time that I had rode one was when I was 10 or probably younger in the zoo. I think all the horses have escaped there. There are at least 10 horses there and the staffs there are mostly europeans. Nice to see people who are keen to contribute to the society.

And someone is feeling down and troubled tonight. It makes my heart aches too :C Cheer up! I love your cute and white teeth, so smile and show them to me alright:D Don't worry we'll solve this problem together and I'll always be here I promise you :)

Okay, goodnight everyone and I hope that you'll have a sweet dream.

2009-06-01T05:27:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

Yea I know that I've abandoned my blog again. Sorry...they say that a happy person doesnt need a blog! Haha :D

Ahh..and I havn update on alot of things yet, like my birthday! floorball and etc!

A big thank you to all who have made my 17th birthday such a happy one, I know its like late for 2 months, but thanks!

:D

Thanks for t super delicious chocolate cake that you've made palmer:) I hope that we can really open a confectionary shop together in future :DD

Anyway I think that my physical strength has became stronger, I am healthier now!
YES!
I'm also crazier now. :(

And the hillary challenge 07 people are finally participating in an adventure race again!
This year we are participating in the NTU adventure race together, which is gonig to be held on 7 june.
I'm so happy but sad that munweng cant join us. But its okay, because eileen neo is joining our family :)

We just went for abseiling clinic and swimming test at yishun safra adventure club yesterday, the abseiling part is super scary, I was telling the facilitator that I was scared when I was about to go down. But after the descent I changed my mind because its super exciting. Adrenaline rush :P

We went to play billiard while waiting for our briefing in the evening. Jiaxu joined us while zikang left halfway. Haha, it was super crazy, xinyu and I kept taking pictures and eileen kept laughing at junwen..lol~!
We got our race tee too and its super big for the girls.......

Oh yea...I forgot to make jelly for class outing tomorrow. The response is quite good..keke...hope that it'll be fun :P My jelly is black in colour...hoho...awesome yea..XP

And palmer have just flew to India for a cip last friday and would only be back after a week plus. Life seems empty without him...really hope that he will come back soon...

Its sweet of him to call me twice or once in a day even though the bill will cost him 28 bucks for last then 10 minutes of talktime...hais...just received a sms from him...thats why palmer rocks! :(

Actually I don't know why some stupid people just like to condemn us. Please stop doing all these nonsense because it will only reflect how ignorant you are because you don't even know him, his personality and not even me. Only people who are on the same level as you would believe you. Please stop talking nonsense or else you will never experience an blissful life in future because nobody will love a evil bitch like you. Not that I care anyway because you can talk all you want, I'm not so narrow-minded and bitchy anyway :):)

Seriously, I've never like to say all these on my blog because I always feel that its meaningless to gossip about others and stuff, even if I don't like the person or whatever. But I don't like it when that person insult me or the people that I care for. In that case, F*** YOU. You are such a pathetic person with nothing else to do because no one loves you. Goodbye and may god bless you :)

Okay, I abmit that I'm abit too get away with the above stuff. Whatever. Lol, don't worry and I hope I didn't scare you if you are not involved. I'm normally not like this, only to people who hurt me or my friends :) I love you all lovely lots! :) hearts...<33 Because I believe that people who really know me won't believe in all these evil runours no matter what because they know my personality, thats why I'm not worried.

Alright, I got to make my black jelly now and wait for palmer's call!
Lets hope that tomorrow's outing would be fun! YES! :D

2009-05-28T21:47:00.000-07:00

"Winnie" by Palmer Ng

I've found love in a single soul,
And from that chest, my heart she stole.
That beating heart which sings of love,
A love so strong that none could swerve.

Her eyes, they sparkle like stars at night,
Oh, how I wish I could take flight.
Become the moon beside those stars,
Be with my love even though I'm far.

Although I might be at some distant land,
Know that I'd want to hold your hand.
And lead you through our life together,
Holding that Love which will never falter.

Just her smile would make my day,
I love her more than words can say.
Oh, my love, my darling, please don't frown,
Upon this poem my love is bound.

This is a poem for my girl,
A girl whom to me is my world.
Without her, there would be no me,
I love you, Happy 9 months, Winnie.

Palmer
29/06/2009

2009-05-03T02:34:00.000-07:00

Happy 8 months Palmer.
Every minute with you seems like eternity.
To me, you have smiles so genuine and sweet, a heart so caring and kind.
May you stay happy always :)

-WinnTJH 29/4/2009

2009-04-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

Hi all, in few hours I'm going to turn 17 years old.

Time really flies, I was still thinking that I'm 15 when I turned 16 and now I'm going to be 17.

I can't help feeling old, haha.

But anyway, I'm here trying to do my Pi but is unable to as I'm very distracted by a game on facebook called Bejeweled Blitz. It rocks!! At first I was skeptical about it, but now I think it really rocks! I have been playing it since yesterday nonstop!

I hope that my 16th year is not spent in vain, I hope that I have learnt and matured a little more than my 15th year as a person.

Life for me now is pretty much perfect. I am very content. I have lovely friends, family who supports me no matter what happens and a wonderful him who is able to give in to all my bad temper and all. What else can I wish for? Perhaps only for a better result...haha.. I'm a really happy girl.

Now, let me savour the last few hours of my 16th year in the midst of doing my pi.

Cheers to everyone who have made my life meaningful :)

2009-04-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

I didn't forget, changed or have let go of it.
I seemed like this merely because I don't want to make myself upset anymore.

Everything came rushing back to me today.

2009-03-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

I'm pretty fine actually, no worries friends :)

My leg is getting better. At least after I spammed counterpain on it before physical activities. I feel much happier now that I can do sports again.

Anyway, I realised that I am very weird.
I once said that I will become very grumpy when I don't get enough sleep. Thats true.
But I realised that sometimes I'm in fact very energised when I don't get enough sleep and instead become very grumpy when I have had enough.

Yea la yea la, I'm grumpy round the clock okay.

Actually I think I know why is that so.. keke
You know when we sleep enough, our body will become even more relax and get use to the sleeping mode and yearn for more sleep? So if we don't get enough we will feel that we are deprived and feel grumpy. Do you agree? ? I don't know man, thats what I think after pondering for very long..hmm..

Then when I have very little sleep the night before( like yesterday), I feel very energised today!!! Actually not energised, maybe I'm challenging myself to complete everything that I have to, when subconciously I'm having this mentality that I can't. Surprising the day passed really fast for me! I don't why I either, I slept at 1 am plus last night as I was rushing my GP essay which I started at 12am. -.- Haha, I was distracted before that and in the end we didn't even need to hand it in today. -.- Its okay, at least I have one load off my shoulders. :D

Anyway the reason why I was distracted because I was watching alot of TV last night! Oh no, I feel guilty confessing it but I havn watched tv for very long already. You know there is this very cute baby show yesterday. I was feeling very grumpy before and after watching it, I was revived! The babies are all so adorable and I feel like kidnapping all of them home. HAHAHA, I sound like a freak.

But they are really super cute, oh dear!

The babies actually talked to the tv you know, they think the money used in monopoly is real too because they recognise money by number and picture and the fake money has all of them, so it is a real money. Ain't babies cute, I love them. I saw many in vivo into, vivo is one of the places with major supply of cute babies from all ethnicity. One of them is chasing a green balloon and giggling from the heart, he has brown hair too. I also saw a father playing catching with his son, that is really sweet. It is really a joyful scene and they remind me of my father. My father is a really sweet gentleman too, I love him. Children seem to have no trouble and they play all day long. I love their innocent smiles. :))

Anyway I have added a new korean song on my blog, it is after my old blog song. Try listening to it, its not bad.

Floorball tomorrow, see ya guys :)

Till Death do us part and beyond

2009-03-20T20:50:00.001-07:00

i love you...

2009-03-19T08:10:00.001-07:00

heartbroken

2009-03-18T23:19:00.000-07:00

I still care about you.
Just that my concern comes in a form of silence.

I can forego all the worldly desires, I only want your heart.

2009-03-15T04:16:00.000-07:00

I'm officially ill for the third time in the year. ( 2 months plus only)

Fever of 40 plus degrees and a serious flu plus a very bad sore throat that forces me to breathe with my nose because my throat hurts when I inhale air from my mouth.
Not forgeting the tendon in my left thigh which is still recovering from the match last sunday after I sprained it again.

Honestly, I really don't know why my body is so weak this year. In the past I will only fall sick for like..once a year??

