I am...
Tuesday, July 07, 2009Y
9:10 am
Feeling very confused, sad and hmm..I don't know. What should I feel?I think I have alot of commitments, although most of you don't know that because I don't say it.
I feel that commitments doesn't necessary need to mean those school related stuff and etc, or rahter, its a sense of belonging to a place or a group of people.
I have too much of them, sometimes I don't know where my loyalty lies. I tried to manage, but ended up giving up on some sides and I can't help it.
When we were young, we do things rashly, thinking that our actions make a lot of sense. But when I grow older, I realised some things that I did were out of my scope. I guess my mentality has changed after being exposed to many new stuff. I'm heading towards a different place now but history has created many obstacles for me. Many things has turned meaningless for me now although I didn't want it to.
I guess, my studies is my priority right now. I'm not superhuman like many of you out there, I'm a rather slow learner, so give me time to breathe okay? My parent expect alot from me and I can't afford to disappoint them and myself. Meanwhile, I'll continue to do all I can alright?
