I am...
didnt go to school today..father brought me to doctor..
very tired after taking medicine...
anw maths test tomorrow first thing in the morning..
jiayou..haha
and..
you know what is fed up?
it is what I'm feeling now...
RAWR
stupid cny mv
I am angry already!!
:(
RVHS NPCC Promotion Requirement 2. Drill 3. Civil Defence Knowledge 4. Campcraft Knowledge 5. General Knowledge 6. Weapons Knowledge 7.Physical fitness just feel like listing out everything I have to prepare for staff sergeant promotion. not in the mood today.. just have to say.. you xie dong xi xin li zhi dao jiu hao no need to tell everyone
1am plus..
supposed to reach school at 640am to train for flagstaff
but everyone was late except me..so nvm..
sorry..
I don't wanna say all these..
but..
I really cant take it anymore..
don't know why I start breaking down so often nowadays..
where is my self -control?
argh..I'm really sorry people...
I really don't know what to say about you. sorry, because I'm not someone who insult people like how you do.
reflect on your role and position, what do you think?
it can't be changed as you wish seriously, I was just stating the fact, accept it or not its up to you.
ask your conscience if you what said that was really true and if you did what you claimed.
go away and get out of my world
I'm sick and tired of everything.
all these hypocricy
sorry 4L for scolding you all today, I really don't know what came over me today. sorry for losing my temper like that.
anw
shuhui gave me her first kiss today..
shocked.. lol
was..
disappointing....
didnt stay with my sec 2s..but went for trg again..
its not just the trg..something else too..
nevermind..
chiou yingting and I most probably will be coming early at 640am morningto train for flagstaff on Monday...
took bus 160 with kelly home after act..
it wasnt a bus that I would take normally..
cuz its super faraway from my house..had to walk a long distance from the nearest bus stop to my house..
but still took it..
the route back home was eerie..quiet.. dim.. cold wind blowing so frequently..
beautiful full moon..
kind of enjoy walking home like this.. serene and quiet.. under the moonlight..maybe I'm weird...
but I enjoy walking home alone like this.. of course... also hope that I will have a sweet boyfriend to walk with me in future..haha..
today...
flay day for rotary family service centre..
went with shuhui to orchard area..
it was still fine..just that a lot people ignored us and gave us black face..haha
standard stuff..
and a cute little boy brightened my day! :D
he is really so cute! oh no..he ran to me and inserted a coin into my tin and joyfully took a sticker from my tin and just clapped, pasted, slammed (I don't know how to describe his cute action) it on his belly..and that area was already filled with stickers! Then his mother told me that he wanted to collect stickers..haha..adorable little boy!
oh no.. recently saw a lot of children everywhere.. totally melt my heart..especially those cute and chubby babies.. I wanna pinch their cute little cheeks!
ahh..
I'm turning nuts again..
after everything went to eat with squaddies...
ate with clarine..yueting and yiling went to koba..
haha..clarine!
later min ee joined us..and we went home together..
anyway..congrats those people in my sec 2 squad who participated in the skit comp for clinching first! I'm so proud of you guys!:D
passed westmall after departing minee at Bukit Batok mrt station..
sudden urge to go for a shopping spree alone..and I did..
lol.. don't know what to say..
but yea..I went in and looked around.. actually it wasn't so bad to go alone..but don't care..cause nowadays I don't have free time to go shop shop..last trip was to suntec..long ago..so must grab the chance..haha..
and I bought a lot of stuff!
aw..my 50 dollars is gone. :(
but I'm happy :D
had a severe headache today.. pounding the whole day..
left eye kind of hurts too.. for days already..
came back took a bath and went to sleep until 8pm..
and my headache is still here..
ahh..
but nvm la..
hmm..
will be very busy from this week onwards..
haha
so
see you.. :)
lots..haha..I smile at people who smile at me ma..
2. What did you eat last night?
some noodles that my mom cooked..hoho
3. Are you in luv right now?
... maybe yes?
4. who is dat Gurl/Boy?
hmm.. :)
5. She/He has a gf/bf?
:)
6. What was the last thing you bought?
newspaper.. haha
7. What was the last gift you received?
soft toys..
8. Where do you keep your money?
wallet?
9. What is the weather today?
rainyy..wet..cool..
10. Where did your last hug take place?
with lilin? haha..somehow we always hug each other when we see each other in class
11. Do you love wearing polish?
no.. just okay with it
12. Do you want to cut your hair?
just cut it on monday.
13. Do you watch The O.C.?
heard of it, but never watch..haha
14. Does your name have an in it?
don't know??
15. Do you know anyone named Daniel?
yea, one in school?