This is upsetting me. I can't go for floorball, Pe, or go anywhere myself without feeling like I'm going to faint for every step I take. Furthermore I have to face several doubtful eyes from some scheming people as if I'm feigning and I feel guilty not going for floorball when nationals is so near and also not going for pe.

but its not like I want it. You think bearing all these is easy? try it for yourself..You think I want to waste my parents money by going to docs for so many times? You think I'm a loser that has nothing better to do? Its over a few hundred bucks k..because I see the doc more than once everytime it worsens. You think I feel good not going for training or for pe? I come from a ug grp so of course I know the meaning of "all for one and one for all" and seriously they are actually not very tough or tiring for me. Its just that I have reasons and I know what I'm doing. I don't wanna push myself anymore, because I injured my tendon just because I stubbornly pushed myself during training when I havn even recover from the stomach flu then and when its healing again, I pushed myself to go for t match and I injured it again. As for pe, do you think I will be satisfied with an B, C or D for my 2.4km run because I havn run for so long? Its not that getting a B or C is bad, but since I'm used to A, you think I will be stupid enough to fake that I'm ill just to slack during pe and not get my A? I dare to say that I've never slack during pe before okay, I always try my best to run to my maximum ability. This is crap man, please don't be unfair to me.

I think pushing ourselves to challenge our limit is a good thing, but there must be a limit to it, or else you will end up like miserable winnie.

Aiks, don't misunderstand I'm not angry or whatever, I'm just fed up at myself for falling sick all t time, worrying my parents and friends. To those who have cared for me, helped me around, doing little sweet actions like walking slower with me because I can't walk very fast, thanks a lot. I'm really glad that I've met you. :) To those who don't or even doubt me, I don't really care either.

Actually there are not many of the latter la, I'm just writing out what I feel in case there are people out there who belongs to that category. Or maybe I'm going crazy because of the heat on my forehard, hoho.

Nah..don't worry..enough of my rantings..just feeling very low because of all my injuries la..because I'm missing out on alot of stuff..:(

my throat hurts..

Anyway will be returning back to the arms of my beloved floorball on Wednesday although my tendon is still a little painful, but hope that it will be okay. We are having a friendly match with
NJC at Tampines cc. There is also some SPH event to welcome the new student correspondents at SPH on the same day I think?

Aiks, lots of homework waiting for me too, I can't remain cool already. I'm typically feeling grumpy all day long nowadays. :((((

Hope something will come along this study break to cheer me up, I must pray to the god..

Bye..

2009-03-06T05:12:00.000-08:00

Life has been alright and I got back my results for my first few tests of 2009.

They are just so-so, definitely not good enough and not up to my expectations. Well, I read the straits time today and there is this special part of it devoted to scholarships. I guess its because today is the day that the A-levels results are going to be released. So I was reading every scholarships available on the newspapers very seriously and asking myself many questions.

In what scope of skills should I pursue for my job in future? What am I good at? Even if I'm interested, will I be eligible for them? Have I worked hard enough?

The answer is well..definitely obvious and a straight no. Actually I have been quite cross with myself because I have been doing all these reflections so very often and yet I can't seem to make myself do what I want to do. Aiks, sorry I have my flaws. But I guess I really have to stop all this and work hard because I'm really worried for A-levels. I don't want to make life hard for my parents nor trouble them in anyway because of my poor management and discipline.

So yea, I'm currently in the process of upgrading my lifestyle. I've already stopped sleeping at late hours of 12 or 1pm due to the influence of palmer, so I practically sleep at 10pm or latest 11.30pm everyday. Well, I think thats a great improvement on my part, at least I have prevented myself from being grumpy in the morning every morning. Kekeke.. :P
What else.. Oh yea, I've also reduced my usage of the internet and have been doing my tutorials and work regularly. I feel much better spiritually now, there is a lot of meaning in my life now, hoho. I will work harder!

and I have been rather sickly for the first few months too. Had a stomach flu few days ago and my stomach almost rotted because it was hurting so so so much then. Its like having cramps in my stomach every minute, you can't imagine how bad it was, was almost admitted into the hospital. Didn't go to school for a few days because I had no strength from all the vomits and etc. Feeling warm and fuzzy for that few days though because of the care and concern that my family and friends had given me. Thanks P for coming at night to bring me to the doctor too, I'm really touched. :)

All this is a belated post for someone. Happy sixth month palmer. I had a very wonderful half a year with you. Thanks for all the love, despite my bad temper, I'm really touched by your tolerance for my moodswings. I feel like a princess in front of you and to me you are someone who I can depend on in times of crisis and someone that I can confide in. I feel really happy and comfortable when I'm with you and I hope you feel the same way. I know that life is unpredictable and there is no definite answer to any relationship. But after such a long period togehter, I've found my own answer to our relationship. I don't want to say anything mushy and I just want you to know that I appreciate you alot and I will treasure you wholeheartedly, even more. I hope we can forget the time and stay on like this together happily ever after :)

Baby I love you, thanks for the couple tee and sweets..<3

2009-02-24T00:24:00.000-08:00

Hoho
My handsome man in black. ( the one on the right, lol)

Bleh, I'm addicted to posting his picture. :P
Oh no I'm in love!

<3
Ps: Don't kill me palmer :P

2009-02-24T00:14:00.000-08:00

I'm so grumpy at home with all the illness and studying bombarding on me all at one time.
I really need something to cheer me up.
So there you go ( pointing above).
Cute teeth, kekeke.

:D

I just found this on facebook, hahahaha. Thanks zhiwei, your photo came just in time.

I'm happier now. :D:D:D:D

2009-02-23T19:13:00.000-08:00

I havn been in school for yesterday and today because I am sick with high fever and stomach flu.

It started with high fever on Sunday afternoon, so I went to see a doctor after my fever reached a ridiculous temperature of 38.5 degrees. It is really sweet of Palmer and Dad to come along and accompanied me there even at such a late hour. Not to forget my parents who took meticulous care of me for these few days, I'm really grateful. Love all of you!!

So I rested at home yesterday while busy mugging for my econs test. But aiks, after a while my stomach started to hurt again. It feels as if millions of bugs are biting me from inside. Its not the normal kind of stomachache, its more like erm, cramps in the abdominal area and it can really kill. So I went to see the doctor again and he told me that its stomach flu or something and I'm supposed to go to the hospital if this continues today, which it did. But I'm not going to the hospital..I'm way too concern over my 2 retests tomorrow to go to the hospital.

I feel really weak and painful now because my stomach is still hurting. I really have cravings for chocolate cakes now but I can't because all I can eat now is porridge.
AH..AND I"M TOLD THAT I CAN'T EAT FRIED FOOD UNTIL HALF A YEAR LATER.
please slap me if you see me eating them secretly. lol

Oh yea, to those who have shown your concern, thanks a lot man. Love you guys ! <3

aiks..I'm really feeling super sick..can't seem to concentrate on anything. Hope my 2 retests tmr will go well. bye

2009-02-18T06:57:00.000-08:00

Sorry all, I neglected my blog once again..
Well, I always do that when I'm busy with some stuff, actually most of the time is just one stuff, but anyway I'm just busy thats it.

I'm still busy now, but just feel like talking now, so tadas I'm here.

Life has been pretty normal just that all our exams are coming. Just took my Gp and physics test today. Aw, I studied like crap after floorball yesterday and I was so dead today. Both were okay but I suppose that its just some stupid assumptions of myself cause my results often reflect different things.

School after the tests were much easier since I became relaxed after experiencing all the stress before it. We had a nice champs lesson which required us to pass around some folded papers with our names for our classmates to add in some good points of us. Its pretty heart- warming. :) Had class lunch later at queenways with almost the whole of 5P. haha..we should have more of these outings! :D

Cabbed to bukit merah sec with roboshanshan, yingting and yeejin afterward. Well..its a good game cause we got quite a lot of exposure from the team which is the overall champion in the nationals. Had some rigorous pt after it. So I was really shag after the whole day.

Aiks..for the rest of the day..don't feel like talking about it already..
I think I should give up on some stuff already and let myself live a happier life.
been thinking about some random stuff..like some of the people who had once crossed my life..my friends in the past and etc.
Kinda miss some of them.
I realised that I'm a different person at different period of time in my life. I sort of forgot how I was like in the past and why I made some of the past decisions. Life's puzzling ain't it. Well I know this may contain some fragments of irony but yea, I'm really constantly changing. Hmm..environment can really change a person. What I want to achieve is constantly changing too. Perhaps I would look back in future and regret some decisions that I've made now because they make no sense in future. I hope this won't happen because my principles are still valid at all times.

