I am...
Saturday, October 04, 2008Y
11:10 am
Its 2:10am now and I can't fall asleep..so I came to do a bit of blogging..
hmm..
hii.. :)
I'm fine so far, how bout you?
okay I sound dumb, but..aiks..pardon me..my brain is dying from t massive storage of chemistry..
anyway..
I have a problem bothering me recently..
there is this thing which I really want to tell a good friend of mine..
Its nothing wrong..in fact its something to be happy about..
but I really don't know how to say it..
ahh..dilemma..
hai..please..do not ask me what it is..I just wanna briefly mention it here to kinda..relieve myself..? just..don't ask..thanks..i will appreciate that..
sometimes..I do reflect on..
the decisions that I have made..are they always right?
I don't know..maybe I do know some of the answers..
my life is alright now..but I guess there are still lots of loopholes..little hiccups..some friends lost along t way..some memories lost..some people disappearing..
yes i do have regrets..
that some things do not turn out the way i want them to be..
some of my friends did not stay like how they promised to..
some betrayals..some little misunderstandings..and my diminished love..
I don't know..I'm just depressed that I am no longer as close with some friends whom I was so close with in the past..:(
even for my friends now..will we still laugh and joke around like how we do now ten years later?
I don't know..sorry but I'm a pessimist..
I guess we just have to value what we have now?
just wanna say sorry to any friends whom i have hurt unintentionally before..just wanna tell you that even if we don't talk to each other anymore..no longer there for each other anymore..or even if you've forgotten me..you will still be my friend forever.. :)
argh..
enough about t sad things..
claire is back in singapore from aussie..!
I was so happy when i saw her..although I didn't recognise her straight away with her dyed hair and..increased body size..? oops..but I saw her fair skin..and right away i knew..
saw her bag on my table..and that confirmed my suspicion..
I was so elated that i cried..because I missed her so much recently and she appeared in front of me out of t blue..
really love you girl..ah..all the things from last year came back..
how we spent our afternoons..how we failed math tests tgt..our damn attitude..all t fun..
running with you somehow gave me even more strength to run faster and break my own record..
ahh..altho u can't run as fast now..i will always rmb our runs last time..
oh yea..you little red lifeguard still with me..it accompanied me thru my hillary challenge last year..haha..
ah..its a pity its exams period..if not we can spend more time with you..
aww..miss you..:( come back always bestieeee
I love you shuhui, lilin, qinyu, claire, cheehooi, peggy, siyao, pamela, ayesha, debbie, dodo, jean..etc..and all my other friends..you know who you are..
ah..I don't want 4L to part, I don't want my squadmates to part..I don't want anyone to leave mee..:(((
sorry..now you see my emotional side.
goodnight
its 2.47am now..boo :(
(fixed with love <3)
