I am...
My ulcer sucks.. it hurts like hell..
big hole leh..
And yes mr minzhang
I need you to become spastic so that I can sleep.
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation. The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her. What Tarot Card are You? Actually I don't think that its true..especially the last part..haha.. Anyway..full moon.. nice :) Thanks mum for the kitty..too cute for me..I love it..haha Xp Happy Birthday my dear lala. :D
Labels: Never been so upset.
Labels: angry :(
and just play along?
其中一个过客。
Don't even know what to believe or what is worthy to put in my all.
Just keep all these lies to yourself,
I'm sick of all these sweet yet flawed talks.
你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我
为什么要低着头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我
可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我
我终于也说出口
其实很爱你但从没认真说过
或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中(yeah)
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
oh不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖着我的手
握住的只是风
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我
oh no no...
我觉得瞒好听的。。虽然有一点伤感。。
哇。。随着时间滴滴答答的流失，转眼间一个早晨便过去了。
本来以为在家里会很闷，因为独自面对四堵墙嘛。
可是妹妹佳宜忽然之间回来了，我才恍然发现自己很大意，忘了佳宜考完试后会回来喔。
所以我就有伴了！
lalala ~
ok 啦。。 到目前为止我的复习进度还不错。。只是一直抵抗不了想吃东西的念头。。
其实我告诉你，每当我紧张时我就会开始喝水，没事做的时候也喜欢喝水。所以，认识我的朋友都知道我喝水很快，可是我不是水桶！
刚才读书越读越bored，不知道跑了厨房几趟，都是为了喝水，所以现在索性放了几瓶水在我的面前，就不用再走来走去了！ 哈哈哈！
好啦，我也觉得自己有一点白痴，应该读书的时候在这里讨论喝水的问题。可是喝水还是很重要哦，不然在这样炎热的天气很容易得 heatstroke的.
好啦。。 我不要再唠叨了。。 “冷战" ( cold war ) 在等我。。 （对，我读这么久还在那边。。bleh :P)
忘了说，嘴里有一个big ulcer, 很痛。。。 所以我决定不要讲话了。。。 :'(
okok..我真的走了。。 拜拜。。
有机会的话就去听以上的歌曲吧。。 ：）
-佳慧 aka WinnTJH
Back on track. Today is the last day of school before our first paper. Peggy made me laugh like crazy today. Nevermind, shall not elaborate on it.
lol
Gonna spend all my time studying yea and hope I will stay focus.
After school accompanied Shuhui to her dental appointment near bb interchange( which is very near to my house). Came back and fell asleep almost immediately, perhaps because I slept late yesterday. ( but someone is later :P)
Woke up at 830pm, just in time to catch second half of “唯我独尊”. And Icaru won again! Although I thought the other guy, you know, the one who did the indian dance would be the ultimate winner.
Anyway, I feel refresh! :DDDDDD
haha
Looks like my power nap is working, but I doubt I can fall asleep easily tonight.
Its okay, because today is history day/ night.
I shall go and stare at my cold war notes now.
Jiayou everyone.
Its only one week, so lets be determine and get over with it.
All the best to you and WinnTJH.
<3
In actual fact its not just any sports day, but a day of fun games and crazy people.. lol..
I had fun!
I met yuecong, mei chen, qihuan, yongquan, zengqi, xiaoyang at Ang Mo Kio at 8.30pm.
The rest were either late or coming in the afternoon or had something on in school..
I tell you, Minghan ( 男丁aka Nicholas aka 命海） is the best. He went to CHANGI BEACH for cip forgeting that it was Ti yu jie. But its okay since he came afterwards. Hahaha
Anyway, digress abit. I met this guy from 锐鹰, his name is Zhipeng. He was from RV, 18 yrs old now, in mindsports last time. Haha..cool..he said he joined tong xun yuan with Boyuan and Haiyuan ( if I never remember wrongly) from his class. Well, its always good to know someone from the same school.. haha..at least..used to be.