Time to get back with some friends, haha..maybe having dinner or studying sessions with some of them soon. I wanna get back to my original lifestyle and not stray too faraway from it.

I also hope that my emotions can stop affecting me in the head. Argh, been having frequent moodswings recently, pardon me.

goodnight:)

2009-02-10T05:52:00.000-08:00

Hello fellow readers of Winnie Tan Jia Hui's blog! This is Palmer blogging on behalf of his lover cuz she's currently busy with studying whatever she's studying and he still has 3 days of orientation t go.

He would like to say a very big thank you to all of Winnie's friends who have made some effort one way or another to say hi to him he rly appreciates it but sometimes he is very bad with names.

He might seem overprotective at times but bear in mind that he rly is overprotective. :D rawr.

Her favourite colour is pink.

2009-02-03T06:52:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to adjust to the jc style of learning! *Beams* Although I still feel tired occationally ( alright its practically everyday), but at least I don't feel grumpy anymore! Well, I feel that it is because I've started eating well, sleeping well and working well, which is something which I have stopped doing for the past 4 years. That explains why I always go to school walking like a zombie that just have rose up from the ground. Lol.

5P is a pretty cool class actually, filled with a bunch of nice people and a nice name :P. I feel really comfortable among them, no hypocrites, no backstabs, at least no for now. I can laugh and joke all I want with them, especially with some old friends, its a really nostalgic experience. Anyway, we had a new member in the class, which is jonathan, haha, so we have 26 peeps in 5P now! :D

And more and more of floorball nowadays! Aw, its twice a week, so I've been having muscle aches for almost everyday, feel as if I'm a old granny with frail body structure. Yea, and I still get tired easily despite all the long hours of sleep that I have everyday, argh. I need to work on my stamina seriously, if not I will look like tomato everytime after training, oh no. ><

Went lunching with clarine today and we talked alot, about school, people, gossips and cute babies! Haha! Love you clarine! You are the first squadmate that I've known, my slow eating, changing, toilet, NPDP, SYF, badminton, KFC, april baby mate!

Life seems perfect to me currently, every flaw in my life seems to be recuperating. :) I feel loved and have the will to love those that love me back. I know this maybe just a short term effect, but I really hope that time can come to a standstill now and retain all the happiness that I've experienced in this moment.

Ahhhh, its 11.10 pm already and I must turn in now if not I will feel grumpy tomorrow. I want to thank all my friends who read my blog because I know you care, although most of you don't tag, its okay. As for those who are offensive to my friends, please just go away. I don't want to use any vulgarities although I really wanted to, because I know it is very disrespectful. Please reflect on your own purpose in life if you really have nothing else to do because I will be very angry if you continue to be so stubborn.

Good night and have a sweet dreams everyone!
I love appearing offline. :D

2009-01-29T03:32:00.000-08:00

You're the only person who I think of every night before I enter my dreams.

Happy 5 months <3

2009-01-20T15:54:00.000-08:00

Hey all..it have been a long time since I last posted something huh?

School has started and honestly I'm still not used to studying and wandering in the canteen during my free periods. I miss all my friends from 4L last year... :(

But anyway, I'm in 5P in case you don't know. Its pretty fine in my opinion, loads of nice people..and yea..yeejin is my classmate too. I think its sort of amazing how we returned back to the same class after 2 years.

I'm suffering from a high fever today, thats why I'm here instead of in school. I'm sorry team mates, I can't play floorball with you guys this afternoon, jiayou!

I'm really hurt too.
Nevermind, you won't understand how I feel.

2009-01-06T06:34:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PALMER!

Ain't you lucky that you turned 17 before us! Haha, I hope you have enjoyed your birthday party earlier on, don't worry it is not flopped! Well, I hope you like my card, banner, present and also the cake that I've baked with Junice!

Oh yea, with great power comes greater responsibilities, all the best for year 5 in your IB programme! Lets work hard together this year and leave no regrets! :D Thanks for being there for me all this while, I really appreciate it. I love doing special things with you, like picnic-ing, countdown-ing and etc..don't worry this year will defintely be a better year with us together!
I wish you all the best :)

Awesome fabulous sweet puffy ponyo Palmer, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

<33

Hey my lover, lets walk hand in hand till the end of the world together.

2008-12-29T18:27:00.000-08:00

These few days have been challenging for us.
Thanks for being there for me, I really appreciate it alot.
I can't help but visit my blog to listen to our song everyday, it gives me strength.

Sweet baby don't fear, this hurdle is for us to overcome together, our love will only grow stronger.

Happy 4 months. :)

2008-12-27T03:17:00.000-08:00

Nothing is constant.
Perhaps change is the only constant.

I don't know why I'm saying this, nothing happened to me actually, its just some of my reflections. Kinda recalled some events in my life, and those beliefs that I once held so strongly to. It is amazing how some of them evaporated and disappeared as the time goes by.

Whenever people ask me about my ambition in future, I would give them some vague answers nonchalantly and dismiss that thought immediately. Come to think of it, my answers are different all the time. Some of them are abstract, unreachable, too reachable and etc. Honestly, I do not have an exact goal worth working and striving hard for right now. My life now is like a balloon hovering through a thick mist. I do not know the danger ahead, yet I'm powerless over my own destiny since Im so penetrable. This may sound like a crude and careless remark. But I feel that its time for me to settle down and stop hovering around like a social butterfly.

I know that I'm once a girl who was so easily overcomed by emotions, using her heart instead of her brain to think. If you ask me if I have lived meaningfully, I would tell you yes, because I dare to face all my problems myself and solve it. However undeniably, I have certain flaws which I have yet to change till now. I need to dispose off that irrationality and the ferocious temper that would rise from nowhere when I'm angered. Argh, my pride is also an issue, I should not let it obstruct me too often.

4 days to the end of 2008. As I look back on 2008, I feel that it is quite a short year. It is not as exciting as the precious years, yet it is filled with fond memories. I've experienced many internal struggles and regrets regarding my studies and at the same time, I met another special boy in my life. His existence brought ripples of sweetness and happiness once again into my already numbed heart. As I juggled between my various commitments and my studies, 2008 sprinted past me.

In the new year, I want to find a goal for myself and develop my niche area. At the same time, i want to constantly remind myself of the importance of education because I realised that the meaning of it is slowly slipping away from me.

Argh winnie, life is not a bed of roses! I will still follow my heart and do what I like to do, but at the same time, I will still complete what I'm suppose to do properly. The reason why I'm reflecting and exposing all my flaws here is because i want live a more meaningful and happier life. Acknowledging the problems is always the first step and its also partly because I'm very bored at home.

I hope that by the end of 2009, I can look back and announce loudly that I did everything that I want to do.

2008-12-24T05:00:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas from lovely and me :D

2008-12-22T07:25:00.000-08:00

Sun burnt again after floorball. Why am I so prone to having sunburns? Seriously, I don't know whether I should consider this as good thing or not. It has its pros and cons, meaning I will remain fair forever and I won't get tan forever. So the issue here is whether fair or tan is nicer. So this comes down to the perception of beauty, which I don't really care much for since I don't have any control over my skin colour. Anyway I feel okay with my own body and I don't see a need to do any change to it. After four years in np, my skin tone didn't really get any darker..ahh..I will stop now because I sound so girlish, yueting gonna scold me soon oh no. :/

I have freckles hidden on my skin! zzzz

Anyway, congratulations yueting for completing your CI course. You are a cadet inspector now! and wow you completed t 21 days course, BRAVO, I'm proud of you squadmate! Hold on to your dreams! hehehe

and today I just found out that palmer was the head prefect in his primary school. Wa, I suddenly feel so happy and proud for him,I don't know why although its like a matter from ages ago. But not everyone can be a head prefect right, not bad palmer!:D

Anyway, Peggy lost her dog, skippy. :( I always thought skippy has a cute name, makes me think of a bouncy and lively dog, and peanut butter too ;P Anyway, this is peggy's blog http://daintylove.diaryland.com/visit it and look out for her dog skippy alright! Anyway don't be sad peggy, I hope he comes back soon! hearts <3

Aiks, I'm typng random stuff as usual today. Hmm..nothing much to add on on my life, because its pretty normal since I'm trapped at home for most of the days.

