I am...
zzz..
spent my day watching dramas with my sister..
haha
Read 7 books in this week.. an accomplishment? haha
:DD
Campcraft comp training tomorrow again, 8am.
My Saturday is a turn-off. My family is not going to be at home due to some reasons and I had to stay at home by myself... :(
it was quite fun and after some things sqdmates and sirs and mams said, I guess I'm staying in the team?
Rope burns all over our hands now, blisters too..painful:(
but its okay..
Today read The Last Empress again..read until I slept..lol
Found a lot of photes with sqdmates, but lazy to post...
Goodnight folks.. :)
winnie, estrella, ethel
nice pic, look at my dao face..haha
estrella said that I was laughing behind at god knows what. LOL
theresa is out of sight :/
Had been losing sleep these few days..
I can only sleep at 2am plus..nothing before that..I don't know why..
so these few days had been stoning in front of the computer from midnight until 2am before I finally force myself to go to bed..and stone on bed for god knows how long again.. not even sure if 2am plus was indeed the time that I sleep now...
borrowed a lot of books yesterday..
they are suppose to help me keep my holidays occupied fruitfully.. just started on The Last Empress.. nice book..sequel for Empress Orchid..
Originally thought my following days of holidays would be quite free and all, some time to read my books quietly, enjoy some days of peace at home or something..
but its only just now that I'm notified that I'm choosen to be a member of the Campcraft comp 2008 and training starts tmr at 8am sharp. I guess my plans are gone? hais, not pissed or whatever, I want to help and do a part for rvnp, just kinda disappointed that I cant read my books revisons and all..
but its okay la, think i just take it as another thing to experience and learn new things..just like all my other parades and competition..
just hope that my shooting comp wun b affected.. :)
yesterday was grandma's birthday, went her house to celebrate..
durian cake again..:( I don't like, still prefers chocolate cakes.. :D
haha, glad that everyone was there, very fun and everything..
learnt some weird and hilarious cheers from ethel..laughed until I almost died.
anyway, happy bday granny!!! I know you dotes on me the most :DD love you!
Today went JE to watch enchanted with squaddies..
actually yiling is going, but last minute she gotto go and get her phone so nv go..
but nvm!
today there were sharm, yue, chiou. clarine and me
haha, we were v late..cuz waiting for chiou and clarine after their study period in the library..
lol and buying of waffles, hotdogs, drinks and stuff..
by the time we went in, the movie already started..
yueting didn't really know the story, so she was like stunned when she saw it and asked me carefully: " winnie enchanted shi cartoon lai de ah?"
so cute.
after a hard time differenciating chiou's and my waffle, yueting confirmed to me that the one on my left hand was chiou's..
then was handling chiou her waffle..butter chicken floss..
after taking one bite..
chiou asked me.. " how come you ordered butter/cheese/ ( forget liao) for me? "
Winnie: "*stunned*"
it turned out I gave her my choc one, also duno why she said it was butter..
The movie was nice..the kind of fantasy movie that I like..haha :)
I've been dreaming of the true love's kiss
After that went to IMM
on the way met pear and we created quite a scene in the middle of the road because of yue's fishy hand :P
yada, yada, yada
went IMM, look around, looked at toys and softtoys.. feel like bringing home one of the big poohs
then we made sharm wear the poor costume..v cute..hehe
after that I left because I promised my mother to be home early to have dinner together.
12.29am now.
I should wake up at 5.30am to get ready for cc comp trg..
but cant sleep now..
tonight is a beautiful night, though not much stars..
I enjoy the serenity..if only I had time to finish up my books..
I'm missing you tonight...
Morning woke up nothing better to do, played audition with sis and watch One litres of tears...
I'm noob in audition, aiya, nvm la..lol
After that hanqian asked to meet earlier at 2 before air pistol to play Laser quest, so okay lo, since cdans is like so near to my house, called min to join also.
Reached there, saw guofeng and hanqian sitting at squash court and then guofeng started pestering me with this man called swee hon who clinched the top position for national shooting competition, featured on the Home Team NS magazine. It turned out to be my Coach Nigel for .22 revolver competition! haha, super proud of him, still remember him asking us to take note of side alignment every training :)
Then Qinhui came, duno why, lol. Went to bowling alley to play bowl, after several failed attempts to ask them to eat chicken chop with me. zzz. Play and play and play, finally min came. By then time for shoot liao, so went for shoot.