Well, reached Mayflower Sec and the day started with a blindfold, water game. Lol, our blindfold was uber cute. haha, had fun in this game. Lol, my reaction was too slow, got slammed hard on my back with water bomb by my opponent first in few seconds.
Second game. A long line of benches connected together with twists and turns. Then we are suppose to..(hmm..how to say.. )walk with the benches in btw our legs..starting from the two ends and play scissor paper stone or do some task when both of them meet. It was crazy I tell you, because the whole place was full of soapy water.
When we watched 摄影and 天鹰played, I almost thought they gonna fight soon, looking at the speed of how they moved with the benched in between their legs. ( super hard) Haha, it was like going to war.
When it was our turn, Meichen ( 代理组长）kept saying "safety first".
In the end Meichen was the pro-est, almost reach the end many times. Haha, this game was the most enjoyable one, because everyone was crazy, especially kelvin from 天鹰. haha, take care with all your blue-blacks everyone!
It was Captain ball next on list. It was a fun game, first time playing Captain ball with people outside RV, somemore with all the hiong people. I'm happy with catching the ball..hahahaha
Hmm, lunch afterwards at AMK hub and Junquan came to meet us. And yea, Minghan, yang song joined us . Went back to Mayflower sec after lunch and we were told to fold paper planes. Which I realised that I don't know how to fold at all and junquan tried to teach, but I still don't know how to. Lol, quoted from Meichen "原来大家都没有童年” haha, I remember I used to like playing with Legos rather than barbie dolls when I was young and I will build a lot of houses.
All in all, that games wasn't as fun as the ones before it. We just kept blocking paper planes with pink umbrellas and flying paper places to opponents territory.
lol...
After that was some pepsi cola game. Yangsong and me in a team. She was agitated by someone in another team. And we were defeated! Rawr, nevermind we still had Junquan and Nicholas. lol, it was fun looking at them play.
Wa..I'm getting restless..
So I shall jump straight to the end! hahaha..bleh :P!
So tianting won!! haha..congrats :)
Went to have dinner with 凌鹰 and 锐鹰 people at some area near AMK hub. Found out that Meichen is a very good person to communicate with, actually most of the lingying people is. Oh yea, Junquan is from Hougang NPCC, so we got topic to talk about, like our cadet and camps etc. Lol, make new friends with people from ruiying like Zhi chen, Joanna and Xinyan too.
Okay, went home with Meichen, Yangsong and Joanna. Yangsong told us about her tramatising flasher experience. lol.. sounds very scary.. But I applaud you YANGSONG! For your bravery to reply to that flashr and stay calm. Well done! Hope you recover from your shock soon and don't put your handphone into your washing machine anymore.
Wow, finally done with the post. Actually I just wanted to write and post something just now, didn't expect to write so much.
Alright I shall end here, back to mugging. BYE :)
天灵灵 地灵灵
你灵 我赢
凌鹰！
lol..some lame cheer from yesterday.
but still..
凌鹰一级棒！
haha, I must thank all the people who made my 16th birthday such a memorable day..
Its not everyday that you realised so many people care about you... :)
haha, I can't help feeling happy when I see people sending me so many happy birthday wishes.
hmm..
okay..
This year..
People who I sent me happy birthday wishes through msn or sms.
(those that I remember the timing..sorry to those if I forgotten)
1. Gary ( lol..2 days before..)
2. Jiayu ( lol..1 day before..)
3. Junkai ( 11.54pm! :D)
4.Zimin (11.57pm! )
5.Yueting (11.59pm!)
6. Lovely pearpear (11.59pm!)
7. Jackie (12.00am!)
8.XiaoJun(12.00am!)
9.Jason(12.00am!)
10.Weilin(12.00am! or earlier)
9.Xinyu(12.04am!)
10.Yiling (12.05am!)
11.Benjamin(12.08am!)
12.Clarine (12.10am!)
