On the verge of crying, but don't know whether it is worth it or not..


Talked with min ee after first aid today.. we talked about a lot of things, friends, family and np... It really revealed a lot of my inner thoughts, those that I have been thinking about since the beginning of the year. Honestly I thought nobody would ever know that I had been thinking about all these because I don't intend to tell anyone...but now I realised that this feeling is just so intense that it is occupying my mind almost every moment..


I tried to convinced myself that this is not true and all these are just my imaginations, but looking at my surroundings I know that I'm deceiving myself. I no longer feel my passion burning. I don't know whether to believe those people whom I had once and still trust and love so much... many things just appear so awkwardly superficial now...


Depressed, empty, hollow, perhaps nobody understands.. because they are all obsessed in their own world..all these feelings came chasing after me again after today.. I feel quite sorry for myself..

I don't know why I spent so many months thinking about all these, because its just so pointless...


Nobody cares..