Todays shoot was okay. Just okay, I suppose I deproved a lot, but luckily my grouping is more or less still there, just a bit scartered and not on the bullseye. Lol, qinhui kept making weird expressions during the shoot, hanqian and weikai also kept producing weird giggles and jokes, distracted me. Min ee was the most calm, finished her shoot first and it was not bad.
After that guofeng, qinhui, hanqian, weikai, min and I went back to bowling alley. They played bowl again...
Chiou girls joined us later when they finished their shoot. Oh god, then the accident happened. Sorry for injuring your face, i didn't mean it!
haha, later the boys went home and the girls finally went to eat chicken chop.
Talked about a lot of things. Lol, chiou showed me a video about a girl who swam very slow until a old man catch up with her. Aiya, I don't know how to describe, its just funny! lol
yada yada yada
Tomorrow going to Je to help Chiou revise for retest and sui bian help Shuhui donate for flag day. haha. Jiayou people going for retest! You all can do it!
:DDDDD
All the best!
Give me my Romeo; and, when I shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night...
theory paper..general knowledge, campcraft, civil defence.
I guess my civil defence and general knowledge paper...hais...
I studied till the morning yesterday...
Very tired now..
Wanna thank sqdmates and friends who kept encouraging me yesterday..whether I get promoted or not..I still appreciate ur encouragements la..because they really boost my morale up..haha..:D
oh well..
my holidays are finally here..
but seems kinda empty...
nothing much today..tried my best....
I hope my sec 2s did well for their campcraft test...
TOMORROW is the last day of promotion..
JIAYOU ONCE AGAIN
anyway thanks jackie and wilfred for encouraging me yesterday
gary for your encouraging sms
and chee chee for your encouraging sms too
haha
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and wilfred cheer up! don't be too sad for the match le..sad a while is enough.. :D
tmr going air pistol with sec 2s :)
zzz
thursday going out with cheechee, wil and who?
lol
havn ask yet..hope promo faster go away!
bye
I shall go and revise
:D
PROMOTION!
seriously I am very nervous..
finished prapring my uniform already..
revising the commands now..
I hope nothing will go wrong...
WINNIE JIAYOU!!!
SQDMATES JIAYOU!!!
*breathe in breathe out*
okay..
anw..thanks people who gave me encouragement ah..they really help..
thanks chee hooi, shu hui, yonghong, gary, xiaojun, mummy, wendy, wilfred, yiling, guofeng, daddy, erwina, yueting, sharmie...etc..
and sqdmates!
whether directly or indirectly..
I will do my best tomorrow I swear.
okay, I'm less tense now.. :D
每当我需要依靠你 你就在这里
Together as in 8 of them raising their arms and pointed to something and we saw wht they are pointing at, its a shop with a big signboard of "I LOVE YOU!"
Went for act today, didn't take my sec 2s today because the sec 1 ics took them to gain experience, so we went to join squadmates for PT! today was fun man.. did Pt, cc and drill. Maybe because I havn really slept well yesterday, then today actually felt very giddy during pt.. sorry sqdmates..I fall out for a short while cuz I really cant see anything at that moment. On the way down the stairs to drink water, heard sqdmates shouting at their top of their lungs.. I just feel so proud of them.. because I sensed the aura of "sey-ness"from my squadmates, so I went back to join them after that. Today Pt was really fun and enjoyable!
After that was campcraft. We were supposed to pitch 2 tents, a flagpole, gadget and basha. So i went to help with the tent. haha, the twines kept breaking! arggg..and the girls' tent was slanted! lol..pegged wrongly. anyway, sir eric touched on survival skills before all these. He taught us how to kill chickens and wild boas.. lol..interesting yea..I remember hearing my sec 1 I.C Mam Liping telling us this 2 years ago too.. Hais.. how fast time has past..
Drill was okay. Fruitful, cleared many of my doubts in many areas, thank you Sir Eric and squadmates who helped to answer my questions. :D Haha and I finally memorised the series of sizing commands! yayyyy! lol, actually I used my five fingers to help me.. I tried my best for drill today and I hope I will be able to maintain this standard for drill next week because I think my standard is still okay, but can be better. I enjoyed drill the most today. Did baton drills, rifle drills, slow march, MOI and of course WOC. My slow march is better now.. :) i think? haha.. WOC and MOI was fun, because squadmates are very cute.