My smses and messages from darlings of my sec 2 sqd:
1. Jingxian
2. Jovi
3. Xiuhan
4. Vanessa
5. Tian li
6. Ong min
7. Ching Hun
8. Alicia
9. Priscilla
10. Weiying
*I'm really sorry if I really miss anyone out!
Friends:
( who wished me by sms, msn, but I cant rmb the timing)
1. Ayesha
2. Beryl
3.Joshua
4. Melissa
5. Qihuan
6. Khinyin
7.Junwen
8.Xinyu
9.Munweng
10. Pocheng
11.Chiouyih
12. Mingjie
13. Hanqian
14. Boonping
15. Amanda
16. Ethel
17. Kellu
18. XINYING ( same birthday as me! :D)
*I think I miss someone out..cuz I think there should be more..sorry!
and others who wished me verbally ior through other methods today..
thanks a lot too! I appreciated it
:)
hmm..really very happy because..
1. A lot of people who counted down to my birthday with me this year..xiexie!
2. Sweet messages..until my phone went out of batt today..
3. Sweet people :)
THANK YOUs:
Weilin for counting down with me to my birthday for 4 yrs consecutively already.. <3
Stella and Weilin for coming to my class today and gave me the birthday present. 4th year of our friendship, best friends forever!<3
Munweng, Xinyu, Gary, Junwen, ( Hanqian, he hid somewhere) for coming to my class today and gave me a really pleasant surprise! I am really touched.. haha..especially the birthday card..really sweet! I like the present too..love you guys! Very gan dong<3
Peggy my dear cute skippy darling for the present. I love talking weird hokkien crap with you, clinching on to you in class, laugh at binsing in class with you and thanks for teaching me math! Thanks! <3 ( get well soon)
My lovely black pear ( peiwen) and Sijie for the necklace! I like it alot and its pretty! hahaha..heart you squadmates!
All my classmates who said Happy birthday to me and for telling me some sincere and sweet messages. And the birthday song. :D
Dearest mum and dad, for the new bag, cute kitty, and my favourite chocolate cake. Thanks for raising me up and for all the love and care that you have showered on me. <3333
My dear sec 2 squad for all your lovely messages. haha.. didnt expect so many of you to know or even remember it..haha..thanks a lot! I love bangbang too! <3
Many other thanks too. But I guess I don't know how to piece them up..
just..
had a really happy birthday today..
haha..seriously..I really didn't expect so many people to rmb..
thanks everyone! I will remember today. :)
I'm really having a sweet 16 now. :D
You are The Empress
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
Take the Test to Find Out.
She just put out a small fire on the public rubbish bin with drinking water from her bottle.
-LOL
okayokay..time to get back to work..
Media talk in exact. It talked about the evolution of media, the internet, television, radio, etc. Somehow it got a news reporter from Channel 8, the chief editor from 我报，an over-enthu female teacher and an eurasian who can speak chinese far too fluently to be our speaker.
It was quite interesting in my opinion, at least I didn't fall asleep..haha!
Met Siyu and Xiaoyang during lunch..
Hmm..
It had been a long time since I last saw them and it was my first time seeing xiao yang in JJ's uniform.
Of course I have seen Siyu in TJ's one before..
And it occured to me that 26/4 is 体育节, which is this coming Saturday.
Wow, its at Mayflower secondary school. Moreover, Nicholas is coming back from beijing real soon, 23/4 I think? So I assume he will be there for the Sports day.
Lol, 凌鹰's blog kinda become a site that I will visit everyday already.
Well anyway, went to Westmall after departing Farah.
Don't know, just don't feel like wasting my afternoon since I was already outside.
Brought quite a lot of things..actually not alot also la..
Just some things that I wanted to buy, but no time to buy..
hmm..
Saw a very pretty necklace in the accessaries shop beside the cards and such shop.
Its pink, a really nice shade of pink and I love it. But it cost $27, after buying all the things I don't have much money left, so didn't buy. :(
After that, I guess there were still time left, so I visited the library.