16. Are you happy?
feel alright now
17. How are you?fine? yea of course
18. Name 2 friends whose name startswith the letter S
stella, sharmiee:)
19. Who's the last person who missed call you?
mommyy
20. Do you chew on your straws?
no..haha
21. How many times have you smile today?
quite a few times
22. Have you seen the movie Donnie Dark?
never heard of
23. Do you have to work tomorrow?
no..
24 . Who was the last person to say I love you to you?
my mother? lol
25. What are you doing ryt now?
sitting in my room and looking at the screen and tyipng this.
26 . Do you have a nickname?
yea..more than one
27. Who was the last person you hungout with?
sharmie :)
28. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
didnt watch any movie these two weeks! ><>
29. What kind of person must your partner be?
he must smell nice and sweet..haha
30. When was the last time you did the dishes, honestly?
just now? haha
finally a day free..:D
mr suria changed our seats again. Supposed to sit with zhiyong, but don't want, so sat with ruo lan at the back,new tablemate! byebye shu hui
:(
after school went for cc comp..but it rained again..so didnt train..
drenched... but I guess also partly because of myself.. very long since I had this kind of feelings..
went back to 4L with chiou and sharmie..
did some emo talks and some erm..weird, embarrassing stuff..cannot say..talked in the dark until we left the room some time later and sat outside..
talked and watched the school atheletes run round and round..they must be very tired ba..
talked about a lot of stuff..
hmm..
yea..
somebody once told me that 他觉得我很怕寂寞
对啊，我真得好怕
也许这是发自内心的吧
只是我现在才发觉
Recently time passed really fast..
I was still studying for my promo at this time last week..now.. one week passed already...
Heard a saying that the older a person become, the faster the time passes.
im turning old?!
The pig finally became pink!
:D
cute pig.. oink..haha
Today's zuowen lesson with zhang lao shi was rather fun...told us a lot about her experiences..which I agree much..
well..
nothing much..
tomorrow seniors will be coming back for their O lvls results..
good luck..
got to study for physics test.. jiayou :D
If you want recognition, just work hard for it, it don't come itself when you didn't even work hard.
please don't complain all day about how others are better than you, more outstanding than you and stop all your self-pitying.
sorry..
but it just my thoughts after quite a long period.
I know there are times for us to self- pity..
but please only do that when you have worked hard for something..yet you din make it..
and please, don't accuse me of anything, because I take pride in whatever I do and I do my best for everything.
I know you feel upset by what happened, I understand. But how can you accuse and insult me like that. not like I planned all these, its not in my control at all.. after all...they just mean extra work for me..
I feel terribly insulted and hurt by you. Utterly disappointed, to think I treat you as a close friend. I guess I will feel disgusted by your false front everytime I see you again.
...................................................................................................
got lots more to say..
but don't know how to continue..I guess its the first time I'm this hurt..
suan le..
I'm really tired of all your attitude and trying to hide my emotions..
if that is what you think of me..
by all means..
I don't want to root for you when others misunderstand you anymore, don't wanna find excuses for you anymore..
Don't just reply "whatever"
because that is a word that all losers use.
Pracical for promotion today..tried my best..nothing else I can do..
Hope my sec 2s did well for their drill today..
and hope we will do well for drill promo on 2/2/2008 ba...jiayou squaddies:)
hey..thank you my friend...
for always being there when I need you, whether rain or shine.
I know we are both in contrary environments and you are worried that I might be disillusion and mistook the wrongs for the rights.
but yea..
my appearance may change,
the people around me may change,
but my heart will perpetually stays the same.
I'm glad that at least I tried.
save me
still havn finish revising..
stressed..argh
but nonetheless
like to wish all my squadmates and my sec twos..
all the best for the following two days :)
omg
i'm seriously dying
staff segeant!!!!
rawr
worry worry :(
really a lot to study..for promo..
no time no time
campcraft, civil defence, general knowledge, weapon knowledge, fire fighting stuff...etc..
just know today that I'm in the 作文强化class along with 3 other classmates... good or bad thing? means must train until we can get A1...stupid zuowens are awaiting me..zzz
and I'm in 编采班 2008 again -.- continued from last year. No more free mondays for me anymore, since it will only end at 6pm plus...
but looking at the schedule, this year's course looks more interesting and fun..camera based..hope I will have a fulfilling product and learn some bian cai skills by the end of this course..instead of just wasting my time..