I realised that passion doesn't last. I'm kinda sick of something that I once loved one year ago.
Don't misunderstand, I'm not refering to anyone, its just something...a thing.. yea its this one thing which is bothering me.
But I'm quite fine, so don't worry :)

I'm currently addicted to a drama called My Lucky Star recommended by shuhui. Its really nice with wonderful plot and melodious songs, so you can try watching it! :D

Gonna sleep now, making spaghetti for my lovely tomorrow, yum yum. Sugar dreams! <3

2008-12-14T05:19:00.000-08:00

I've realised that many things in life do not go according to how we wish, hmm..obstacles I should say..
especially people, yes people..

For many times we quarrel with people because our objectives don't match, or just because we just feel unhappy about seeing him or her..

but actually if we think carefully, many things are beyond our control, like how our teeth look, how big are our eyes and etc..

and everyone has their own reasons, principles behind their behaviour..maybe this would clash with some other individual's opinion and conflict might escalate..

I don't even know why I'm blogging about all these stuff after such a long empty period of blogging.

I just feel that our understanding for each other is too vulnerable and sometimes, they break too easily. And by each other, I mean our close friends and all..Sometimes, this is why we lose our friends without even knowing why..

On a lighter note, hi all :) I'm back from Qingdao.

Life been good, quite fulfilling, too fulfilling to put them in words.
I din really gt a job yet, but I din really waste time too..spent my time quite wisely..I think?
haha..though I hope to get a job soon honestly..shuhui!!

And Qingdao is a really beautiful city, with all the windy beaches and hospitable people.
I feel quite at home there, except for the weather. haha, my skin kept peeling over there, but my complexion sort of got better after I returned to sunny Singapore :)

Amazing huh, I really don't know why, everytime my skin peels, my pimples disappear! Its like magic and I'm not kidding.

Nothing else to elaborate, having floorball training tomorrow at 730am and meeting our new coach for the first time too. Anyway, RVFBT (River Valley Floor Ball Team) is recruiting! We need more members to form a team to compete in matches. Aiks, don't be disillusioned by the floorball PE sessions last yearokay, it totally sucks, ours is a wholly new experience! We are cool with our sticks. Join us! Interested parties please contact any of our floorball members!

and mingjie just reminded me of the unit chalet this tuesday to thursday. Don't know if I will be going..we'll see..:)

Got to sleep now, because I know I will be very grumpy tomorrow if I don't sleep.
Bye :D

2008-12-07T20:21:00.000-08:00

Specially came to post something...because it yueting's birthday!

hahaha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dear
although you cant go out with us today..
hope you have enjoyed the last moment of your fifteenth year..:)
all the best to you future CI!
jiayou! squadmates will be behind you always :)
Loves <3

2008-12-05T10:00:00.000-08:00

数不清的泪
我又哭了好几回
幻化成蝶
停留在这片落叶
被风化的雪
埋藏在千年以前
我用尽一生的思念
只为等着你出现
回忆渐渐凋谢落在我身边
唤不醒原来还跳动的画面
就让我留在轮回的边缘
等一道光线
看见某年某月我们之间曾经说过的预言
就让他带走你的那瞬间
成为我们的纪念
谁能发现我的世界
曾经有过你的脸

如果没有你我怎会记得那年的夏天

很晚了，睡不着。。也不知为何。。
心里有个沉沉的感觉。。
今晚，我感觉我好像是一个迷路的小孩。。盲盲目目在黑暗中摸索某些感觉。。
在床上发呆了很久。。才决定来这里寻找一些安慰。。

这几天和很多朋友联系了。。心理忽然有个觉醒的感觉。。你们的关怀让我倍感温馨
很想念某些朋友还有从前的时光。。

或许我从前太顾及别人的感受了吧。。而总是让自己受到伤害。。
我该怎么做呢？
我的心好乱啊。。我需要你的辅导：（

2008-11-15T18:57:00.000-08:00

I'm leaving for Qingdao on 21st Nov and will be back on 2th Dec..
Don't miss me too much..although I will definitely miss all of you
:)

Life been good so far, just floorball, qingdao meetings, some outings..etcetc..

Floorball is super duper fun..not to mention that my legs keep getting whacked by unknown people.. hahaha..im not blaming anyone..cuz I'm sure I've whacked someone during the game too..I'm sorry :(

Still, the worst thing is: I lost my Jacket.
God, you wun know how upset I am, because its my SQUAD jacket.
I've search everywhere and I can't find it. :'(
Squadmates, please come and kill me now.
I'm so sorry I lost it, but I still love all of you.
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

anw, its my mother's birthday today :D same as mingjie's.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I love you alot alot alot mama.
Aiks, I'm not going to go on and ramble about how much I love you because I believe you can feel it with your heart everyday.
Just to cut it short, hmm..
Thanks for being there for me no matter what happens. Your support is my motivation for everything, I love you..:)

2008-11-10T05:35:00.000-08:00

baby 我想为你写一首歌：）

2008-11-07T05:07:00.000-08:00

时光一眨眼逝去我们终于来到了终点
最后的钟声响起我们是否是时候说再见
虚伪的话撤一边因为这不是永别
心里有个小小心愿就是和你一起到永远

四年过了，说长不长说短不短的四年里，心里经历了无数的沧桑，成长。。。
许多事，人，让我领悟到许多。。。有好的，也有坏的。。
成长，未必是件好事。。
当你懂得更多时，在那同时，世界似乎也变得更黑暗了。。身边的人似乎都变得没那么单纯。。

所以我喜欢单纯没有心机的人。。只有真挚的友情。才能如清澈的泉水般细水长流。。。

我也发现我留下了许多后悔。许多曾经的承诺没有实现，有些实践的职责并没有如我想象中完美。。

回顾一切，或许我给自己过多不必要的借口。

不过，感谢一路上陪伴我的朋友。没有你们的支持，脆弱的我或许在半路上心就轻易的被敲碎了。

不要怕，我还是很爱你们，哈哈哈哈

拜拜

2008-10-31T07:43:00.001-07:00

Sports day today.
Wow, I'm so sunburnt...again..:/
but its okay..
since gryphon got third?
lol..we are the last house since other houses got hundred over points when we got 35?! because we din really take part in the heats..but its okay..we did quite well today..
lol..

anyway..
happy halloween everyone!
supposed to go trick and treating with ayesha and gang..but nvm..
we will be going over to her place tmr night for bbq..

argh..
im really radiating now..
im going to die..
my skin hurts..
haha..I'm going to slap you if you dare to laugh at me when you happen to see me :P

alot of things to do and settle after exams..
but first..
I will be worrying for my promotion day..
im going to die at home because I'm too worried.

alright got to go, need to go to school tomorrow for t qingdao stuff..
sweetdreams everyone.. :)

2008-10-24T22:27:00.000-07:00

:)
Floorball yesterday..its really fun and I'm suffering from all t aftermath muscle aches now..
must be because I forgot to warm up ytd..haha..

hmm..

Happy 2 months too.. <3s..
:)

2008-10-23T20:46:00.001-07:00

Hey darling...

:) happy two months!

wow... time pasts really fast doesn't it?

lets make the world jealous of our love... :D

and... I'm rly sorry if i hurt you in any way last night ok?

idk what came over me...

:( sorry... hmm...

dun worry too much for yr results bah... things will work out in the end...

believe it and it will happen! :)

muacks, i love you darling...

your cute boy,

Palmer :3

2008-10-23T06:02:00.001-07:00

I don't know what to feel for my compre results..
thanks mrs law for the heartwarming phone call..its really encouraging..
:)

I don't know why you are treating me so coldly now..it really hurts..you know..?

2008-10-22T03:14:00.001-07:00

Tired.
Cold.
Sick.
Sleep.

1 not so random fact.

2008-10-21T07:23:00.001-07:00

:D I love you no matter what happens...

so stay happy darling!

hearts...

2008-10-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

10 random facts

1. I feel fed up now.
2. I miss you a lot now.
3. I am worried for my results although I know thr is no use.
4. Sometimes I really feel like giving everything up and sleep like thr is no tomorrow.
5. I have sunburns and headache now.
6. I'm sick of some irritating people.
7. I wanna eat a chocolate cake.
8. I wanna find my red clip which I've lost when I was sleeping yesterday.
9. I wanna cut my hair and buy lots of stuff which I wanna buy.
10. I wanna stop feeling so retard.

