I am...
And when the birds don t fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet s red
When the rose turn blue
baby i ll still be in love with you
Take me to far awayAway to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain for which I ll repay someday with a kiss
and say can t believe that I m in love in love again.
-adapted from chiou's blog
Din go to school today, hope I will be better tomorrow and go back.
see you :)
I want to revive it!
don't know if it will succeed..but I will try..
so people
please visit 4loudspeakers at http://www.theworldismystage-3l.blogspot.com/ !
好开心今天是星期六！
可以睡觉睡到自然醒，很棒喔! :D
很久没有这样了。。我的心情今天还蛮好的。。因为我终于可以呆在家里休息做功课了。。
过了梦寐以求的慵懒的下午。。
当然不能总是这样啦。。 久久一次咯。。
林国豪先生前几天还叫我陪他今天去报馆。。
可是现在音讯全无。。所以今天就没去了。。
my dear kok..最近你好象很stress..
Stress 不要紧。。 要好好拿捏。。不要让自己太辛苦。。安眠药不要吃太多。。对身体不好咯。。
takecare..
对了。。 对不起chee。。不知道你会不会看到。。但是我还是要说。。 “sorry!今天没有陪你去出去。。 ” 哈哈，可是你一定会体谅吧。。 ：D
hmm..
今天不小心翻出课本的时候。。无意间看到某某送的东西。。
忽然觉得很温馨。。很感动。。感觉好清晰。。
不管怎样。。 我都会好好保管它的。。
毕竟你是我的第一个男孩。。当然我不会忘记。。
哎呀。。
我为什么过了这么久还这样啊。。
不要管我刚才说什么了。。
过去了。。
：（
明天还要去np 的cip..
11 点到 7.30 pm 喔。。。
我的星期天。。 ahhh。。。
可是不要紧啦。。 去帮人嘛。。
哈哈
下次见咯。。 ：）
记得上 http://www.theworldismystage-3l.blogspot.com/ !
I should stop showing my emotions so easily..
shall go and mug mug mug now. nights :D
:(...
1) Have you had a gf/bf?
no..havn see my prince..haha
2)Have you had your birthday
no..but soon..
3)Been to church?
no..I'm a taoist..
4)Cried?
yea..many times..
5)Had someone close to you pass away?
nooo..I don't want..
6)Pulled an all nighter?
???? dont get what it mean..
7)Drank starbucks?
hoho..of course
8)Gone shopping?
not really much...like to stay at home more now..
9)Gone to the movies?
yea..but not as much as before..
10) Gone to the beach?
no...no time
11)Bought something for over $200?
no...but nearing..haha
12)Met someone new?
haha..yea...in fact a lot... :)
13)Been out of your home state?
no states..
lol
15)Gone snowboarding?
no snow!
16)Slept in a friend's bed?
no la...havn been to anyone's house yet this year.
17)Snuck someone over?
no..
18)Snuck out of your own house?
no..because even if I succeeded..I will feel so guilty that I will go back eventually..lol
19)Been in a bar?
no..
20)Lied?
yea..white lies..
21)Gotten a car?
still young..lol..
22)Gone over your cell phone bill?
okay la..
23)Drove somewhere?
no..no car..lol..my father drives me around
24)Done something you regret?
yea..sometimes I do make mistakes
25)Things you bought lately?
magazine..books..some cute things...a lot of gummies..lol
26)Person you last hugged?
forget already..
27)Last Person to call you?
lovely dad..<3
Tomorrow is chemistry test.
Jiayou wor everyone!
I'm saying this because I really need a lot of oil..looking at my gpa..
I can't blame anyone..its my own fault..shall not give any excuse..
so I will work doubly hard.
I promise myself to get back a nice gpa next time.
and I will keep it, because I won't let myself down.
oh well..jiayou all..
新鹰们，4/4 将有Kusong 讲座，三点开始，在报馆的礼堂，越多人越好。我在帮美辰宣传。。有兴趣者请跟美辰讲。。更多详情都在凌鹰的blog。。 http://www.lingyingtxy.blogspot.com/
lol..组长们和男丁都到北京了！！
alright..
shall continue my post when I'm free..
chem chem here I come.. woohoo :)
oh yea..
my dear jiayu..
happy birthday to you!
