I am...
Sunday, August 27, 2006Y
8:17 pm
hiya..sorry for the lack of post nowadays..wasnt in the right mood to blog..lol..I know, Im always complaining about my mood whenever i blog..so i suppose you readers are kinda bored by what I repeat every time..haha
juggling both my alternative worlds and chinese test tmr...
really hope i can pass both..
esp eng..
i really hope..
although i failed the time before
i really did study hard now for all my tests
hope god will fulfill my wish...
haiz
please grant me my fruit of labourrr
oh please!!!
haiz
anyway..got to write a reflection for my ATC camp..
lol
why is it that for everything we do, we must reflect on it?!
i know it helps us on our writing skills and blah blah..
and also..
initially i thought it was still quite ok when my comrades were already starting to complain about it..
now i really cant take it..
ok fine..i will not fuss over such a minor problem..
*breathe in* * breathe out*
Sometimes, I struggled with myself because of unspeakable sorrows..
Deep down in my heart..there is a ranking of things/ people that are important to me..
Somehow, I need to give up one of them to fulfill the other.
I didnt want to.
But somethings are not in control of my hands.
I could only see it walked away slowly from me.
Who knows of what Im feeling..
there is also ranking of important things in everyones heart.
there are so many things out there for them to care and deal with.
Who, would stop their pace and concern about me.
only heaven knows
sick of worrying for my results..
everyone around me only care about their results.
so what if results determines our future.
not that i dont care whether it affect me or not. i do.
just that i believe there are other things apart from studies that are important in our lifes.
im sick and tired of everything
i feel like screaming
i feel like killing
i feel like yelling
and please people
you bloody stop lecturing on what i should do and tell me i should do what u like do to when i dont do it
its your problem
you like to do it doesnt mean i like to do it
and pls stop sounding as if you are superior to me just because you do what u like to do
different ppl have different things that make them stand out.
i dont need to copy your way to make me a normal girl
i alright just like that
whats the matter with me?
tell me why
tell me why
im confused
day are passing by like wind
the speed
unbelievable
how i wish i could stop the time and remain this way
oh my
what am i doing
ok
i shall carry on with my homework..
thx for reading