Then its cheer session! haha, squadmates are high today! :D cheer until very happy. siao alrd. Started teasing the ATC cheers and learnt some new cheers. All in all, I didn't waste my time going for act today, just tired.
After act went to JE is buy cake for mummy. Thanks sijie, min ee, adna and squadmates who went with me, sorry I didn't stayed to eat because have to rush home to celebrate mum's birthday. thanks adna who0 chose the birthday card with me. Lol, Adna commented that I looked like a Santa claus because I was carrying my uniform, shoe bag, cake and a huge bag. haha, yea I thought too.
HAPPY! because in the end my father came and drove me home together with him to celebrate although he said he cant be home early in the morn. yup, hha, mummy is happy because daddy loves her. Winnie and Wendy love you too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY :DDD
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aww..i'm so sunburnt..squadmates keep saying that i'm 烧pooh ( roasted pooh ) or lobster. hais..what to do..my skin hurts leh..the sun loves me so much..all these years in np..i'm always the one with the most sunburns..but my skin just nv gets dark..jus keep getting sunburns..argggh!
angry..but what can i do?
lol.. I knew it was a mistake to not bring my SPF 50 today :(
anyway tomorrow goingto school to revise and prac drill with squadmates at 9!
promotion starts in 2 more days!
jiayou! i'm worried..aww..sergeant..
suddenly feel like posting this picture, although I posted before..
lol
Did not have the time to sleep later than 6.00am everyday since holidays started, well other than sat and sun of course. Anyway, had first aid course for the past 3 days, think I passed it? lol. haha, today slept until 1o am plus before being woke up by gary's sms. haha, but nvm. Actually was feeling rather sianned because I thought I would not go out today since chee hooi didnt reply me so I went to watch "one litres of tears" on Crunchyrolls. THEN. Cheehooi smsed me so we went out. HAHAHA.
We took like so looooonnnnnngggggg to get dressed up and deciding the time and place.. and we went to west mall. She took our friendly little 187 to westmall and we ran up to eng hwa because we were late for the 350pm movie. Lol. When we went in the movie already started but I guessed we didnt miss out much. Alrights we watched the game plan. It was okay, though a lot people said that it was nice, but I think the little girl is a bit overly act-cute, which irks me. lol, the dad is a hunk la. It was quite funny and touchy at some point of time. Chee hooi kept giving out loud cracks in the middle of the movie, lol, very funny.
After the movie went to do homework in the library, glad to finish 2 of them. HAPPY! Later went shop shop a while then I took our friendly little 187 home.
Tomorrow is my mum's birthday. Shes been so ill for these couple of days, I hope she will recover soon, very worried about her everyday.
Tomorrow there is np, hope they will concentrate more on our promotions things instead of doing pt because promotion is just next week. argh..honestly I'm very worried. haha, jiayou ba..
nights
:)
On the verge of crying, but don't know whether it is worth it or not..
Talked with min ee after first aid today.. we talked about a lot of things, friends, family and np... It really revealed a lot of my inner thoughts, those that I have been thinking about since the beginning of the year. Honestly I thought nobody would ever know that I had been thinking about all these because I don't intend to tell anyone...but now I realised that this feeling is just so intense that it is occupying my mind almost every moment..
I tried to convinced myself that this is not true and all these are just my imaginations, but looking at my surroundings I know that I'm deceiving myself. I no longer feel my passion burning. I don't know whether to believe those people whom I had once and still trust and love so much... many things just appear so awkwardly superficial now...
Depressed, empty, hollow, perhaps nobody understands.. because they are all obsessed in their own world..all these feelings came chasing after me again after today.. I feel quite sorry for myself..
I don't know why I spent so many months thinking about all these, because its just so pointless...
Nobody cares..
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗 忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我 快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗 忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
不要坚持了，我们也许不属于同一个世界
nth to do now, cant slp, so did some quizzes..lol
Quiz #1.
1. Do you ever lie about your age?
yea
2 . Do you prefer "sensitive boys"or "tough guys"?
sensitive :)
3. Do you prefer blonde or dark hairedguys?
dark..