I can't say that BB library is my favourite because I prefer the Woodland's one more or best.
Yea, of course visiting the libary means borrowing books.
Which I am reading now, one of them.
To my pleasure, my mother enjoys it too. Although everytime she read a story, she will cry because it is too touching.
Actually one of the reasons I borrowed it was because I knew that my mother will definitely enjoy it, because she love this kind of touching stories, just like me. :D
haha
alright.
I guess this is enough for today.
bye :)
I must really thank Sir Oh for helping me to get HQ review my case and eventually qualify me for the badge.
It mean a lot to me, really.
Especially after yesterday's ceremony, met a lot of outstanding cadets who had dedicated a lot of their time to the corps throughout these years.
It feels like a miracle to me, to have lost and get it back again.
And I am really inspired by other cadets who had also strived and done well in their respective units.
Years in the corps really taught me a lot of lifeskills that I will hold on even in the future.
The friendships forged with fellow cadets, be it in Area 16 or other Areas, I will not forget.
Thanks for the camaraderie. :)
And most importantly, I must thank those people who had accompanied me through the period when I thought I lost the badge and eventually felt happy for me when I got it back.
Thank you! <3
Yesterday was really a happy day.
I shall update fully on it when I get all the pictures.
Bye :D
But now, I see no point. I finally realised that although somethings need to be expressed, but the best emotions can only be felt with the exchange of heart, and only with those who really care and bothered.
My heart is filled with some much things that I don't know what display name to put particularly.
dodo just told me something few days ago.
I thought I would be sad upon hearing it initially.
But no, I felt relieved instead.
I finally figured out.
It had been one year since my NPDP 2007 last year.
I could still vividly remember wearing my No.1 uniform with chiouyih last year.
The M16 rifle, the bayonet...
Just now looked through all the photos that Sir Oh took yesterday during NPDP 2008 and read the email that my sec one I.C Haoting wrote for us..
Feel like crying looking back at all the good times.
I don't want everything in my NP life to end so soon...
Although the SPF badge will remain as a lifelong regret for me,
but WinnTJH won't be so easily beaten down.
I love RVNP.
It taught me to be strong all these years.
And yes, I will be strong.
I don't know what to say honestly.
I only know that my heart is broken.
When you had worked hard, or maybe even many times harder than others, yet what you get is this kind of result, I really don't know what to say.
Looking at the fact that they had overlooked all the events, many contributions that I had done for the unit, for NP and fail me just because I really didn't have time to go back to school to sign the form because I had something on and so last minute, perhaps I should change my impression for this organisation that I had once respected so much.
You fail me for some superficial stuff and overlooked all the important things.
All I feel is injustice.
You are not me, you don't understand how I feel.
You don't know how upset I am, so much that I cried the whole night.
Don't ask me to let go of it, I can't, its not like I deserve this, not like I did not meet any criterias, at least I'm sure that I did.
I have a lot of things to say..
but I don't know how to say..
I only know that I'm very disappointed, very upset and it is very unfair to me.
I shall stop here, it is worsening my depression.
thanks all the people have truely showed your concern and care, I really appreciated your sincerity and friendship.
不要再问我好不好了。。
我不好，我非常的不好！
( In no order)
1.Rude people
2.Unfilial people
3.Betrayers
4.Liars
5.Haughty people
6.Selfish people
7.Scheming people
8.Two-faced person
9.Noisy people
10.Immature people
Don't know why, just feel like listing it out.
If you happen to belong to the last 9 types of persons, it won't bother me a least bit, perhaps only have some internal disgust stirring within me.
But if you belong to the first group, please don't come near me. Nothing on Earth can annoy me as much as rude people. From my past angered experiences, 99.9% of the time was because I felt insulted by some rude people.
hais..
perhaps my 自尊is extremely high.
But relieved..after all the tests ended..
Weekend is awaiting me!..
but..
there is jiang zuo at News Centre tomorrow..
hais..
my saturday gone..
but its okay :)
going to school before that to hand in some stuff.