I am...
lol..
School is pretty okay, everythings the same.
I think my pinching skill has improved by leaps and bounds, because peggy( I shall call her yuyu from now on) kept asking me for it.
haha
love cuddling and scolding binsing( binbin..lol) with yuyu during lessons, laugh out loud.
Binbin stop eave lopping us!
lol
Nah..we are just fooling around..giving everyone a name..
anw yuyu I wanna see amelia's video!
Alright, I shall stop my nonsense.
Hmm, the weathers pretty warm these few days...my body feels as if its gonna melt anytime..extreme climate change..ahh..global warming is coming, rmb to close the door!
Oh yea, I realised that my Pt deteriorated...days without np..hais..
Chem prac was pretty interesting today..
electrolyte..
kamseng said that the scar on my hand is cool..lol..but I feel hurt..:(
thanks yuyu for drawing a heart there to cover it..haha
maybe i should tattoo it someday or something..lol
hmm..
really tired today..
finished a novel yesterday...quite please..:)
I shall end here, bye
My eyes are hurting, my head is burning and my body is feeling uber cold.
Pardon me, my brain is not functioning well today.
Spent the whole day in school till 5 plus..
Had quite a good chat with kitty while waiting for math remedial to start, who told me a lot of things.
Lol..I've realised that I'm not very informed of gossipy things nowadays..
bewildered when others tell me rumours of all sorts..
aiks..not that I care anyway..none of my business..lol
Thought of lots of things today..
I really feel like crap now..sick and all..
anyway..
To the one I hurt today..I am sorry yea..
I didn't mean it...thanks for everything though :3
nights, my head is exploding.
We got married. haha :D
Winn and shushu.. *twist*
cute shuhui..haha..
*twist*
winn ayesha siyao..waiting outside vivo..zzz
winn and siyao <3
ayesha winn and siyao again..lol
dodo winn and siyao..my eyes are the smallest..dayuum
alright, end with ayesha winn and siyao again.
Winn and shuhui.. during semakau trip on my birthday this year..LOL
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speaking of birthdays..
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Pammy and winn *look at my thin plait*
kitty and winn * meows*
oh yea..my shooting pic..last year..koped from np room..
Initially wanted to post the shooting pic ytd night..but a cockroach invaded my room and I had to clear the coast. So I shut down my computer.
Took lots of pictures today..my phone went out of batt..
Did some disgusting actions with siyao..and photos were taken..luckily I managed to delete it..
All in all..today is another boring day.. I see all the "ZZZ" on Shuhui's face..
lol..I've got nothing much to say now..except that I'm rather moody today.
Don't ask me why. I just feel bad to you, you, you and you.
I don't understand why we have to treat each other as if we are all invisible even when we bumped right into each other...
Not bothering me much though, because I like this state that we are in now.
At least I have stopped feeling anything for you long time ago.
The first chapter ended decades ago..I knew it when I realised that I can finally look at you appearing in front and around me without any emotions.
No idea why am I talking about weird stuff today.
Thought of all the depressing stuff today and brought back many emotions.
Just wanna put an end to somethings that no longer hold any meaning to me and I don't like it when people keep reminding me of it.
If it can't stand anything, perhaps it is fated to be, so just let it be.
Commontest coming: concentration concentration concentration!
Jiayou ba, I remember my promise to you.
turn to mugging mode.
nights nights
haha..sweet 16 girl :) Hope you like the present yea..its not a hat..lol
Peggy's niece amelia is super duper cute! :D
Some random photographs I came across while sweeping through all my folders..
I'm caught in a dilemma.
Tell me what I should do, because I am really confused.
Slept late and woke up real early to reach school at 6..
and indeed I was the earliest..
No matter how much profit we earned, I can see that all my fellow classmates had fun. And I feel happy too, all our efforts are worthwhile. :)
Special thanks to Siyao, shuhui and cheehooi for helping me with the ingredients stuff..
Especially SIYAO..really thanks girl for always helping me and for being so mai li in the class stuff..really appreciates it..will go and watch your performance at UCC de! Support support!
Thanks binsing, zhiyong, jiong rui for being so hyped up the day before..feel quite heartwarming to see all the numerous phonecalls by your guys.
And also the decoration commitee..nice posters and boards we have.
Not to forget peggy! Thanks for helping me with the proposals and thanks debbie too for helping to design our cute coupons and posters. :)
Haha, of course all of 4L which in one way or other made today a success!
hearts hearts <3
All in all, good job 4L! TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!
Love our chocolate made with love kay.. <3
Lol.. went out with ayesha after that..since I was in a rather good mood.. aiks.. lazy to continue writing.. visit ayesha's blog for more details for the whole day today ok! everything is inside..
http://fantasy--reality.blogspot.com/
Physics now..
hoho
one hr and 22 minutes to Qinyu's birthday
And I miss claire lots and lots and lots! :( Aiks, you broke our promise..but nvm..come back soon kay..Best Buddy Forever. :D
nights everyone
And not because others want me to feel happy or because there is a purpose for me to.
Disturbed today..
I'm sorry...
you are the nicest image in my mind..
hello darlings! :D
Racial harmony day is just around the corner..actually I have no feelings you know..with all the preparations and all..but kind of some anticipation.
GOGOGO ４ＬＯＵＤＳＰＥＡＫＥＲＳ:D
lots of love <333333333
everyone must support okay..if not I will come and scold you until you die..lol..nah..just kidding..
it will be a busy weekend for me..and for all of us i guess..cant believe one week just passed like that..
All are well these few days..glad that most of the class are quite enthusiastic abt it..haha..our coupons are prettayy.. rabbit logo again..cute..