4 . Are you currently single?
yea
5 . How many things in your past do you regret?
a lot..
6 . Do you have a best friend?
yea
7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I don't know, or rather, havn really sure if I made the right choice
8. Who was the last person you hugged?
mum
9. Have you ever had your heart broken?
a million pieces
10. Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?
yea
11. Do you like your life?
not really, but still okay.
12. Do you shop at Hollister?
nope
13 . Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
no..lol..don't care
14 . Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
yes, sad..two faced :(
16. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
girls
17. How long have you had friendster?
not sure, since p6 ba
18. Have you ever cheated someone?
cheated of what? think quite unlikely, since I can recall nth..
19. Has anyone ever cheated you?
Yes..
20. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
No la..
22. Have you ever skipped class?
yes..once only..haha..still bad..
23. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
yea.. :(
24. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
many nights.. :'(
25. Have you ever been unable to get someone out of your head?
yes..
26. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?
no la...must give others a chance..
27. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
yes..always have this good feeling.. yayy
28. Do you ever wish you were famous?
haha..perhaps..
29. Do u ever wish u were a man?
no..because i'm totally a female inside out
Quiz #2.
1. A random guy/girl comes up to you and says 'hey babe?' you say?
walk away
2. What was the last thing youput in your mouth?
yakult
3 . What does your last text message say?
yea good nite..lol..that show is not bad..sweet dreams <3
4. The last song you listened to?
timbaland- apologize
5. What's irritating you this very moment?
tmr need to wake up early for course. :(
6. Where is the rest of your family right now?
all of them are sleeping..
7. What did you do yesterday?
stayed at home. msn whole day i guess
8. Pick a scar on your body, how'd you get it?
right hand, heart shaped scar. got it from my mum accidently when i was 9. lol..everyone ask me abt it when they see it..
. What do you want to do when you get out of high school/college?
university, or perhaps will join some clubs that i wanted to join v long ago
14 . Who's your most religious friend?
duno le
16. If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
no idea.. i like my name winnie tan jia hui. winntjh :)
17. Do you tan easily?
no, but i do get sunburns real easily. they are my good friends throughout my np years..haha
18. What do you hate most about your school?
homeworks. projects. those that everyone hates but still needs them to help ourselves la.
19 . On your bed, what's your favorite thing?
blanket, grandma gave it to me..haha
20. Last time you took a plane where was it to?
mt k lo..with sqddies
23. What's the first thing you would do with five million bucks?
give them to my parents, mayb keep a lil for myself to buy a v nice necklace
24 . Next thing you'll spend money on?
den put in bank, aft buying the necklace. lol
25. What's one toy you remember having in the 90's?
i got lots of toys.mini bball. but no barbie dolls. lol..
26. If you had a son what would you name him?
I want a son and a daughter. maybe will name him jayden. sounds nice
27 . Which of your friends do you argue with most?
dun really argue with people unless they bully my friends
28. What's your dream job?
duno yet
37 . If you could have any car what would it be?
not sure of the namee, but it is black..lol
38 . What's your favorite breakfast?
porridge my mum cook
39 . How do you like your eggs?
scrambled
40 . If you could get any piercing what would it be?
huh? what would it be? lol. I wanted 2 pairs. but apparantly I cant.
4 1. How about a tattoo?
a tribal rose image where the stem and thorns have been replaced with barb wire at the lower back. But thats impossible because I don't like tatoos.
43. What's a movie you want to see in the theatres?
Enchanted!
45. What's the last four numbers of your phone number?
6361
46. How many hours did you sleep for last night?
slp at 2am to 11.11am
48. What TV show do you wish you could live in?
eh..duno la..
49. What video game do you play most often?
dont play
50. What are you wearing right now?
shirt and shorts lo
Quiz #3.
7 YEARS AGO.
1) How old were you?
8yrs old
2) How did you go to school?
walk, nv near
3) Where did you work?
i will be rich now if i work then
4) Where did you live?
my hse
5 )Where did you hang out?
nowhere, go home everyday and go for 2 tuitions after school without fail.
6) Did you wear glasses?
nope, only wore them when i was p4
7) Who was your friend(s)?
Jiayu,erwina, yuxuan, peiru, miemie, isyak, lol..a lot more.