Byebye.

2008-10-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

Long time no see! *beams*

Exams are finally over..yayy..everybody is announcing this on their blogs..lol

:)))))
I am so happy but I realised that my life after exams is kinda boring, so I'm gonna find something to keep myself occupied. :)))

Oh yea, I've finally watched painted skin..its not bad..though its not as nice as I thought it would be..
but still...thanks for such a wonderful yesterday...hope it did cheer you up... :)

However it dawned on me that o lvls starts on monday!
oh dear..I'm such a bad friend..only realised this through kok haw this morn when I called him..
jiayou all my friends who are taking Os! Especially kok haw, jackie, benjamin, jiayu, etc..gogogo!

oh yes..I've got to post in my lingying blog later..haha..
Finally returned to baoguan this afternoon after my disappearance for so many days due to exams..
lol..need to ally ally with nicholas for nov and dec gathering for lingying..and do zi geng di with lynn and yufan..

As for my holiday plans..I'm going qingdao with shuhui and etc from 22/11 till 2/12 ( 12 days)..
then I will be having TXY internal from 21/12 to 24/12 ( 4 days)..christmas eve! haha..thats it for now..but I guess theres more ba..with floorball trainings..all the other gatherings..busy busy..

and my dear binbin..where is my 4L chalet!?

Hmm..sidenote.. I love Korean movies, dramas and boybands.. like bigbang!
wa..don't say I'm a hypocrite who likes them according to looks okay..at least big bang looks and sings better than you..don't be petty and jealous la....!

okay enough..
now that exams are over..
I really hope that I will do well..
please let me do well and promote to year 5..
please..plase..please..

I really hope that I can make it.

2008-10-12T04:12:00.000-07:00

I don't want it to be built on this..
why..
I feel so wrecked..

Because I Love You

2008-10-07T04:14:00.001-07:00

Hey baby... :) thanks for tday yea... it was sweet... :)

hmm...

I've been giving this alot of thought... as to how we ended up tgt... :)

haha... it's like a fairytale yknw... everything happens so fast...

but it always has a happy ending... :)

loves you darling... :3 muacks...

xoxo,

Palmer :D

2008-10-05T23:37:00.000-07:00

遇到
方雅贤

你身上专属的陌生味道
是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望了
知道今世我们相隔着一个街角
这么久了还是可以看到
感觉的到你对我的重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰
你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀
我们绕了这么一圈才遇到
我比谁都更明白你的重要
沉默久了我就决定了
决定了你的手我握了不会放掉
我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我要的我自己知道
只要你的肩膀依然让我靠

miss you ..big smiles :D

2008-10-04T11:10:00.000-07:00

Its 2:10am now and I can't fall asleep..
so I came to do a bit of blogging..

hmm..
hii.. :)
I'm fine so far, how bout you?
okay I sound dumb, but..aiks..pardon me..my brain is dying from t massive storage of chemistry..

anyway..
I have a problem bothering me recently..
there is this thing which I really want to tell a good friend of mine..
Its nothing wrong..in fact its something to be happy about..
but I really don't know how to say it..

ahh..dilemma..

hai..please..do not ask me what it is..I just wanna briefly mention it here to kinda..relieve myself..? just..don't ask..thanks..i will appreciate that..

sometimes..I do reflect on..
the decisions that I have made..are they always right?
I don't know..maybe I do know some of the answers..
my life is alright now..but I guess there are still lots of loopholes..little hiccups..some friends lost along t way..some memories lost..some people disappearing..

yes i do have regrets..
that some things do not turn out the way i want them to be..
some of my friends did not stay like how they promised to..
some betrayals..some little misunderstandings..and my diminished love..

I don't know..I'm just depressed that I am no longer as close with some friends whom I was so close with in the past..:(

even for my friends now..will we still laugh and joke around like how we do now ten years later?

I don't know..sorry but I'm a pessimist..
I guess we just have to value what we have now?

just wanna say sorry to any friends whom i have hurt unintentionally before..just wanna tell you that even if we don't talk to each other anymore..no longer there for each other anymore..or even if you've forgotten me..you will still be my friend forever.. :)

argh..
enough about t sad things..

claire is back in singapore from aussie..!
I was so happy when i saw her..although I didn't recognise her straight away with her dyed hair and..increased body size..? oops..but I saw her fair skin..and right away i knew..
saw her bag on my table..and that confirmed my suspicion..
I was so elated that i cried..because I missed her so much recently and she appeared in front of me out of t blue..

really love you girl..ah..all the things from last year came back..
how we spent our afternoons..how we failed math tests tgt..our damn attitude..all t fun..
running with you somehow gave me even more strength to run faster and break my own record..
ahh..altho u can't run as fast now..i will always rmb our runs last time..
oh yea..you little red lifeguard still with me..it accompanied me thru my hillary challenge last year..haha..

ah..its a pity its exams period..if not we can spend more time with you..
aww..miss you..:( come back always bestieeee

I love you shuhui, lilin, qinyu, claire, cheehooi, peggy, siyao, pamela, ayesha, debbie, dodo, jean..etc..and all my other friends..you know who you are..

ah..I don't want 4L to part, I don't want my squadmates to part..I don't want anyone to leave mee..:(((

sorry..now you see my emotional side.
goodnight
its 2.47am now..boo :(

(fixed with love <3)

:3

2008-10-03T19:28:00.001-07:00

:) hello baby...

you're probably still sleeping bah... haha...

just wanted to say hi and...

i love you... :D

jiayou fr yr exams mmmkay... :)

you can do it!!

with love, xoxo

Palmer

2008-09-30T19:47:00.000-07:00

EOYs..

:)

I'm trying to stay like this and I won't think about anything else now.

17th Oct.. :(

2008-09-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

Stop thinking and worrying so much. pretty please.

2008-09-22T08:14:00.000-07:00

Went to peggy's blog..and omg..smacking sexy photograph of jay over there..

I love Jay again okay..dou shi ni de cuo la peggyyy..

Aik..as you know..I can't really resist mystical, dark, beautiful stuff..whats more his new song is so inspiring..zzz

anyway..kaiwei smsed me yesterday night while I was almost dead preparing for my oral presentation..quite touched friend..haha..thanks for your support all these years.. :)

end of years coming..
time to mug n mug..
nights

2008-09-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

Nothing much going on in my life recently..everything is just going on its normal routine..

EOY is coming and I can feel the stress weighing me down honestly..
The stress is creeping me sometimes..starting to feel depressed here and there again ..
but yea..I should not entertain all these meaningless thoughts..
I will work hard..and work hard..
good luck everyone... especially to all my close friends..:)

anyway, I lost all my contacts in my phone..
so..sms or msn me your number if you are my friend..thanks a lot :)

I want to go into the longest sleep and never wake up.

2008-09-14T08:24:00.001-07:00

You stole my heart.

2008-09-13T03:42:00.000-07:00

Hi :)

I've just realised that I have been missing from the blogosphere for several days already!

Everything is fine. Really, in fact everything seems to become better along the way..I'm beginning to harbour thoughts of abandoning my blog, but not now anyway..

I had just received my progress report last thursday, half-expecting my gpa to be hovering around 2.7 - 2.9. To my surprise, my gpa turned out to be 3.3! Oh dear..I'm in a state of ecstatism since then. I'm really so happy!

aiya, I know this may seem like an average grade that some of you can easily achieve without working hard and start thinking that I'm an idiot. But whatever man, I improved from gpa 1.9 to 2.4 and now to 3.3. I'm really glad. I want to express my gratitude to those who gave me encouragement and help along the way. Thanks for pulling me out of my depression and giving me confidence. Your support gives me motivation and drive to work even harder.Love you guys! <3

I won't stop here, I will work harder and improve more! Lets jiayou together!

Hmm..
Saw peggy's tag on my tagboard..and went to her blog..
haha..read her posts and they got me thinking..
4L is really going to part soon..
hais..
I realised I have been too caught up with my own affairs these 2 years and I failed to appreciate and savour many other beautiful moments which are always beside me..this is something which I really need to change..
I have found many good friends in 4L, its really hard to imagine us parting..since it didnt really crossed my mind before..
But I know one day it will come..

No matter what..as long as it happened before..I believe our friendship will stay forever.. :)
I love 4L!