Very busy after school ..felt as if I'm the..chem rep..physics rep..chairperson..
lol
have to hand in one whole heavy pile of prac books, chem assignments, chem corrections, some consent forms too..haha
anw thanks shu hui for helping me. :)
oh yea, zhen yu asked me to mention him here.
lol..little bro..run faster track and field captain!
ok..I gonna go and study now..
this rank really means a lot to me..
wish me luck people. :D
bye
put yourself in the shoes of others before doing anything
stubbornness leads you nowhere
sometimes I wonder how I manage to wake up just before the busstop I'm alighting..
muster parade today..
sergeant tan :D
two more badges too..
congrats to squadmates who performed exceptionally well tooo
2 more days to study for promo..hope I will finish everything in time..
went to eat with squaddies after act..
don't know why..suddenly they started talking about the things that people can forget..and chiou mentioned the super embarassing incident that happened to me few years ago..
ahhhh..diu lian leh...
chiouyih can go and be blood donor..blood kept oozing out..poor thing..
tired now..
so..
see you..
deleted the previous post..
because I think it sound as if I'm a hua chi girl who will go crazy over a drummer..
of course I'm not...
muster parade tomorrow..so I'm preparing my full uniform now.
lol
everybody is starting to prepare for promo..
everybody is asking me to jiayou..
haha
everyone jiayou kay..
no matter for corporal..sergeant, staff sergeant..
we must all promote together..
its this friday and saturday
hope there won't be a lot of homework these few days..
will be preparing myself for my promotion..
I am serious.
bye!:D
don't want to do anything that I have no confidence in
still cannot find my organiser..
ahh..come back please.. :(
went to suntec with mum and sis today.
bought quite a number of dresses...
although I'm forced by my mother to buy some of them..but still okay la..
haha :)
saw junkai and family on the way home at citylink..
so coincidental..lol
still have yet to finish the MARIE ANTOINETTE, guess I have to hurry, or else I won't have time to revise for promo..
1138pm already
time to rest
so
see you againnnnn
and my organiser come back to me soonnn
你还是不懂
I'm very very sure I brought my organiser home leh, VERY SURE!
don't know where is it now..
guess if it is really under my table tmr..
I will go mad again
...
Indeed. What's the use of doing so many meaningless things.
I always believe that there are reasons behind everything we do. Perhaps sometimes other people may perceive it as some chores that we find for ourselves, but I guess as long as we know what we are doing and they are reasonable, why care about others? But..aiya..don't ask someone why they like someone/ something la... its just ..weird...
It's fine for us to unleash ourselves from our engulfed world sometimes to look at what other people are doing/ thinking/ working. It is not encouraging us to be feeble in our stand, instead just to give ourselves opportunities to see where we stand, how we progressed and perhaps to enlighten us that we should change for the better already.
Time is precious. Look back and ask yourselves how many moments are there for you to savour. How many times in the past did you really enjoy what you are doing. How many times did you achieve what you you aimed for and felt the ultimate joy that you earned for yourselves. How many time had you wasted, although at that point of time you knew you were wasting it.
Nobody is perfect. It is inevitable for everyone to have times like this. Flaws and everything, how is it possible to achieve everything that we aimed for? I guess its for ourselves to denote it and figure out what we want and work hard for it.
No comparison may lead us to be complacent.
Maybe I am affected by things that happened around me recently, so I did some reflections.
Sometimes I shed tears for my failures, unhappiness, disappointments, problems etc. I mean, times like this do happen and some people like me cant control it. hais...
Then, I will be thinking,"why am I so lousy?" " why can't I get it done well?".
One day I was telling a friend my problem, who was very mature and sensible. He told me to be strong and told me there is no point shedding tears for things already happened since we can't change the fact. Yea, we agree to what people say, but what matter is whether we can still secure the message behind firmly when ordeals come. So, I shall take it and be strong. 那得起，放得下。I will try not to give excuses for myself to perform lousily / shedding tears again. So cc comp, I will try not to have thoughts of giving up again. We can do it. Anyway, thanks all the people who asked me not to yesterday, you guys really made me wanna cry. Chiou yih cheer up too, we are all in this together right squaddie? Heart you kay. :)
I never like to hide the truth. I don't need a large number of friends to prove my popularity, non loud, noisy friends to let people know my existence, I just need friends who know me really well, give me support when I need it. Vice visa from me to them too. Boys or girls, I appreciate you guys just the same yea.
Back to the point. Read a few books recently, currently the book I'm reading now is MARIA ANTOINETTE, which is some sort of biography about this France's queen. Have to say that it is very infomative and I mentioned before that I like history books ma, so delightfully, I found another book that I enjoy. yeepee. Although its not about China's history, but I kind of absorb most of the China's past essences already, so this will do me fine. Anyway, since I'm reading my book most of the time now..so I practically did nothing when I come online nowadays, maybe to listen to songs and talking to some friends only. lol..