8) How many piercings did you have?
have none then, p2 only ma..
9) What car did you drive?
cant drive la, i can only watch my dad drive..haha
10) Had you been to a real party?
yea
12) Had your heart broken?
not really..p2 only know cared about homeworks and colorings. :D
13) Single/Taken/Married /Divorced?
single la
2 YEARS AGO.
1) How old were you?
13
2 ) How do you go to school?
train
3) Where did you work?
also nv work..haha
4 ) Where did you live?
here lo, same
5) Where did you hang out?
JEC, west mall, lot 1
6) Did you wear glasses?
yea..
7) Who were your friends?
stella, 2b people, sqdmates.
8) Who was your crush?
lol..why sld i tell u
9) How many tattoos did you have?
none
10) How many piercings did you have?
2, not 2 pairs tho
11) What car did you drive?
still watching my dad drive
12) Had your heart broken?
not yet
13) Single/Taken/Married /Divorced?
half-half
NOW!
1. How old are you?
Fifteen.
2 ) Where do you work?
not yet
3 ) Where do you live?
still here
4) Do you wear glasses??
yea
5) Who are your friends?
still same
6) Do you talk to your old friends?
yea of cus. people like erwina, shannon rey and jiayu <3
7) How many piercings do you have?
2
8 ) How many tattoos?
none
9) What kind of car do you drive?
still watching my dad drive
10) Has your heart been broken?
yea, but no more now
11 ) Single/Taken/Married /Divorced?
single
12) How do you go to school?
train and bus
13 ) Where do you hang out?
jec, causeway point, orchard, westmall and a lot of libraries
thats it lo, quite tired now. maybe i will go and sleep now.
first aid course tmr! but in actual fact i really don't feel like going.
I don't feel like talking verbally. I feel very tired talking to people, rather remain quiet.
Don't know why either, just cant bring myself to be talkative.
been playing the same song the whole day, don't why either. my whole world had denied me.
I realised that it is really hard to make a decision sometimes..
I really don't know what I want either..
sorry..
I really don't know..
I really don't.
I saw your heart and its mine
Yesterday didn't slept well, head was pounding the whole day :(
Amazing race finally ended. I took hong kah sec sch instead. Nothing to say, just that sometimes when everyone is working hard, don't just give up halfway for no reason and pull the whole team down. That is just selfish. Congrats to new town team 1 for winning tho.
This morn was almost late, caused forget is 5am woke up, then when clock rang at 5.27am I was still " aiya, still have 33 more mins. " LOL, thats before I woke up with a jerk. Arrived at school 6.32am, then saw hanqian pacing everywhere around np room, lol, so it turn out he was the first to arrive. haha, today very touched la, by the overall attitude of the boys, they put in a lot efforts and care to help. :)) good sqdmates! then later qinhui, hanqian and me went into the tunnel to check if the clues there still there. WA, actually was a bit scared, cuz very dark inside, then i walked in the middle of them. SIAN, hanqian keep tapping me then say that it was not him, scared him. But I knew it was him la, see his face so twisted. HAHA. Then later, qinhui and I checked again because guofeng said that there should be 10 clues instead 0f 9, lol, hanqian duno go where. Anw, see my sec 2 squad wear the masks and hats very cute la. yea, so after some briefings here and there, it started lo. Took hong kah sec with junyi. They did okay la, but can see they are quite demoralised at some points of times, so we actually dropped many hints. One guy accidently hit the low ceilings in the tunnel. poor thing, rubbed his head like mad still tell me he is okay. 1 girl sprained her ankle, then cant run fast, ke lian. yea, they emerged 7th.
