I am...
So I was wondering: " where did all these came from..? " *thinking hard*
Then it came across to me that those were marks left by Peggy after she pinched me! Ouch! :( haha..alright she is not abusing me..actually I left some marks on her arms too..
WHY?
because recently we have adapted this method of pinching each other whenever we start to lose our focus.. to wake each other up..
so yea, perhaps you will see 2 girls at the back of the class pinching each other hardly..for no apparent reasons..
actually it is really a good remedy..because nothing else seem to attract our attention..or draw us back to reality when we drifted away..
Today was the big awaited day - Hong Lou Meng's test -.-
mugged at the grandstand after school with shuhui because I did not manage to finish the whole book the day before. Shuhui ended up sleeping..while I was trying my best to digest everything. Finished reading the last page at the last second. Ended up the test was pretty easy, I finished everything in 5 minutes. lol..2 incorrect though..
Tomorrow is the last day of all the NP activities. I don't know what to feel now. I hope my sec 2s will have fun tomorrow..
Hmm..1130pm coming again..sleeping hours..
haha..love you guys.. good night :)
I was in a group with pear, kelly, chiou and yingting. Luckily we were allocated to distribute the keychains in Bugis, which I think is a rather good location! :D
Surprisingly I finished distributing the most and the fastest! :D heheh, I kept targeting the little cute boys and girls..haha
There was this weird grandfather who asked pear and I to give him as much keychains as possible..no idea why though..just feel that he is weird..lol. Met a lot of cute caucasian boys and young little ones too.
On the way we were talking about our past years in NP. Somehow pear and I were reminded of that neoprint which we took in sec one. LOL. In case you were wondering what is wrong with that neoprint and thinking if we look very ugly hideous or something in the past... Well..no..it's because we wrote some embarrassing words on it..lol.. We were too young and rash then to write such words.
I guess some things should not be said too early, because it wun neccessary remain in this state forever.
Aiya..I wun mention what we wrote since they do not apply to either of us anymore.
It is kind of heart-warming to be nostalgic sometimes.
Anw sorry junwen for not going yesterday, hope you will manage to persuade your parents soon. :)
After the CIP we went to watch "Get smart" with fellow extremists at Plaza Sing. Pear, chiou, yiling, clarine, weikai, mingjie, wenjie, boonping, kah hoe and of course me were there. It was a pretty good show, nice for a good laugh. Unfortunately I fell asleep halfway again. -.- Maybe I am always tired whenever I watch movie. haha
All in all yesterday was really a beautiful day out..
but today..
My mood is in under disturbance, can't seem to calm it..
argh..
what to do?
I hate it when you judge without understanding the whole thing, look at yourself first.
Feeling more and more irritated.
To tell you the truth, I did keep to my promise of sleeping at 11.30pm! Although sometimes a few minutes late..but still it is an achievement! :D
That explains the lack of posts.
But anyway, first week of school was pretty fine. Youth day celebration, long speech by ms ek, SJAB day, Kitty's and Pear's birthday..etc..
I want to mention Pearpear's birthday. Hope you had a wonderful birthday extremist! :D Nice memories together, it had been so long since we played so crazily together. Although our dragon pumping failed, but yea we really had lots of fun stealing your shoe and hanging them on the goal post. LOL
In any case, that was really a happy day for me. Since I had a really cheerful and fun PT session with my beloved sec 2s and followed by pearpear's fun-filled birthday prank. I love Tuesdays.
As for today..
I must say we are really disappointed. Afterall it had been so long, really.
But I believe no matter what happens, you guys will be able to overcome it together as a squad. That is why we want said all those stuff, we believe that you will understand what we meant.
We still root for rvnps208.
You guys are my sec 2 squad, and my sec 2 squad is obviously the best. :)
Really tired currently, but due to some extra work of mine I'm not sleeping although its after 1130pm..
lol
Alright..need to go back to school for some stuff and CIP with the unit after that..
zzz
Goodnight
=> One day!