Next on list will be DRACULA. Lol, I know many people read this already, but I havn read before, so will draw out some time for it. Staff Sergeant promotion is coming this Friday. Muster parade this Tues, means that I will be wearing my Sergeant rank for the promotion. Additional strip may serve as additional responsibilities and better performance. Not that anyone asked us to display that kind of standard, but I guess we should have some self- awareness of the expectations and level of performance for this ba, not necessary for people to tell us everything, well, if we need, I guess perhaps we don't deserve the rank in the first place.
So..must jiayou!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!
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...lame........LOL
lala, jiayou extremists!
On a lighter note, I'm in the museum guiding extended CID under Ms Chia along with shuhui, esther, joanna from my class. Well, looking at the schedule I think it should be quite fun la..haha..
Went to the student leader seminar or not sure what its called today. Some get together with stella, my good old friend. Picked up something today. Some thing will remain there, although we won't neccesary be aware of it, but it will still happen/ appear when times comes la...
what to do..its human's nature to remember things subconciously, hard to eliminate everything la..
Hmm..another highlight.
KUNG FU DUNK featuring Jay Chou is coming soon! Lol, I know Debbie ( Mrs Chou) is elated. :D HAHAHA. I want to watch it. :)
shall go and do my homework/ read my book/ study for promo now..going out tomorrow..mummy asked me to finish everything today.. hoho.
anw
thanks jackie for the winnie the pooh.. another pooh on my shelf...lol
so..
BYEBYE
:))))))))))))))))))))))))
just..
very disappointed..
hope we can improve together ba..
:)
I believe we can de...
...right..?
1. Discipline/ Attitude
haha
watched a video during pdp..
lol
cute little boy..haha
after sch went to meet up with squaddies..
and we got new rifles! :D
they are much lighter than those we that have now in the np room..
although they are not the laser toy version..but good enough..
borrowed 2 books..
so I'm very happy today!!!
something to keep me occupied..
:))
slept a while just now..
so I'm feeling very good now!
yeepee!
:D
happy..thanks all my friends, family who had gave me encouragement during my promo last time..
congrats to other sqdmates who passed too..:)
muster parade this coming tues..
promotion for staff sergeant on 18/19 jan..
fast? 9 more days for me to prepare.
but I gonna work really hard for it..if not will dui bu qi myself..
yea
finally had a free day today..
tired day..
fell asleep immediately when I boarded 188 to sch today..
lol
suddenly have cravings for chocolates today..
rawr..
hais..xiaojun leaving for scotland for today..
I will remember you xiaojun!:(
alright
I guess I'm really tired..
cya
1. dont like things to be untidy, dirty, esp her table.
2.will become very frustrated, tense suddenly, if there are too many things to be done at one go.
3. easily moved, soft-hearted.
4.appreciate sincerity and simplicity.
5. her parents will alway be in the back of her mind whenever, whatever, wherever she is.
6. bottom up her feelings most of the time.
7. devote her all when in love.
8. can type 57 words in 1 minute.
9.her heart rules over her head most of the time.
10. maybe she don't know herself that well afterall.
oh..dont ask me why my face is red..because I was sun burnt after cc comp trg that day..
anyway..
BUT
today is the last day of holiday, so its quite significant. school will be starting tmr, guess I wun have urge to blog after that.
lmao
yesterday went to esplanade area for fireworks!
hhaa
went there at quite a late hour, because we had some disputes before that.
reached there and saw binsing and kam.
lol
kam started asking me if I know cantonese and from then on, they started conversing in that alien language in front of me.
lol
met up with chee they all, but they were going to eat, so binsing kam and me went to walk around.
met with the girls afterward and we went shopping. And we ended up in esplanade later on.
It was very crowded with a lot of people.
everyone wasqueezingand I feel like the ham in the sandwich.
We finally found a place to sit not long before the fireworks start.
woo..
the atmosphere was HIGH.
haha
everyone started screaming, a lot cameras started shooting up too. I was wondering whether people were taking pictures of the fireworks or the picture of many cameras in front of them.
ANW
the fireworks display was spectacular!
lol
pretty~
lasted for 8 minutes.
haha, anyway junkai just told me he was there yesterday too. :D
after that
we wanted to go to the mrt station
but we cant move.
lol
trapped in the crowd for super long.
went home after that, although the rest of my friends all went to ayesha's house.
haha
no choice la, I must listen to my mother ma..haha
my parents came to fetch me at bukit gombak, very sweet :)
yup, so I reachedhome at 2am plus.
lol
happy new year everyone! its 2008 now
thank you everyone who sent me greetings either through smses or msn.
my phone was super active yesterday. haha
oh yea, there is campcraft comp training tmr after school...
and HRC is on this coming sat.
well then, all the best team.