thanks sqdmates for making this happened. Thank you yiling and peiwen, for planning majority of this whole amazing race 2007. It is thoroughly an amazing amazing race. Rocks like hell. even the CIs said so. There may be flaws, but I know our whole squad worked hard together, so what, there is no doubt flaws in everything. What is important is to learn from mistakes and don't let them happen again. Another event in which our squad had worked hard together, very touched, although I don't really express my emotions or feelings as openly as some of you all most of the time, but I just wanna tell you all that I'm so proud of RVNP, the sec threes, my sec twos, and most importantly my squadmates. I'm sure we can make the incoming campcraft comp and itc 200 an amazing and unforgetable event too..JIAYOU EXTREMISTS :))))
Actually I decided to take part in the campcraft comp very long ago, maybe since I watched the last campcraft comp. But I didn't raised my hand when they asked for people last tues. Don't know why, or maybe I know. My G.P.A just shot passed my head, then I know I wun have the time to devote myself thoroughly in this comp, becuz I planned to use dec to prepare for my year 4, don't wanna take up the chance of others who have more ability to commit. yea, initially I felt very regretful to not raise my hand and thought about it for many days. But gary told me ytd that when a chance go, another one will come. yea, life is like that, actually there is no point regreting because nothing could be changed, I guess what is best is to look forward and devote or contribute to np in other areas where I can manage better. anyway thanks gary. haha
LOL, lame. suddenly remembered what he told me about my dp ytd. hahahahahahahahah.
clarine kept telling me that she miss the brocolis that my mum cooked. think she must come my hse come often liao. :DD
hais, my headache was so painful that I don't really talk much the whole day, except those neccesary ones. sorry if I offend anyone with my black face, because my head is really pounding. :(((
guess I wun sleep tonight ba, after all I just woke up :D
有些事情心里知道就好了
supposed to be a joyous day, but I stayed at home reading other than visiting my grandparents just now.
hais, kinda sad now, cuz xiao jun told me that he is migrating nx year. :(
1 more friend leaving. :(((
I know 天下无不散之宴席。。
but still depressed.. :(((
Physics almost died, feel very frustrated, sleepy, bored listening to the lecturer. But lucky I still listened and absorbed the refractive index stuff. Yea, its totally boring, miss mr suria. :(
Later on went for chemistry. Actually I find Mr Chan very interesting and quite a good teacher, just that he is quite fierce and strict in the discipline part. But its good to have some principles, more character. LOL. Math is mad. Joking, actually its still okay.
Just now clarine came my house and played badminton with erwina. Lol, actually she played quite well, just cant hit a lot of times. hahaha. Anyway half way two little boys joined us, crap, they are so much more pro den us. Feel very embarrass. They giggled when we missed a shot, yea but they still nice, never laugh openly. ! of them is more shy, lol, his even younger bro came ans start holding the racket like a sword and send all my hits in all directions, haha, very cute. :D
Then clarine came to my house andwe watch "gong zhu xiao mei" together! haha. yea, when home jus now, no choice, cuz she lives at pasir ris, too far le.
YAYYYY
tomorrow is DEEPAVALI! HOLIDAY! EEEYYEP!
damn happy to have a holiday. Gonna visit my grandmother le. :D
bye
flashing repeatedly in my mind <3
I'm really very tired.
Totally no strength to do anything
I loathe going to school everyday. Yea I knows its for my own good, but I just don't like the feeling of waking up every morning. aiya, who likes?
Everyday seems so long yea, time passing like snail.. SNAIL...snail is like damn slowwwww..wa...dying..everyday eyeing the clock..waiting for time to pass..
Today heard what the CIs said, den got me thinking, but han qian keep mumbling the " I'm angry! " nick that I put on msn ytd to me. Lol, shall not elaborate on the angry part, cuz I might just be angered again.
Tmr squadies gonna start preparing for the Amazing race on friday, so gotta stay back to help out tmr. Lol, then i just noe today that I'm supposed to be the group ic for bukit panjang high school. haha. Anyway clarine gonna come my house to play bad tmr. Not that she noes how to play, but just teach her lo, erwina joining also.
haha, then maybe after that going erwina's school nanyang girls to watch performance. Quite exicted actually
hais, i'm sorry. Today just feel very vexed k. I just hope the extra lessons will end soon
bye
yea I know I havn been around for such a long time..
and thats because my computers down and it took ages for it to be fixed. Caused me loads of problems though, cause a lot of my homeworks and stuff need to be done in the school library. I think it had been at least 2 months plus already? I feel so deprived and sad honestly. I spent most of the time sleeping, reading. watching tv and eating. No life. But its okay, cause it is all over.
A lot of things happened. Haha, I realised I alway say this after I disappeared for a long period of time. EOYs is over, shall not elaborated on that. Just glad that I got my GPA over 2.0, yea I shall work harder for next year. One shouldn't give up so easily.
