I am...
Friday, March 06, 2009Y
5:12 am
Life has been alright and I got back my results for my first few tests of 2009.They are just so-so, definitely not good enough and not up to my expectations. Well, I read the straits time today and there is this special part of it devoted to scholarships. I guess its because today is the day that the A-levels results are going to be released. So I was reading every scholarships available on the newspapers very seriously and asking myself many questions.
In what scope of skills should I pursue for my job in future? What am I good at? Even if I'm interested, will I be eligible for them? Have I worked hard enough?
The answer is well..definitely obvious and a straight no. Actually I have been quite cross with myself because I have been doing all these reflections so very often and yet I can't seem to make myself do what I want to do. Aiks, sorry I have my flaws. But I guess I really have to stop all this and work hard because I'm really worried for A-levels. I don't want to make life hard for my parents nor trouble them in anyway because of my poor management and discipline.
So yea, I'm currently in the process of upgrading my lifestyle. I've already stopped sleeping at late hours of 12 or 1pm due to the influence of palmer, so I practically sleep at 10pm or latest 11.30pm everyday. Well, I think thats a great improvement on my part, at least I have prevented myself from being grumpy in the morning every morning. Kekeke.. :P
What else.. Oh yea, I've also reduced my usage of the internet and have been doing my tutorials and work regularly. I feel much better spiritually now, there is a lot of meaning in my life now, hoho. I will work harder!
and I have been rather sickly for the first few months too. Had a stomach flu few days ago and my stomach almost rotted because it was hurting so so so much then. Its like having cramps in my stomach every minute, you can't imagine how bad it was, was almost admitted into the hospital. Didn't go to school for a few days because I had no strength from all the vomits and etc. Feeling warm and fuzzy for that few days though because of the care and concern that my family and friends had given me. Thanks P for coming at night to bring me to the doctor too, I'm really touched. :)
All this is a belated post for someone. Happy sixth month palmer. I had a very wonderful half a year with you. Thanks for all the love, despite my bad temper, I'm really touched by your tolerance for my moodswings. I feel like a princess in front of you and to me you are someone who I can depend on in times of crisis and someone that I can confide in. I feel really happy and comfortable when I'm with you and I hope you feel the same way. I know that life is unpredictable and there is no definite answer to any relationship. But after such a long period togehter, I've found my own answer to our relationship. I don't want to say anything mushy and I just want you to know that I appreciate you alot and I will treasure you wholeheartedly, even more. I hope we can forget the time and stay on like this together happily ever after :)
Baby I love you, thanks for the couple tee and sweets..<3