Which signifies the end of my night life. :(
Yea, I will keep to my promise, 1130pm that's it. :)
Just talked to nicholas and realised he reads my blog and he reminded me of my chinese web blog. Yea thanks nicholas, I will go the next lingying gathering don't worry. Lol, I always feel touched when I know there are people who read my blog.
Yea, my chinese web blog, must read ah!
Hohoho, gogogo! --> My chinese web blog :D
Thanks yiling for telling me that you do read it, happy!
Must go constantly, very important..haha
Anyway merwyn don't be sad anymore la, not worthy to cry or get yourself so depressed over someone who don't values you. Anything can come and talk to me.
hmm..
bought something which I wanted quite long ago..so I'm in a state of happiness!
Anyway today is later then usual because I had been updating my chinese web blog just now because I neglect it for too long!
Alright I got to sleep now, my neck is getting stiff and sore.
Anyway, do drop by my class blog if you have time, because there is a psycho with nothing better to do on our tagboard.
4L's class blog
Don't care about him/ her, he is so happy with insulting us so let him be, no one even care to rebute him now, he chose the wrong ground. Pathetic guy.
Anw, nights. :)
jiayou extremists with dancing!
I don't like elaborating on these stuff..but..I don't like guys who surrounds himself in a sea of girls everyday, allowing any girl to lie, sleep on his shoulders, hugging any girl as he wish..not what a decent guy should do in my perception.
Actually all along you are just like a big brother to me.
still, I miss all the times with you.
One thing good about squad chalet is that it brought me back to my usual self again. It is always touching to see so many squadmates at squad chalet. :) And talking, playing with them really destressed me alot. I came back a happier person. Haha
Anyway thanks Bangbang, love you guys loads too! Your i.c will not give up so easily. :D
But it is a pity that Zimin did not attend squad chalet since she met with an accident. :( Life is so unpredictable. One moment we are discussing how to meet for chalet, the next moment she got knocked down by a car and ended up under a bus. Visited her yesterday night with fellow extremists and honestly I feel very sad that she can't be with us and had to stay in the hospital alone. She will be undergoing skin grafting for her injured legs though. :(
Cheer up Zimin! Squadmates love you! And you wun die so easily laa, don't think too much anymore. Get well soon and come back to us sweet girl! We will go and eat lunch together. :D
Anyway, the chalet was pretty much the same as any other, except that the people are squadmates! Usual horror movies marathon, which Yushan brought to entertain us. I don't know why, but I kind of laughed when the ghosts appeared. I guess I'm more afraid of blood than ghost. Although blood flows in my veins too, but still I have absurd fears arising within me whenever I see it. Other than that, just playing in the arcade, escape and yea, staying in the chalet. Somehow yesterday boonping, wenjie, yiling and me started to analyse the contents in "I-weekly" magazine which I bought. Got overwhelmed by them though, lol, by their crap. I mean boonping and wenjie, not yiling of course.
For the escape part, tried a lot of stuff with clarine, yingting and yushan. Nothing refreshing, but maybe the highlight is that I sat at the last row of the pirate ship for the first time? I almost wanted to cry, but it was okay at the end, just like sitting on a big swing.
Speaking of swings, I do love swings a lot! Because my father used to bring me and my sister to the playground every Sunday and he would swing me to and fro on the swing. I like that feeling. But I no longer do it unless I visit some park or something.
And I did not go cycling, because I'm sick of falling off from a bike every time I cycle during chalet.
As mentioned above, we visited Zimin at NUH yesterday. Bought her a soft toy and a card. We wrote our well-wishes on the feedback corner of the hospital because it was vacant all the while and we did not wish to waste the ink of the pen on it.
Hmm, visiting NUH was quite an experience for me, because I was admitted into it once. I guess some of you may know, I once had a cardiac virus which attacked my heart when I was young. Many people died from it, but somehow I survived. Haha, I guess my mother was exhausted from worrying about me then. Thank you mummy :)I used to visit NUH often for checkup for my heart's condition and I got an operation there because of that illness. I've got a tiny scar on the right side of my neck now if you have the chance to see it.