Actually I came to blog because I got a lot of things to say, but some how all the words just stucked at my throat now. Time passed really fast. In an blink of an eye, one year has passed. I didn't even manage to slow down and look at everything that are ongoing. After this year, many things gonna change. Last year I was afraid of the changes when I left 2B and went to 3L. but laer I learnt that changes are unavoidable in our lives, yea so we must learn to adapt. yea, maybe we will learn to grow stronger. But I'm still upset, maybe nx year I'm not going to experience wad I experienced this year. I must say that this year had been a very fulfilling year. I mean not in academic ascept, yea maybe something else. I don't know how to express it, but I just know that I'm going to leave year 2007 as a stronger person, mentally and physically. yea, but not perfect of cuz, just better.
Sec four graduation. I cannot deny that I'm upset by it, I think most of the sec 3 are? i think this batch of sec 4 are our seniors in sec 2 when we entered RV in sec 1, so they are kind of the batch of people whom we see more often than the rest. I see my np seniors being my sec 2 seniors in 2005, then incoming sec 3 squad in 2006, nco squad 2007 and now we had took over from them. I think the feeling of us being the eldest nx year is weird, for now, maybe nx year I wun feel this way anymore. Then I will see not see junkai and xiao jun in school anymore. Nobody will go sch with me anymore. Nobody will let me sit the inner seat beside the window in the morn anymore. No more saying goodbye below his classroom anymore. After doing this for so long, the road from the bus stop to school after their graduation seems so weird and lonely without jk walking beside me and me talking crap to him. But I think it will get better ba, hope they will score well for their o levels.
Went for ATC some weeks ago. ATC means adventure training camp. I went for it last year too and shamefully I cried when I went into the pitch dark tunnel. This year's ATC is much better, because RVNP host it! But that's only part of the reasons. A team is really important. I'm so glad that my group consist of good people! lol, they are friendly and willing to help, much better than last year and made my ATC 2007 very enjoyable. It's not very tough, just tired. Our camp fire skit wasn't really a success, but yea I enjoyed the campfire very well. Got to know this girl from kent ridge, jesslyn and surpiringly we hit off really well. Lol, she wore our rv pe short too cuz her brother is in rv. Haha, four girls in the groups really made my atc so cheerful and fun doing everything together. The guys are nice too. Some sweet moments to remember. I was very touched cuz on day 2 we are given 1 hour plus for dinner and shower. So yea feeling very dirty and all, jessyln and me went to shower first and went back to the dinner area and started searching for instant noodles to cook. Then kelvin and bryan suddenly say " 你们的面在这里。" then we were like "huh?" cause we didn't see any instant noodles lying anywhere. It turn out that they cooked for us already because they say they are scared that we have no time to cook and have nothing to eat. Waa, actually I'm very touched by them la, haha, see bryan baked the already baked beans and it became a paste, I want to laugh. Maybe will see them on the coming friday becuz of our amzing race. haha. kelvin definitely since he is the leader. Yea, have fun crapping with jessyln about ubin water, cuz they taste salty. Building a raft with them and rolling it out to the sea! Haha, I didn't go to ATC in vain! :D
My sergearnt promotion is coming, is quite exciting yet scary at the same time. I hope i can pass la, I don't want to wait for another year or months. Working hard already, tried to find time to revise my knots and lashings, lamps, tents, flagpoles, topography, bandages, civil defence's theory part, campcraft theory part and of cuz practise for my WOC, drills and all. Jiayou squadmates! we can do it! My sec 2 squad also must work hard for their lance corporal! I believe you guys can do it! because bangbang squad only have the best out of everything! jiayou jiayou!
Went to watch stardust with chee hooi and ayesha after school on friday. Very nice show, i love fantasy! But I think its really touching and all, a good show to recommend. Oh yea chee hooi is the fallen star, I'm the fallen moon. :D Celestial love. Are we humans because we gaze at the stars or do we gaze at the stars because we are humans.
Today went back to school for the amazing trial. Overall still ok, had fun with squadmate over the walkie talkie. Went to eat later, very tired and slept on the trip to je. Haha, received sec 2 sqd sqd tee, very sweet of them :) the design of the tee quite nice also, haha.
lol
talking to kamseng now. wwaa..1.30 already.. zzz..yea i go play sudoku with him liao..since he nice enough to come online to play with me..haha
bye!