Oh yea..the movie twilight is coming and I'm so excited altho I think it may not turn out as nice..BUT I AM STILL EXCITED.

That is all for now.

I believe I'm a really blissful child now.

I have a pair of cute parents who dotes on me.
A younger sister who acts like an elder sister and makes me feel safe with her.
Many fabulous friends who are always there for me.
And a lovely him. <3

2008-09-08T06:57:00.000-07:00

.............................I hate sore throat:(

2008-09-05T00:00:00.000-07:00

从此我的眼光只会在你身上停留。。
最美的笑容也只留给你。。

love you baby..<3

2008-09-02T04:57:00.001-07:00

HI! 4Loudspeakers had our cip at tiong bahru today. :D

Bin bin and his very pretty balloon hat. :) Emo boy today..cheer up la..

Merwyn and me wearing binbin's nice balloon hat..hahaha

After ban jiang at sph on Sunday with kok haw.

Us again..

us again..lol.

haha junquan..fellow staff sergeant..finally had a np photo with you..

23 jie! quite blur though..

The non hwa chong and neighbourhood school people..lol

23 jie girls! :)) look at yangsong's face

us again!

yangsong and lynn!

yangsong and me :) yea..we are very close..lol

lynn! fellow 23 jie contacts

More next time..

2008-08-30T21:14:00.000-07:00

4 years of comradeship..
a lifetime of hatred?

I don't wanna care anymore.

2008-08-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

Teachers' day yesterday!
I know its kinda late..but still wanna wish all my teachers a HAPPY TEACHERS DAY. :D

Anyway my love for big bang is coming back again after they released their third mini album.

Tell me who is hotter than Big bang!
No one okay! They are totally the bomb.

lol..I'm just exaggerating..
ciao
I'm really tired.
:)

miss you Mr N...XP

2008-08-27T07:03:00.000-07:00

有时对与错只在于一线之差。
虽然微小，但无可否认那条线是存在的。
唯有正视它才是克服与超越自我的途径。

2008-08-25T05:06:00.000-07:00

Lol..

HI!

Anyway all the pictures above can speak on behalf of me.

FRIDAY and before

Spent two days after school with Junwen for Gary's bday present and two nights completing it...sense of accomplishment...

Yea, that is my actual drawing on Gary's shirt. Lol..must take picture to remember my creation..happy birthday too.. :)

haha..visited my mother's friend house too..cute baby there..kept crying..but still cute..*pinch pinch* My mama carrying the baby above...the baby seems very heavy..

SATURDAY

Watched Xue yi xin sheng with fellow 4Loudspeakers on Saturday afternoon. Overall, it was a good show, siyao looked so pretty. :D Ruolan looked crazy as usual. -.- Haha, good job CL!

Met up with shuhui and shop shop at IMM..lol..hope your leg gets better shushu! <3

SUNDAY

Woke up super early and headed to cityhall to meet up with squadmates at 7 for Singapore Bay Run! lol..mass running with squadmates and the rest of the people is fun! A lot of NS men and other random people.Nice scenery along the way, not to mention our crap..

I really miss the feeling of running with my squadmates..and I got it back yesterday.. so heartwarming *melts my heart*

Thank you for the encouragements, fun, tolerance along the 10km. It is really nice to finish 1km after another with you guys. :)

And my legs ache like hell now..can't even walk properly..can feel the stretch..gah..

oh yea..we met a pervert ah pek after the UCC performance..funny..

visit ayesha's blog for more info..lol

This is nonsense, my coming Saturday is so packed..zzz

2008-08-22T07:34:00.001-07:00

很些人很想忘记，说忘了，却其实永远都印在你的心海里。

而有些话明明说起来很吃力，却还是吐了出来。
因为就算是短暂的，至少这一刻你让我倾心。

2008-08-20T08:17:00.001-07:00

yo..
exams are finally over!
hehehehehehehehehehehehe..
HAPPY!

excluding the physics paper this morning..I finished one whole pack of chocolate last night to last me through the mugging..

today is really a happy day! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
shall elaborate more next time..

haha..
alright back to some other work.. :)

2008-08-19T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hi earthlings, I was almost late for school today because I kinda mixed up the timing, so I only managed to reach right before mr hook came in to invigilate our class. Lol, I reached at 10am. ( no bio paper for me, hehe )

Math was okay.. -.- At least I thought so before shuhui, kaying and qinyu started yabbering about it.
photocopied some notes with them at je..lol..shuhui is unglam.

Had lunch with binbin for almost an hour afterward..
and he waved to me when we are both locking our doors. -.- ( we live in flats opposite to each other )

Reached home, chat with junwen for one hour plus..yadayadayada..lol..yea..thanks for making my mood happier.. :)

Realised that we are both very long winded, lol.....

Just woke up from my sleep and I'm currently attracted to my screen.

Last 2 papers..
ALL THE WAY! :D
I love you physics!

2008-08-18T05:28:00.000-07:00

思绪糊里糊涂里地被你占领
一步一步坠入你的迷幻里

2008-08-18T02:17:00.000-07:00

Chemistry.. gah :/

It was okay..kind of ran out of time at the end.. zzz..forgot to change my answer for one qns because the teacher came to inform us too late..

Wasn't able to sleep last night...just tossed and turned on my bed..trying to sleep while studying..

And I finally fell asleep at 4am plus..and I woke up at 5am to pack my stuff..
zzz

Tension? I'm subconciously awake all the time..

lol..
went home with binbin..
he asked me lots of questions all the way..
I realised binbin is becoming more and more like merwyn..
okay..no more elaboration..

4 papers down..3 more to go..

I won't give up.. :D
gogogo! ( recently keep psychoing myself)
GIVE ME YOUR STRENGTH!

2008-08-16T06:31:00.000-07:00

hmm..
3 more days for commontest!

SS yesterday was okay...If I exclude the first purpose question which I've screwed..

watched the video made by sir eric for our rod..
I feel a bit sad..
but no, don't be mistaken, not the extreme kind..
its just a bitter sweet feeling to look back at all the unglam moments together..its all our happy moments..

my hairstyle kept changing throughout the 40 minutes video..
and it reminded me that my hair was once super long in sec one.

I took my last NP photograph, my fourth and last class leader photograph yesterday...

Time fliesss~

and I'm kinda upset, a tiny bit, by what bin bin told me yesterday..
although I really have no reason to..

2008-08-14T05:04:00.000-07:00

20th August is the end of common test for me! hehe..

Anw this post will be a short one since I still have to continue to complete my revision on ss and discuss with merwyn.

FREE ON 23RD AUG 2008?

RVHS CLDDS will be having their production 学艺新声' 08 at UCC ( University Cultural Centre Theatre, NUS)

Ticket at $18 for the 2.00 pm performance and $25 for the 7.00 pm one.

I know everyone has been stressed out by exams, revision, but don't forget the hardwork put in by the CLDDS! From the past years performances, I feel that their standard is relatively good. Although the price is kinda expensive, but I think it is a price worthwhile.

So give your fullest support! Haha, you can come whether you are a Rvian or not, bring your friends!

Catch me and friends there for the 2.00 pm show..

Anyway I'm not advertising for no purpose.
It's partly because I really feel that it's good and more of because I'm trying to help Siyao and Ruolan to sell the tickets. Do tell them if you are interested.

Raise more awareness..lol..
AND..
I wanna watch 十二莲花

Ciao..SS session with merwyn. :D

2008-08-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

My extremists.

You guys will always remain in my heart. <3

2008-08-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

Actually we are from two different worlds.
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Maybe I'm wrong about you...

2008-08-07T07:05:00.000-07:00

ROD tomorrow...
I'm so depressed...

一路上有你们真好

Shall post more aft it..

RVNPS206 <3

2008-08-03T07:26:00.000-07:00

The weather is atrocious.
gah..

anyway..
Congrats junwen for getting into SYFC...
I feel happy for you. Really
Jiayou!.. :D

I will jiayou in my own aspects too. No worries.

nothing much to say actually, just mugging n more mugging.
commontest! ><

Oh yea..
hope your scary and big ulcer gets better soon kokhaw!
all the best for ur oral..lol..

and..I saw amelia's video already..cute baby..haha :)

nights people.

<3333

2008-07-31T04:40:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEXTER!

lol..
School is pretty okay, everythings the same.
I think my pinching skill has improved by leaps and bounds, because peggy( I shall call her yuyu from now on) kept asking me for it.
haha
love cuddling and scolding binsing( binbin..lol) with yuyu during lessons, laugh out loud.