But I'm okay now, my heart isn't ill or weak anymore..don't worry..lol..I'm very healthy now although I'm still experiencing sharp pain once in a while. Just that the trip yesterday made me feel the fragility of life again. I guess we should really treasure our lives and the people around us because not everyone is as fortunate as us, hence we shouldn't take things for granted. Those little setbacks of ours are nothing as compared to those fighting against disease or illness in hospital because they are fighting a battle involving life and death. 生命无常，要珍惜。Its true, really.
Really hope Zimin can get well and see her back in school soon. Jiayou ah squadmate!
Thats the end of chalet, a really short one since I only arrived on the second day. No big or earth- shattering words, but to sum up, I think we are really a bunch of close friends and no matter how many disputes we have before, nothing can beat our friendship of four memorable years. I love you squadmates. :)
ROD this August, can I let time stop here?
-Rvnps105, Rvnps206, Rvnps307, RvnpNCO08, TheExtremists, Squadmates.
Sorry for not attending unit bbq and first day of squad chalet, its fathers' day!
Yushan just went out of home at 12.21am just now. Actually wanted to join her, but ayes..tomorrow morning then!
Today thought of a lot of things.
Actually I do have people who care and understand me a lot just that I didn't realise. Hey thanks for being there for me always, the smses and stuff.
Hmm..I don't know how to say..
I always don't know how to say.
I'm finding a lot of things pointless now.
Don't know whether to believe in certain things or not.
But for one, I believe I can definitely get promoted to year 5.
Thats for sure now, because I am putting my all to achieve this goal.
I want to achieve it.
I don't care whether you think I can or not, because I think I can.
Someone once told me that I have sacrificed my friends, sqdmates, fun because of my studies.
I'm someone who participated in almost EVERYTHING that needed me in the past.
You can see evidences from NP. I attended all the parades, competitions, outings and etc..
but now I even back out of the ROD dance, the last squad event which I could ever have for my last ROD. Not that I really wanted to.
I don't know if you know how I feel.
I'm feeling very stressed out, afraid, worried.
I don't want my father to meet any principal anymore, unless for a good cause.
I'm sorry, I know I will disappoint you for not going out all the time. But my studies is my priority now. I guess if you are my friend, you will understand.
Yea, thanks for understanding though.
Now, I'm left with battling with myself, my determination, discipline. Which I will win, if not, hit me on the head.
Lol..
nah..I will try my best..really..
Hmm..if you see me trying to give up..do give me a push on the back or scold me..I will appreciate it a lot..
I will focus wholly on my studies after squad chalet and nothing else.
I will work super hard to get that GPA.
I will achieve it.
and first I will kick this habit of sleeping late.
You won't catch me online after 11.30pm again, during school hours, unless I've got major stuff. Actually its super hard( look at all the time that I post), but I don't want to give myself excuses!
Jiayou WINNIE!
You can do it because you are WINNIE.
I got to slp now.
meeting mingjie and weikai at 1030am tmr.
nights
I want to tell someone all my problems but no one is there for me.
I really don't know know to express my feelings now.
Not that you will understand anyway.
I have never felt so lonely before, well except for that night 2 yrs ago.
No one understands me, even those that I thought they do.
It hurts so much.
and where is my diary's key?
That diary which I used to throw in all my sorrows after every depressing incident, where is the key?
even a diary is rejecting me now. I can't even have a place to write and keep all my depressions in secret now.
How pitiful.
I can't say it verbally and I can't even say it in pen and ink.