16 already! 9 years plus of friendship.. <3
actually I do this every night...but I don't sit on the ground..lol
beautiful night indeed..
beautiful moon too..
everytime I see it, I will feel very happy.
Pure happiness.
Perhaps it is because it will rekinder some of my sweet memories that are hidden at the back of my head.
So, do find time to look at the night sky when you are free. It will make you forget a lot of troubles and get yourself immerse in the starry world.
Maybe some friends will somehow know that I love the moon because I always draw things that are associated with it.
oh well..I got to go..
bye
:)
我必须承认，我昨天真的有点紧张。
紧张到flagline 突如其来地拉不下来的时候，我的头脑顿时变空白了。
放下整只旗杆时，我的心冷了。我真的很着急，很害怕。
原以为调正好loophole后，一切就会顺利。以为我们至少还有希望在仅剩的几分钟内把整只旗杆erect好。
怎知，flagline又二度拉不下来。
这时， 喇叭响起了，意识着我们只剩一分钟的时间。
我想我可能是被这荒缪的突发事件给吓傻了，竟呆呆地看着旗杆许久，站在原地不动。
我想当时我心中的火已经熄灭了吧， 因为我的潜意识告诉我在一分钟内架好是不可能的， 因为我们没有做过。
可是， chiou yih 忽然之间骂了yingting一句“为什么没有帮我”（她没有恶意啦）。这惊醒了我。其他队友也一窝蜂地冲过来帮我们。
我忽然之间发现我不应该站在那里傻愣的， 于是我开始做我该做的。
奇迹出现了！
正当大家都在齐力把flagstaff 架起时，我管也不管地把死捆住的flagline拉了上去， 然后死命地绑啊绑。 数秒后喇叭又响了。
立化的旗在最后的十五秒内也成功地上去了。
走出pitch的时候，我哭了。
很失态，对不起，我没有如预期般地把它绑好，不知道为什么hq 给的绳那么的粗， 很伤心出错了。
但不管怎样，我觉得我们大体上表现得还不错，毕竟basha和gadget都很美，欣慰的是我们的旗也有上，至少放心了。
还有要感谢来支持的人！谢谢你们！
yatta!
haha
过后下午与yangsong 会面一同到seng kang.
因为有凌鹰bbq..
haha
总而言之，很fun, 很happening, 认识了许多人。
对了，去了junquan的家， 好远喔。
哈哈，他也是npcc的， staff sergeant too!
哈哈哈，太好了。
改次再post about it, 现在很迟了，瞌睡虫要啃死我了。。
困~
拜拜：D
都写好了。。
但是最后又撤掉了。。
哎呀。。
我不知道。。
早上看到报纸，通讯员全体照上报咯！哈哈。上个星期六凌鹰也上报咯，哈哈，我在报上看起来好圆喔。对了，这个星期六将与凌鹰聚会，因为组长们还有我们最亲爱的男丁要去北京了。到五月喔。。好长啊。。可是星期六有学警的比赛，所以不知可不可以赶上。。。
嘿。。。我发觉在某些领域上我还没发挥全力，总是寥寥了事。是我的错，对不起母亲大人！ 对啊，是时候调整心态了，佳慧坚持好不好啊？哈哈哈，我干吗一直在跟自己说话。
我的注意力最近好容易分散。。
要努力focus了。。。
集中！
还有。。现在正面对一个很重要的抉择。。。
想了很久都得不到结论。。要考虑很多因素。。
不要一直举棋不定。。我要好好考虑啊！
哎呀。。 进退维谷。。：（
哈哈。。我好像使用华文用上瘾了。。
等我写腻了再转换成英语吧。。 ：）
好了。。
我的走了。。 现在我没什么时间可以耗了。。
再见!
