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Tuesday, June 16, 2009Y
7:34 am
Hello!There're piles of things for me to do and I've already listed them out but holidays are really boring and I can't help posting something here because it looked so dead!
Haha and its obvious that I would only post when I feel that life's going unsmoothingly right. Rawr so I think you can guess my mood now. :P
Okay it's not very bad either and I'm probably just posting some crap here.
Anw, I've just file all my worksheets from school into various subject files. OMG, my table is freaking clean and tidy now. Actually I have this secret yearning to clean my table all the time and I always make sure that I wipe it clean whenever there is dust. I think I'm weird.
Hmm...holidays...are boring..haha, maybe because I have been staying at home most of the time since mid years are starting right after school reopens! Damn, half a year have just passed like this when I was still thinking that I was still 13 years old. Lol, I looked retarded and super fair last time and I looked cheena too.
I've really been studying all these while you know, to the extent that I'hvnt been seeing palmer for quite some time. Haha, but I'm going to the Jurong bird park with him, his mama and his brother this thursday! So cute, I like his brother...cute face and cute eyes!...hahahahaha..he looks like pamela. :P
Aiks, the last time that I've been to the bird park was in Pri 6 and I've even won the first prize for an art competition for drawing pink flamingoes. LOL.
Hmm...nonstagic. I used to be quite talented last time, I think?
Haha, used to be some artclub captain, some abacus and mental solving pro, dance and choir and wtv. Lol, I feel like I've been losing the momentum and passion that I've once have in studies subconciously.
I think if I would be able to time travel back to five years ago, the 12 years old self of me would surely give me a scolding and insult me severely. I don't know but I know I'm quite different now as compared to the past. I can't say if its a bad thing, because people do change and I feel that they change at different period of their life,because it is unavoidable and it is usually to adapt to a new lifestyle. And We stayed in this state because we feel comfortable and happy like this?
Attitude wise, I do admit that I've changed in the aspect of studies and I've recognised that it is an unwise mistake. I'm trying to make up for the lost time and I'll make sure I do it. Self-motivation. Haha, I'm aiming for a good score for a levels alright! Other than that, my character is very much the same. :) I'm still following some principles of mine. Some things just can't afford to be compromised by another.
Took a break today with my sis. Went for a good lunch break with her at lot- one. Good food, yums. We feel like puking after eating some mango sundae though, because it really tasted weird! But we still did'nt escape the burden of studying and mugged at the library for a bit.
I love studying in the libraries honestly. I have this peaceful and quiet stereotyped impression of the libraries in my head. So whenever I'm sick of studying at home I would make my great escape to the library. But its absurd because when I've reached there, it would be so crowded with a lot of people and even some disruptive ones which irritate me to the max. RAWR. Hate them. If they want to create a chao they should make their way to the playground and act a like a kiddo.
zzzz.
Got to sleep early tonight because there is class cip tomorrow. We're heading to the "Riding for the disabled people association" weekly. It's quite cool there because we get to assist the disabled people to ride on the horses. Can't imagine that there are actually horses in Singapore other than the Zoo. Ha, the last time that I had rode one was when I was 10 or probably younger in the zoo. I think all the horses have escaped there. There are at least 10 horses there and the staffs there are mostly europeans. Nice to see people who are keen to contribute to the society.
And someone is feeling down and troubled tonight. It makes my heart aches too :C Cheer up! I love your cute and white teeth, so smile and show them to me alright:D Don't worry we'll solve this problem together and I'll always be here I promise you :)
Okay, goodnight everyone and I hope that you'll have a sweet dream.