001. Real name → Winnie Tan Jia Hui
002. Nick name → Winn, pooh
003. Eye color→ Black or brown
004. Zodiac sign → taurus
005. Male or female → female
006. Elementary → primary sch? HKPS
007. High School → RVHS
008. College → ??none yet
009. Smart → no..lol
010. Hair color → brown
011. Long or short → long
012. Loud or Quiet → quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → phone
015. Health Freak → no..haha
016. Drink or Smoke – drink water. LOL
017. Crush on someone – lol
018. Eat or Drink – both
019. Piercings → 4
020. Tattoos → no
021. Righty or lefty → lefty
FIRSTS :
023. First piercing → ear
024. First best friend → jiayu
025. First award → drawing
026. First crush – ? forget already
027. First pet → 20 fishes, which all died the next day.. :( I'm sorry
028. First big vacation → ? forget already
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating → nothing
050. Drinking → water
052. I'm about to → do my homework
053. Listening to → This Love - G dragon <3
054. Plans for today – sleep early
055. Waiting for → tomorrow
YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kid/s? - 2
059. Want to get married? - yea
060. Careers in mind → not sure yet
WHICH IS BETTER WITH you?
068. Lips or eyes → eyes
070. Shorter or taller → taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous? → both
073. Nice stomach or arms → ?
075. Hook-up or relationship? → relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant? → dont understand
HAVE YOU EVER:
079. Drank bubbles? → no
080. Lost glasses/contacts? → no
081. Ran away from home? → no
084. Broken someones heART ?- yea
085. Been arrested → no
087. Cried when someone died? → yea
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → yea..sometimes
091. Love at first sight → maybe, but unlikely
092. Heaven → yea
093. Santa clause → yea
094. Sex on the first date? → no
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
095. Is there one person you want to
be with right now? → maybe
098. Are you seriously happy with
where you are in life? → no
99. Do you believe in God → yes
100. Post as 100 truth about..
Winnie is bored.
hahaha, I'm finally updated my chinese web blog.
BETTER GO AND TAKE A LOOK,
if not you are not my friend.
LOL
okayokay, just kidding.
anyway, just go and look okay?
alrights, I need to go already byebye <3
Met with kok haw after tuition.
I abandoned him for 2 hrs because I went to my grandma house and he roamed in westmall himself while waiting for me.
I'm sorry. hahaha
My father went to fetch him and we went for qiangmai at SPH together.
Lol
Congrats those people who got in, specially lingyings..haha..
and...
I realised Kok haw and I are:
Primary school friends
cum
Student correspondent mate
cum
Tuition mate
cum
Good friends
Our friendship lasted for a lot of years already la. Almost 9 years I think. Lol, feel as if we are very old. So those who misunderstood us...
You are wrong!
hmm, enough of it..
I have been feeling weird these few days..
Something is missing in my life..but I can't figure out what is it.. I feel lost and sad without it..
So hey..
Invisible love come back soon kay..I miss your existence...
- Happy 16th Birthday Beryl!
Lol, I realised I only write my thoughts in chinese when I have a intense feeling or when I have a strong urge so much that I can convert everything into chinese.
Hmm..I will update it when I have things streaming into my mind.
Yea..hmm..
After 2 weeks of nonstop events, I finally fell ill yesterday.
Hais, I was actually quite excited to go down to school to take my sec 2s for activity yesterday, but don't know why I developed a fever suddenly. zzz.
Hope you guys had fun with the other ICs, I'm sorry for not being there!
Also, I'm suppose to go for some work at Suntec today. Perhaps because of my fever and kok haw being unable to go, I ended up staying at home and studied chemistry.
I don't know, I feel very blur now, seriously.
Regarding my Media competition, it went well and we tried our best, but we didn't win. LOL. I guessed it was fine overall. Really I mean it, but we didn't win because we were not particularly outstanding in all those areas that they gave awards for. Afterall, it was an experience. We were really lucky because the Mediacorp crew gave us help and got us a media pass into the International table tennis match at Toa Payoh stadium, which enabled me to go into the player's area and film them close- up.
I caused a player some another country to lost a game/ball/hit ( don't know what call it) because he caught me filming him and got distracted. I'm sorry :(
WA..LOL
I just got on the TV because of that competition, because the mediacorp's crew followed my team during the competition. LOLOLOLOL
The Channel 8's new. Its weird seeing myself on the television.