你骗我骗得还真爽。
想谢谢某位好朋友。。
你总能看透我的心情。就算我笑得多灿烂，你都能察觉到那笑容背后的委屈，勉强， 然后一一点破它。 这点让我即害怕又佩服。也许，在你面前我隐藏不了什么。。是原本的我。
或许从前曾对不起你，或许我错过了，总之对不起我给你带来的伤害。但还是感谢你一直以来的支持，守护和陪伴着我。每次需要你， 你都会瞬间出现。 今天和你说话感触很多，让我很感动。谢谢你今天陪伴泪流满面的我。谢谢你说不管今后发生什么事你都会挺我，随时随刻为我擦眼泪。
：）
不会管别人说什么， 问心无诡就好。
你自己失去的， 不要怪别人，因为是你自己没有把握。
我不想再为无谓的事情烦恼，我也不知为何我会为它们浪费时间。
凶悍的人请闪一边， 我真的没有力气听你们展示自己的语言天分。
佳慧，给自己的勇气加分吧， 世界还是很美丽的。
我只有一颗心，只能给一个人。
对不起。
妈妈的唠唠叨叨终于把winnie从床上敲醒，应该是十一点了吧。
呵呵，你也不可以怪我啊， 虽然我知道我蛮像猪的（ 据我所知， 其实猪也不是很懒），但是我已经很多天早上五点半就起来了叻！哈哈：D
其实如果大家留意的话，本周winnie得整体心情也不是很棒。可能是小人在作怪，但我都会尽量避免自己太被干扰，反正凡事对得起自己的良心和大家就好。当然还有要尽量做到最好啦！尽量吧。。。盟心自问我真的还没把事情都做好。最近似乎好健忘，忘记好多东西。。真该死。。：/
好啦。。。回到原点。这几天的通讯员迎新营还真不赖。哈哈，认识了许多凌鹰的新鹰， 还有老鹰们。当然这个迎新营和学警的有所不同，比较偏向于玩闹，学警的比较偏向于自律。这对我来说可是非同凡响的体验，毕竟呆在学警里已将近四年，学警的精神早已钻进脑袋啦。那种一进去就出不来，无可救药的地步。哈哈，总之学警与squadmate 们已经在心里生了根，拔不出来了。嘿呀，digressed 了，总之很久没有接触这种不是有人在旁骂人的营了。哈哈，形容得好吓人。。。
对了，早上起床后，下午2 点我又睡到5点喔！好厉害吧？好像头猪吧？而且我还是看书看到睡的喔。。。原来书由始至终对我的吸引力并没有想象中的大。哎呀，我好像又回到我疯狂的mode了。谢谢这几天慰问我的朋友，你们的关心让我又找回了冲劲。其实想起来，自己真得很渺小，而世界却好大。可能是新加坡很小，所以大家可能也跟着以为所有的事都停留在这里，在这里兜转，视野也跟着限制在这一小部分。如果觉得自己长大了，至少唯一能做的就是不要再让自己幼稚的想法来影响别人，影响自己吧。
对了，winnie is officially a staff sergeant now！ :D 好开心喔！我终于达成了自中一以来为自己在学警生涯里设下的目标。这种感觉无法形容。现在不会有遗憾了，至少我已经达成了自己的目标！接下来的SPF徽章还是个未知数，但我会抱着倘然的心态去看待成绩，当然希望会得到咯。
好了，还有堆积如山的功课正在等待着我（快被压死了）。
所以，先告辞了！
拜拜 ：）明天还要到报馆meeting, 希望会看到kok。。。friday 没有看到你！哈哈哈哈
还有，我爱squaddies!
haha
Made lots of friends, esp cousin of Jean and cousin of Stancy.
Cool, such a small world. :D
Yesterday drill was ...
.....
Nothing to say.
Not good.
But still hope I can pass it, my Staff sergeant, my last rank, my SPF.
Hopes nothing goes wrong.
Tomorrow will know results.
if I fail, squadmates please don't come near me or tell me. Thanks, not tha I will be there anyway.
bye
What kind of friend are you seriously.