Binbin stop eave lopping us!
lol

Nah..we are just fooling around..giving everyone a name..
anw yuyu I wanna see amelia's video!

Alright, I shall stop my nonsense.
Hmm, the weathers pretty warm these few days...my body feels as if its gonna melt anytime..extreme climate change..ahh..global warming is coming, rmb to close the door!

Oh yea, I realised that my Pt deteriorated...days without np..hais..

Chem prac was pretty interesting today..
electrolyte..
kamseng said that the scar on my hand is cool..lol..but I feel hurt..:(
thanks yuyu for drawing a heart there to cover it..haha
maybe i should tattoo it someday or something..lol

hmm..
really tired today..
finished a novel yesterday...quite please..:)

I shall end here, bye

2008-07-28T08:36:00.000-07:00

Hihi earthlings :)

My eyes are hurting, my head is burning and my body is feeling uber cold.

Pardon me, my brain is not functioning well today.
Spent the whole day in school till 5 plus..
Had quite a good chat with kitty while waiting for math remedial to start, who told me a lot of things.

Lol..I've realised that I'm not very informed of gossipy things nowadays..
bewildered when others tell me rumours of all sorts..
aiks..not that I care anyway..none of my business..lol

Thought of lots of things today..
I really feel like crap now..sick and all..

anyway..
To the one I hurt today..I am sorry yea..
I didn't mean it...thanks for everything though :3

nights, my head is exploding.

2008-07-24T07:56:00.000-07:00

We got married. haha :D

Winn and shushu.. *twist*

cute shuhui..haha..

*twist*

winn ayesha siyao..waiting outside vivo..zzz

winn and siyao <3

ayesha winn and siyao again..lol

dodo winn and siyao..my eyes are the smallest..dayuum

alright, end with ayesha winn and siyao again.

ciaos :)

2008-07-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

Winn and shuhui.. during semakau trip on my birthday this year..LOL
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speaking of birthdays..
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEEHOOI!

Best girlfriend forever yea. Hearts hearts :)

We can go out after exams! Thanks for listening to all my rantings all the time too.Haha :D

Lots of love <3

2008-07-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

Pammy and winn *look at my thin plait*

kitty and winn * meows*

oh yea..my shooting pic..last year..koped from np room..

Initially wanted to post the shooting pic ytd night..but a cockroach invaded my room and I had to clear the coast. So I shut down my computer.

Took lots of pictures today..my phone went out of batt..
Did some disgusting actions with siyao..and photos were taken..luckily I managed to delete it..

All in all..today is another boring day.. I see all the "ZZZ" on Shuhui's face..
lol..I've got nothing much to say now..except that I'm rather moody today.

Don't ask me why. I just feel bad to you, you, you and you.

I don't understand why we have to treat each other as if we are all invisible even when we bumped right into each other...
Not bothering me much though, because I like this state that we are in now.
At least I have stopped feeling anything for you long time ago.

The first chapter ended decades ago..I knew it when I realised that I can finally look at you appearing in front and around me without any emotions.

No idea why am I talking about weird stuff today.
Thought of all the depressing stuff today and brought back many emotions.
Just wanna put an end to somethings that no longer hold any meaning to me and I don't like it when people keep reminding me of it.

If it can't stand anything, perhaps it is fated to be, so just let it be.

Commontest coming: concentration concentration concentration!
Jiayou ba, I remember my promise to you.
turn to mugging mode.

nights nights

2008-07-22T08:56:00.000-07:00

:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY QINYU!

haha..sweet 16 girl :) Hope you like the present yea..its not a hat..lol

Peggy's niece amelia is super duper cute! :D

Add Ons:
Some random photographs I came across while sweeping through all my folders..

oh yea..I found a picture of myself shooting last year..lol

I'm caught in a dilemma.
Tell me what I should do, because I am really confused.

2008-07-21T21:25:00.000-07:00

Racial Harmony day went well..
Slept late and woke up real early to reach school at 6..
and indeed I was the earliest..

No matter how much profit we earned, I can see that all my fellow classmates had fun. And I feel happy too, all our efforts are worthwhile. :)

Special thanks to Siyao, shuhui and cheehooi for helping me with the ingredients stuff..

Especially SIYAO..really thanks girl for always helping me and for being so mai li in the class stuff..really appreciates it..will go and watch your performance at UCC de! Support support!

Thanks binsing, zhiyong, jiong rui for being so hyped up the day before..feel quite heartwarming to see all the numerous phonecalls by your guys.

And also the decoration commitee..nice posters and boards we have.
Not to forget peggy! Thanks for helping me with the proposals and thanks debbie too for helping to design our cute coupons and posters. :)

Haha, of course all of 4L which in one way or other made today a success!
hearts hearts <3

All in all, good job 4L! TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!
Love our chocolate made with love kay.. <3

Lol.. went out with ayesha after that..since I was in a rather good mood.. aiks.. lazy to continue writing.. visit ayesha's blog for more details for the whole day today ok! everything is inside..
http://fantasy--reality.blogspot.com/

Physics now..
hoho
one hr and 22 minutes to Qinyu's birthday

And I miss claire lots and lots and lots! :( Aiks, you broke our promise..but nvm..come back soon kay..Best Buddy Forever. :D

nights everyone

2008-07-19T02:00:00.000-07:00

I want to feel happy for once because I truely feel it from my heart.
And not because others want me to feel happy or because there is a purpose for me to.

Disturbed today..

I'm sorry...

you are the nicest image in my mind..

2008-07-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

hmm..
hello darlings! :D

Racial harmony day is just around the corner..actually I have no feelings you know..with all the preparations and all..but kind of some anticipation.

GOGOGO ４ＬＯＵＤＳＰＥＡＫＥＲＳ:D

lots of love <333333333

everyone must support okay..if not I will come and scold you until you die..lol..nah..just kidding..

it will be a busy weekend for me..and for all of us i guess..cant believe one week just passed like that..

All are well these few days..glad that most of the class are quite enthusiastic abt it..haha..our coupons are prettayy.. rabbit logo again..cute..

Actually sometimes I really feel like abandoning everything and just sit in one corner and slack.. but I know I can't...its always me who have to do something first before the rest will really care about it..so..jiayou k..we can do it together.. :) hearts!

Anyway..went Siyao's house yesterday for our secret recipe. it went well..and quite fun...
Oh god..I saw lots and lots of angelfishes at her house.

alright..
nothing to say actually..
a tiny bit upset today..

nights :)

2008-07-14T22:51:00.000-07:00

Math test today, hmm I tried my best, guess it was okay?
Hope my result is okay too. :)

Went orchard with shuhui to look for makeup remover. For her dance.
Lol, the salesgirl is super rude and we got pissed off. -.-
Walked around far east until we got so tired. Saw quite a lot of pretty dresses too, reminds me of mdm eu, big ribbons.:D

I just realised that I had been ranting on how much I wanna go out with cheechee and till now we havn do so..ever since our last trip which was like decades ago..
but nvm..I will be looking forward to wednesday! and saturday!
haha..trying out our secret recipe at siyao's house after school.
see you then dearest! <3

oh yea..lilin get well soon alright!

Thats all for today..I'm feeling very unwell today..very worn out..
Nights to all.

I must study, study, study.

2008-07-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really tried very hard to forget some things, people..
and when I finally succeeded, all it takes is just someone's casual remarks to knock some sense into me and everything comes back again..

just like today..

nvm about it..

Was just talking with clarine just now..I realised that different people see a same thing with different perspectives..
I don't know.. just kind of feel disgusted when people act as if they know me very well..

That's all for today..nothing much actually.. and I don't think that someone should be deem as bad just because he/ she does not return your admiration the way you expected him/ her to.

all in all today is quite a good day..wore my full uni for the last few times.
Oh yea..getting back to math now.

seeing you just bring smiles to my lips.

2008-07-07T00:46:00.000-07:00

My comp just revived! *points to com*
upon a virus scan... think my computer is ageing..

alright so this is how i look like in front of my comp while chatting with you guys. Xp so stop asking me how I look like! because I just look like how I look like anywhere else. Makes any sense?( my physics assignment says hi!)

LOL
I'm so uber happy now :D

HELLO coolios, be sure to catch superband tomorrow! I love that show man!