Visit this page to see half of my face, thanks.
http://www.xin.sg/article.php?article=19534
LOL.
I saw Kok haws face too.
http://www.xin.sg/article.php?article=15766
I think all the videos are not out on http://www.xin.sg/ yet, hope that my group's video will at least be in top 15 so that I can show you soon. :) Wa..if its not..I will cry..just kidding..haha
抢麦 （singing competition) tomorrow 7pm at SPH. I will be going down to support fellow Lingyings. Haha, gogogo! Must win Xiao mo! Siying! and other Lingyings!
look it over the following list and see how many of these things you have done. BUT you have to ADD up the money amount along the way. Then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin. PS: the smaller the better!
1. Had sex: $30.002.
Smoked: $100.003.
drank alcohol: $100.004.
Went skinny dipping: $20.005.
Kissed someone of the opposite sex:$90.006.
Kissed someone of the same sex:$10.007.
Cheated on a test: $100.008.
Fell asleep in class: $10.009.
Been expelled: $10.0010.
Been in a fist fight: $40.0011.
Given oral: $60.0012.
Got oral: $60.0013.
Prank called the police: $10.0014.
Stole something: $10.0015.
Done drugs: $20.0016.
Dyed your hair: $50.0017.
Done something sexually with someone older (like a few years):$20.00.18.
Courted someone OVER 18 (if yourunder 18): $50.0019.
Ate a whole bag of oreos: $60.0020.
Cried yourself to sleep: $10.0021.
Said you love someone but didnt mean it: $95.0022.
Been in love: $90.0023.
Got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doing: $80.0024.
Went streaking: $5.0025.
Got arrested: $10.0026.
Cuddled: $95.00 28.
Played spin the bottle: $30.0029.
Done something you regret: $70.0030.
Peed in the pool: $5.00
I'm worth $600.0391.
Does that means that I'm a bad girl? Lol...
Media competition will start tomorrow..jiayou ba :)
I think I'm missing you...
I'm really busy nowadays.So I won't be updating as much here anymore, I guess...?
Instead please visit my chinese weblog SITE! <---- GO GO CLICK ON IT!
Its for a competition, so please support!
Haha, actually I feel very awkward writing so formally in chinese for a blog, since its one of the criteria to write in pure chinese.
The chinese blog not really done yet, as in the background and stuff. Precisely because of what I just said, I'm really busy!
Not with homework though, lazy to type here, its just competitions and other stuffs, really too much already.
I have things on everyday, so please pardon me my friends, if I'm outside with you, yet I look very gloomy or upset and isolate myself.
Actually please don't misunderstand! I'm not upset or anything, I'm just feeling tired. If you know me, you will know that even during normal days, I tend to keep quiet when there is a big crowd because I don't like to talk so much. So when I'm tired, I have even more no mood to speak or even smile.
Haha, a lot of friends have been asking me why I'm so depressed when I'm outside, thanks for your concern! Really appreciate it! :) But I'm fine really.
Went to help out the Lian He Zao Bao's " Fei yue lan hai" talk at Suntec convention hall yesterday with fellow LingYings. To be exact, we are working because we are paid hourly.
Went there with Kokhaw, who made me waited for 45 minutes and caused all the Lingyings to wait for us because we are late. Lol, don't worry Kok, I'm not very angry. Reached there and YO! Saw all the Lingyings and some Lingyings that I never see before.
Future details, check our Lingying's blog "王者风范”。 Lol, going back Suntec to help again this Saturday and Sunday for 抢麦to support Mo Jun Heng ( Xiaomo I know how to pronounce your name) and fellow Lingyings! Jiayou...
Anyway, thanks pocheng for your present from China. :)
Alright, got to continue writing my report.
Woo~
Chairperson workshop for the whole day tomorrow.
and Media camp cum competition from Tuesday to Thursday.
Friday is NP activity.
Thanks.
Have a nice holiday man.
P/s Don't worry I still make time to study, its the most important lo!
Okay la, byebye