You and your selfish and sucky attitude, the world doesn't revolve only around you.
You ROCK man.
凌鹰！:D
WinnTJH is back from ITC 2008 :D
at last ITC ended and glad that everything went smoothly according to plan, although there are still some hiccups here and there. Good job NCOs and especially camp coordinators Sijie and Weikai!
wanted to post about my past ITCs...
but then..
I think I shall wait till the time we ROD..
if not it will make me very sad to look back on all those good times..those people who made a difference in your life..
4 years isn't short, either is it long..
learnt many things.. thing that nowhere else can provide me with..
Nevermind..I just said I don't want to get all emotional because of this..don't know why I disgressed..
Well ,my march holiday is really all packed up..
honestly today is the only day that I'm free..
so I want to take this chance to write a long post..
Friday.
After school ended, erected flagstaff with flagstaff mates.
Opening parade. Long time since I last wear my full uniform and I miss it. IC for NCO squad, maybe something to remember about my last ITC. Took my sec twos, they were still okay, somehow I see hints of our squad's spirit in them, which I feel very 欣慰about..
The rest.. did night trail with hanqian.
He fell into the drain..hais..
take care..
Saturday.
second day of ITC.
Rope obstacles. A lot of people fell down, hope they are okay.
Can see that my squad enjoyed the trust/ thrust fall a lot. haha, kept hearing their laughter. Hope they are more bonded after this.
Girl guides campfire.
It was still okay. Except that some people came and treated this as their own campfire, don't know what they were doing at all,which pissed most of us off, feeling very offended. Other than this, others were still okay. Thank you girl guides for putting in so much effort in this campfire :)
Although some people may think that my sec 2s didn't dance as well as other UGs, but I still think their dance is cute. Good job! :D
At the end there was a band performance by Dexter, Yonghong, Gary and teck chai ( don't know how to spell)
Then I realised Yonghong can sing really well, quite sweetly too, surprise surprise . haha, teck chai's beat- boxing is cool too.. pro-ness..
as much as he congrated me for entering the EAGLES family, I want to congrate him for his achievement! Congrats for winning the award kok! Very proud of you, I believe the rest of us is too.
I will be taking my promotion for rank of Staff Sergeant in advance tomorrow, because I'm not free on Wed.
hope I will do well, hope all of us do well.
my last rank.
I don't want any regrets.
please jiayou winnie...
hope that it will be fun..
"ITS ITC 2008 TOMORROW! :D "
hmm..
tired today.. haha..
gonna have breakfast with mother and father before leaving for school tomorrow, must spend time with them, if not I will miss them a lot during ITC.
SS test today.
lol..shuhui and I sort of went lunatic before the test. We kept eating and eating.
I think I will become a pig soon.
4Loudspeakers is fun.
Fun people, cool people, fun topics, cool topics.
I realised that a lot people dotes on Jiang yan. Yunpeng and Jiang rui both sayanged him before leaving, lol..
and we gossiped together..hahaha
super funny..
pamela is cute :D
SS test was okay.
The time was tight, but I tried my best.
I was rushing like never before. My arm muscles were so tensed up at the last few minutes because I was chionging and writing so fast and hardly. It was trembling like mad.
but well, found out that my answer weren't the same as what the majority wrote..
hmm..nevermind ba..whats done is done..just wait for results.
hist test tmr!
jiayou
haha
got to go and prepare for my camp and hist test tmr..
good luck to all
see you again after itc!
hmm..photo of chiou and wiwi few weeks ago..
hahaha.. <3 chiou :D
but I love her old sec two, cute and kawaii and pretty hairstyle more
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nice.. I will always rememeber that hairstyle..
anyway..I think I still look the same..but chiou seems to look different..
Met Muweng on the way home, so we took 188 home together..
sad
sad
SAD
:(
No more Hillary Challenge for us.
Nevermind, we still have our one and only Hillary challenge last year. It rocks.