Actually sometimes I really feel like abandoning everything and just sit in one corner and slack.. but I know I can't...its always me who have to do something first before the rest will really care about it..so..jiayou k..we can do it together.. :) hearts!
Anyway..went Siyao's house yesterday for our secret recipe. it went well..and quite fun...
Oh god..I saw lots and lots of angelfishes at her house.
alright..
nothing to say actually..
a tiny bit upset today..
nights :)
Hope my result is okay too. :)
Went orchard with shuhui to look for makeup remover. For her dance.
Lol, the salesgirl is super rude and we got pissed off. -.-
Walked around far east until we got so tired. Saw quite a lot of pretty dresses too, reminds me of mdm eu, big ribbons.:D
I just realised that I had been ranting on how much I wanna go out with cheechee and till now we havn do so..ever since our last trip which was like decades ago..
but nvm..I will be looking forward to wednesday! and saturday!
haha..trying out our secret recipe at siyao's house after school.
see you then dearest! <3
oh yea..lilin get well soon alright!
Thats all for today..I'm feeling very unwell today..very worn out..
Nights to all.
I must study, study, study.
and when I finally succeeded, all it takes is just someone's casual remarks to knock some sense into me and everything comes back again..
just like today..
nvm about it..
Was just talking with clarine just now..I realised that different people see a same thing with different perspectives..
I don't know.. just kind of feel disgusted when people act as if they know me very well..
That's all for today..nothing much actually.. and I don't think that someone should be deem as bad just because he/ she does not return your admiration the way you expected him/ her to.
all in all today is quite a good day..wore my full uni for the last few times.
Oh yea..getting back to math now.
seeing you just bring smiles to my lips.
upon a virus scan... think my computer is ageing..
LOL
I'm so uber happy now :D
HELLO coolios, be sure to catch superband tomorrow! I love that show man!
:DDDDD
alright..
goodnight
although my night doesn't ends here.
p/s. I love FIR hell lot. You can sing me some of their songs! :D
But I really have the urge to say it.
You know, almost 50% of my time in RV were filled by my academic work. The rest of the 50% were filled by none other than RVNP. I can't remember why I joined NP in the first place.
I only have vague memories of seeing a squad from NP drilling in the old campus.
I were pondering whether to join NP or NCC, which the answer is obvious now.
I guess my choice were right yea know.
I can't believe time passed so fast, 4 yrs had almost passed.
I could still remember meeting all my fellow sqdmates one by one, trying to remember their names, their class, etc.
I could even remember hating pear. LOL
Seeing little clarine(first sqdmate I met in np), little qinhui ( who was super short last time and black too), little pear(centre parting and also black), little yueting( everytime tell us she wanna be policewoman in future), little chiou yih ( punky hair, I thought she was a bad girl), little guofeng( look like a nerd last time, weird spec), little charmaine( round face, cute), little yiling( look very studious), little hanqian( look very lao tu, lol), little mingjie(always look very dumbstruck), little jhosy( singing here and there)...etc..and little winnie ( myself, super white and just even more white) LOL
I remember doing ridiculous stuff, like running in the rain, taking some fun rides with pear while shouting some ridiculous names.
Saying and living with all the I love NPs that we say all the time.
Telling you guys whatever worries I had, the sense of accomplishments we had, the dragon pumpings, the cheers.
Our PT freaks, our dance sessions, running around the school, saying lame stories, changing parades, even those little squabbles we had seem so sweet and made our friendship even more impenetrable.
Yea know, the times we had were really...unreplaceable.
Our mentality, appearance, attitude, behaviour may change after all these years, but I guess no matter what, those memories of RVNP with our squadmates will stay in us forever. Maybe we don't really feel it, or talk about it, or even doubt the existance of such linkage, belonging to our squad, but I guess it really do exist, but it only show itself when the right time comes.
To ask our concience, we really take everything in NP very seriously, although our NCOs then still tell us that we're not good for don't know how many times, just definitely more than how much I tell my squad now. I doubt the cadets currently can experience that kind of feelings again. Maybe they interpret that kind of feelnigs in a new way. Like what others had said, we can't compare ourselve with the juniors now. Afterall we were trained in a different way. But yea, sometimes I got mixed up and were even disappointed when I see that my cadets were not like how we were last time. You know, I don't mean my own squad is the best, I mean they do not behave like how they are expected to like how we were expected to last time, the change in attitude and I got so angry. I forgot that times had changed. Its not their fault, probably my fault that I have still not adapted to the system now.
Actually all along, I still believe in corporal punishment. I guess the times when I was a cadet, pumping nonstop in the rain and stuff, were those that made my np life such a lively one. So yea..I really miss those times. I feel kinda pity for my sec 2s that they can't experience what we had experienced last time. But come to think of it, there is no absolute solution for anything, maybe the system now can also ripe a whole new kind of experience for them.
I really hope this sec 2 squad of mine can evolve into a good NCO squad in future. Whether they still remember us or not does not matter. Just hope that one day when we see them again 2 years down the road, they're grown up already and still keep that cute innocence and beliefs in them.
I have wrote so much today that I wonder whether I still have anything left to write when our ROD comes. But nothing to worry about, I guess something will come into my head that day.
Please don't push your luck too far, because I won't neccesary be able to take it.
Tired of all these nonsense.
but anyway, I'm not some narrow-minded person, so its okay.
Don't wanna elaborate on it anymore, because there is no point. I guess as long as I do my part, thats enough. The world won't become better just because you keep repeating those vulgarities.
Having a bad headache today..zzz..my head feels heavy.
By the way, wanna thank all those who listened to my rantings just now..
its 10.19pm now, got to continue mugging, haha :D
yea im alright, so don't worry, just a sudden dose of extreme emotions.
p/s Shuhui, I hope that your eyes will get better soon! :D
Love yea darlings, bye! :D