:DDDDD
alright..
goodnight

although my night doesn't ends here.

p/s. I love FIR hell lot. You can sing me some of their songs! :D

2008-07-06T01:07:00.000-07:00

UPDATE: Alright, maybe not.

2008-07-05T22:08:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to phrase all the thoughts which are racing pass my mind currently..

But I really have the urge to say it.

You know, almost 50% of my time in RV were filled by my academic work. The rest of the 50% were filled by none other than RVNP. I can't remember why I joined NP in the first place.
I only have vague memories of seeing a squad from NP drilling in the old campus.
I were pondering whether to join NP or NCC, which the answer is obvious now.

I guess my choice were right yea know.
I can't believe time passed so fast, 4 yrs had almost passed.
I could still remember meeting all my fellow sqdmates one by one, trying to remember their names, their class, etc.
I could even remember hating pear. LOL

Seeing little clarine(first sqdmate I met in np), little qinhui ( who was super short last time and black too), little pear(centre parting and also black), little yueting( everytime tell us she wanna be policewoman in future), little chiou yih ( punky hair, I thought she was a bad girl), little guofeng( look like a nerd last time, weird spec), little charmaine( round face, cute), little yiling( look very studious), little hanqian( look very lao tu, lol), little mingjie(always look very dumbstruck), little jhosy( singing here and there)...etc..and little winnie ( myself, super white and just even more white) LOL

I remember doing ridiculous stuff, like running in the rain, taking some fun rides with pear while shouting some ridiculous names.
Saying and living with all the I love NPs that we say all the time.
Telling you guys whatever worries I had, the sense of accomplishments we had, the dragon pumpings, the cheers.
Our PT freaks, our dance sessions, running around the school, saying lame stories, changing parades, even those little squabbles we had seem so sweet and made our friendship even more impenetrable.

Yea know, the times we had were really...unreplaceable.

Our mentality, appearance, attitude, behaviour may change after all these years, but I guess no matter what, those memories of RVNP with our squadmates will stay in us forever. Maybe we don't really feel it, or talk about it, or even doubt the existance of such linkage, belonging to our squad, but I guess it really do exist, but it only show itself when the right time comes.

To ask our concience, we really take everything in NP very seriously, although our NCOs then still tell us that we're not good for don't know how many times, just definitely more than how much I tell my squad now. I doubt the cadets currently can experience that kind of feelings again. Maybe they interpret that kind of feelnigs in a new way. Like what others had said, we can't compare ourselve with the juniors now. Afterall we were trained in a different way. But yea, sometimes I got mixed up and were even disappointed when I see that my cadets were not like how we were last time. You know, I don't mean my own squad is the best, I mean they do not behave like how they are expected to like how we were expected to last time, the change in attitude and I got so angry. I forgot that times had changed. Its not their fault, probably my fault that I have still not adapted to the system now.

Actually all along, I still believe in corporal punishment. I guess the times when I was a cadet, pumping nonstop in the rain and stuff, were those that made my np life such a lively one. So yea..I really miss those times. I feel kinda pity for my sec 2s that they can't experience what we had experienced last time. But come to think of it, there is no absolute solution for anything, maybe the system now can also ripe a whole new kind of experience for them.

I really hope this sec 2 squad of mine can evolve into a good NCO squad in future. Whether they still remember us or not does not matter. Just hope that one day when we see them again 2 years down the road, they're grown up already and still keep that cute innocence and beliefs in them.

I have wrote so much today that I wonder whether I still have anything left to write when our ROD comes. But nothing to worry about, I guess something will come into my head that day.

2008-07-03T22:20:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of giving in to all the unreasonable demands.
Please don't push your luck too far, because I won't neccesary be able to take it.

Tired of all these nonsense.
but anyway, I'm not some narrow-minded person, so its okay.

Don't wanna elaborate on it anymore, because there is no point. I guess as long as I do my part, thats enough. The world won't become better just because you keep repeating those vulgarities.

Having a bad headache today..zzz..my head feels heavy.

By the way, wanna thank all those who listened to my rantings just now..

its 10.19pm now, got to continue mugging, haha :D
yea im alright, so don't worry, just a sudden dose of extreme emotions.

p/s Shuhui, I hope that your eyes will get better soon! :D
Love yea darlings, bye! :D

2008-06-30T23:24:00.000-07:00

Somehow I happened to spot some bruises on my arm today..

So I was wondering: " where did all these came from..? " *thinking hard*

Then it came across to me that those were marks left by Peggy after she pinched me! Ouch! :( haha..alright she is not abusing me..actually I left some marks on her arms too..

WHY?
because recently we have adapted this method of pinching each other whenever we start to lose our focus.. to wake each other up..
so yea, perhaps you will see 2 girls at the back of the class pinching each other hardly..for no apparent reasons..
actually it is really a good remedy..because nothing else seem to attract our attention..or draw us back to reality when we drifted away..

Today was the big awaited day - Hong Lou Meng's test -.-
mugged at the grandstand after school with shuhui because I did not manage to finish the whole book the day before. Shuhui ended up sleeping..while I was trying my best to digest everything. Finished reading the last page at the last second. Ended up the test was pretty easy, I finished everything in 5 minutes. lol..2 incorrect though..

Tomorrow is the last day of all the NP activities. I don't know what to feel now. I hope my sec 2s will have fun tomorrow..

Hmm..1130pm coming again..sleeping hours..
haha..love you guys.. good night :)

2008-06-29T20:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was unit CIP with squadmates. Basically, we had to give out some anti- drugs keychains around Singapore. Before leaving home, I tried to lag as much as possible already, but in the end I still arrived earlier. argh.

I was in a group with pear, kelly, chiou and yingting. Luckily we were allocated to distribute the keychains in Bugis, which I think is a rather good location! :D

Surprisingly I finished distributing the most and the fastest! :D heheh, I kept targeting the little cute boys and girls..haha

There was this weird grandfather who asked pear and I to give him as much keychains as possible..no idea why though..just feel that he is weird..lol. Met a lot of cute caucasian boys and young little ones too.

On the way we were talking about our past years in NP. Somehow pear and I were reminded of that neoprint which we took in sec one. LOL. In case you were wondering what is wrong with that neoprint and thinking if we look very ugly hideous or something in the past... Well..no..it's because we wrote some embarrassing words on it..lol.. We were too young and rash then to write such words.
I guess some things should not be said too early, because it wun neccessary remain in this state forever.
Aiya..I wun mention what we wrote since they do not apply to either of us anymore.

It is kind of heart-warming to be nostalgic sometimes.

Anw sorry junwen for not going yesterday, hope you will manage to persuade your parents soon. :)

After the CIP we went to watch "Get smart" with fellow extremists at Plaza Sing. Pear, chiou, yiling, clarine, weikai, mingjie, wenjie, boonping, kah hoe and of course me were there. It was a pretty good show, nice for a good laugh. Unfortunately I fell asleep halfway again. -.- Maybe I am always tired whenever I watch movie. haha

All in all yesterday was really a beautiful day out..

but today..
My mood is in under disturbance, can't seem to calm it..
argh..
what to do?

I hate it when you judge without understanding the whole thing, look at yourself first.
Feeling more and more irritated.

2008-06-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

We have finally reached the end of first week of school reopening.

To tell you the truth, I did keep to my promise of sleeping at 11.30pm! Although sometimes a few minutes late..but still it is an achievement! :D
That explains the lack of posts.

But anyway, first week of school was pretty fine. Youth day celebration, long speech by ms ek, SJAB day, Kitty's and Pear's birthday..etc..

I want to mention Pearpear's birthday. Hope you had a wonderful birthday extremist! :D Nice memories together, it had been so long since we played so crazily together. Although our dragon pumping failed, but yea we really had lots of fun stealing your shoe and hanging them on the goal post. LOL

In any case, that was really a happy day for me. Since I had a really cheerful and fun PT session with my beloved sec 2s and followed by pearpear's fun-filled birthday prank. I love Tuesdays.

As for today..
I must say we are really disappointed. Afterall it had been so long, really.
But I believe no matter what happens, you guys will be able to overcome it together as a squad. That is why we want said all those stuff, we believe that you will understand what we meant.
We still root for rvnps208.
You guys are my sec 2 squad, and my sec 2 squad is obviously the best. :)

Really tired currently, but due to some extra work of mine I'm not sleeping although its after 1130pm..
lol

Alright..need to go back to school for some stuff and CIP with the unit after that..

zzz

Goodnight