CLICK HERE to look at our H.C photos..hahahaha
We talked about some emo stuff too....
hais..
somethings..
when they really belong to the past..we must learn to let go and move on...
there are still many things worth our attention, hardwork, effort..
kan kai yi dian..
anyway..
just now got to know something..
I don't know to believe or not, don't know to be happy or sad.
whatever, I don't wish to care now.
tmr is ss test.
good luck to all
and tmr will be a very very very busy day for me and I have yet to fill up my SPF badge form..
zzz
and my barang barang! full uniform! history test!
meow
jiayou everyone!
I'm looking forward to UG CAMP!
wheeeeeeeeeewwww
:)
been such a long time since we talk and eat together after cca..
sweet..
talked about our childhood and realised that we all did stupid things before..
oh yea..
we made some decisions..
hmm..cannont disclose..
ITC is coming in 2 days..Friday..
I'm looking forward.. :D
but still need to study for tests that are before ITC..
and yea..my full uniform..very long since I last saw you..
I can finally interact with you again!
:))
got to go and sleep now..
reached home at 10 pm plus just now..
good luck everyone!
Never give up when the night is at its darkest because it is only a while till dawn.
I will probably lie.
Don't ask me if I love him.
The word love seems too big.
Don't ask me to define.
I probably don't know how to.
Don't ask me if it will last.
I will never invest in short-lived flames.
Don't ask me if this is right.
I will never do it unless I'm 100% sure it is worthy.
perhaps you got it all wrong.
maybe you don't really understand anything at all.
Campcraft comp in the morning.
We went to hometeam academy full of morale and confidence. well, we had our best timing in the morning, very prepared to at least complete everything within time limit..
BUT
it rained and poured like mad, according to mam yini the pitch was like a swimming pool..lol
and it was postphoned!
:(((
to this coming saturday, which is the second day of my last UG camp..
some schools cheered..I guessed they are not prepared enough yet. I felt exactly like this -------> =.=
well, no choice we just have to leave the best for this coming Saturday! :D
Went home after eating with sqdmates at cck.
hmm..
and went for the interview.
reached there and soon it was my turn.
it went smoothly I guessed, just answered what they asked me.
haha
came back and zzzzzzzz...tired..
and I just received a call from the news centre that I'm officially in for tong xun yuan!
wow..I'm over the moon now..
haha..one of the 90 people..I think?
yay.. :)
hmm..
today is really a joyous day.
Must thank my daddy for making the effort to wake up on his own accord to have breakfast with me, driving me to school and also to toa payoh news centre in the afternoon. Although in the end we din have the cc comp, your moral support counts and I know that you are always there for me no matter what. I love you papa. :D
hahaha..
and also munweng and junwen!
lol..for all your encouragement this morning...
I finally gave junwen his birthday present..sorry leap day boy..:D
mun weng's gingerbread man is cute! Starry eyes..
sometimes I am really glad that I took part in hillary challenge 07 to acquaint such great friends.
not forgeting cc boys team and squadmates and some juniors to come and support us. :)
and also the boys' team "history source" .. lol
last of all, my dear wendyyy..
my sister rocks man
although since young nobody ever said that we look alike and lilin just repeated that fact just now..
thanks for always being there for me, as a younger sis, or even an elder sis sometimes when I become very stupid and childish in my actions.
come to think of it..
Family is really important.
seriously I don't really like it when people speak ill of their parents or claim that they don't feel like going home after a whole day out..
it only shows how much you care for your family.
I know at this age, things like playing and late nights are unavoidable, but at least don't make it so often and try to go home if you can, I'm sure your parents are waiting for you at home.
and I really despise people who spend money like there is no tomorrow, especially on things that are not neccesary.
I know your parents are rich and you are their son or daughter. But still you are using their money and the money that they earned, not yours. So what if you bought all the branded stuff and start showing off to everybody. It doesn't reflect very well on you. Afterall they don't come with your hardwork and there is nothing to be proud of being a materialistic boy or girl.
all in all..
I'm really happy today because I got into tong xun yuan..
although there are still some unhappiness/ things that I've yet to understand..
but I will just let happiness overule today..
the rest..
we will see..